All Rants

"You deserve better" "He's too weird" "I don't like him" "Your parents don't even like him" "You're too young to know what love is" I DONT CARE! I'm not perfect, he treats me like it. I'm weird too. I don't care if anyone else likes him. My parents like 3 of my friends, out of at least 15. Love is not numbered, there is no handbook to tell you what age to fall in love or what age is okay. He makes me happy, listens when I'm speaking, respectful when I mess up and apologize. He knows my traumas, what triggers them, apologizes if he triggers anything. He talks to me like a friend, but treats me like his world. And once he messed up EXTREMELY, but I forgave him. He came back after letting me process with a genuine apology saying he didn't expect me to trust him, that he wanted to EARN his way back into trust. I love him. Im obsessed. But I'm proud, and for the 1st time in 6 years, I'm truly happy. And I'm so tired of people telling me to just leave him like that is so easy. So, so tired.

My mom said I should've died when I was a baby. I was a very weak baby and I have acute asthma, so there were multiple times that I had to stay in the hospital due to an asthma attack. I wonder how long she's been feeling that way.

I wish he could see how sorry I am. I wish I had the contact to tell him.

I think im being sexually assaulted by the grandfather. Second time waking up to him touching my chest and private areas. Im do fucking stressed its not a joke, i cant fall back asleep.

I've gotten attached to some people. Even called one of them my best friend. And I know that's stupid of me, because it's not like they're going to stick around. No one ever does. They'll get bored or sick of me and walk out, or just use me and have no interest beyond that. Might even actively turn on me; that's the usual path. Doesn't help that I'm also getting sick of living. I don't want to die, but I'm tired of being alive. I just want everything to stop.

Genuinely tweaking, my mother sucks. Shes making me ho back to using my legal name in all aspects of my life. I feel so off-kilter and like im going to cry and like theres a hole in my chest. Lmao. She keeps trying to slot me into family interactions right now, and I just hate her so much I cant even stand being down here with her, but I have to. Shes been threatening to take my devices away, so what, then she threatens to not allow me to go to swim practice anymore. I fucking hate it here. I have to wait 2 years to even leave this house, and even then I cant cut ties because I wont be able to pay for my schooling alone.

my great aunt might pass away soon and i dont know how to feel about it but i do love her. part of me wants to break down and cry but the other half just doesn't feel anything, yk? this isn't the first time we've thought she was gonna pass away, this has happened many times as she's gotten older. she's had 2 strokes - one that affected both sides of her brain - and has been rushed into emergency surgery more times than I can count. but this time her risk is higher than it's ever been. i just feel like a horrible person, yk?

I hate my mom

Its 6 am. ive been waiting for him to sleepcall. im tired. i cant do this anymore..

Hey,I just wanted to tell everyone here that you are amazing people. You are such beautiful humans. You are so smart. And so brave,and if you don't think that you deserve to know its true. Whatever that so called "human" did to you you never deserved. Nobody as good as you could ever deserve that. If you are reading this during the morning,good morning! Today is the best day to be kind,to know that your loved,and another chance to be true to yourself. If you are reading this during mid day,Hey! How has your day been going? If its been doing ok then that is fantastic news! I'm really proud of you,but just remember that even on your bad days you are loved. If it is night time,hello! If your day went badly It could never be your fault. Just know that tomorrow is a beautiful day because you've never seen it before. So it is literally a fresh and new beginning! Please get some sleep! Goodbye -Agl

I’m frustrated with how society deans we can say what we need to unless they involve the law, take away your freedom, and destroy your career.

I am working in a government agency and we have an individual performance rating every 6 months. Unfortunately, I being true to myself declared some of my missed deadlines because I am loaded with other support functions. This made my score lower than the usual but still VS. Then, I saw how my supervisor accepted my coworker's misdeclared score being higher than me despite not doing his job properly. Even other sections knows about it but when I saw it. my supervisor defended this co worker just because they are drinking buddies. After half a year, I raised the concern pointing out that it is not healthy for the team not to supervise or help team members that are under performing. Turns out, I am the bad guy now, being nosy, and my supervisor frequently gives remarks that are sarcastic about it. Also, she played the victim after I build boundaries on work (not joining their night out bc my co worker/ drinking buddy is sad).

I want to die

I cry over stupid reasons

I'm going thru a break up. It hurts

I feel like im constantly third wheeling. Seeing other people cheer my friends up where I couldn’t. Seeing them smile towards someone that isn’t me. Seeing them spend more time with their own than me. And honestly, I just wish I could stop working so hard to appease others. A big part of me tells me that it’s okay for people to be happy without me. It’s never their fault or mine. That same part tells me that they’re in good hands, and they know what they’re doing. That they don’t really need me. And Yeah, it hurts. It sucks trying to be the one person that someone can share equal love to. That someone special. But I’m still happy that they’ll be happy too. Even without me, you know?

I genuinely want to kill myself so bad I don't know how to make my days feel good again, it's the same every single day and i dont know how to change it or if i should simply just end it and find peace

I can’t do this anymore my older sister and me have a terrible relationship I need to get out of this house or I need to get out of this life the only way I know how to. I can’t do this and I’m sobbing my eyes out I just had a “conversation” or more like an argument with her and it hurts. There’s all those names I want to say about her but I don’t have the energy to not the mentality, every tear drop make me feel disgusting. My throat hurts from everything and I’m having those shaky breaths idk what those are called. I don’t know why I’m still alive.

I'm 8 months pregnant and I've been in a relationship that's a year and four months long now. I hate myself for putting myself in this situation. He's the worst partner you could ever think of, he knows how much he hurts me emotionally and mentally all he does is just apologize and my stupid ass believes him and he ends up doing the same thing. After a recent big fight he promised a date and flowers something he's never given to me and it was supposed to be tomorrow.. we decided to book an Airbnb instead.. I wanted nothing but a hug from him because it's been really hard for me with this pregnancy. And guess what, since he can't be strict with his family they used his money and he can't even look for his fare to come see me after I offered to pay for the stay and meals for two nights. It's too much for him and after that I'm mean and inconsiderate.. I wish there was a way to fall out of love I can't do this to myself anymore. I'm just worthless and stupid at the end of it all.

I used to write fanfics, and they were totally original stories that I came up with. I’m underage (not an adult) and the stories I wrote featured people who were also underage engaging in sexual activity which is legal. It is. And I included gifs of people who were ADULTS having sex. It is not illegal to do this. I included things saying that all the gifs featured people who were 18+ because I know this isn’t wrong. If it was most people on AO3 and other websites would be locked up. But my fanfics got deleted for sexually explicit content of a minor, and I got so scared that I would be arrested for a crime I didn’t commit. Ive been under so much stress and i just want it to stop. I havent done anything wrong. Im aroace, I don’t even like smut. Just because I wrote it doesnt mean I will do it