All Rants

Six years ago I had matched with a guy on a dating app. We have FaceTimed called and texted all this time. But when it comes to meeting in person he keeps coming up with excuses or just doesn’t bother explaining. He then either blocks me or just ignores me for weeks. I am being made to feel stupid for having these feelings and if I speak to him about it he says he likes me he’s just busy. I’ve been waiting for him for so long to the point I’ve not dated anyone since and I’m turning numb to it all. I don’t know what to do anymore. This just feels like a cruel joke? I’m nearly in my thirties and I just want to settle down and build a life with someone who actually wants me properly.

My life passed by so fast, everyone i know has done something, they've gotten hobbies or done interesting things while i simply waited. why was i waiting? who told me to wait? was i there when my friends needed me? when they were having tough times and needed help was i just waiting like usual. my life, so uneventful i can't remember it. i can't remember my childhood, i can't remember when i met my friends, i can't remember why anything is the way it is now. I can't remember who i used to be. no skills no interests no hobbys no life, sometimes i wonder if the only reason i haven't killed myself is that i've never been alive in the first place. i want to go back, i want to do something, anything. i feel like im living a lie. why do i even have friends? am i even really the same person they knew, it's as if i gained consciousness 2 years ago and everything else is a blur. i just want to be useful, i want someone to need me. im scared of my friends going away and forgetting them

Okay so my gf broke up with me (I’m also a girl ) anyway i got sent to the mental hospital 5 months ago i found this girl there i found out she liked me we started dating but she was supposed to get out a day before me she didn’t I waited for 5 FUCKING months before I got a txt from her I liked her a lot like I actually loved her a lot so we started dating again and then she just said she doesn’t like me anymore so that shi was for fucking nth? I don’t know I can’t do this anymore like time out ref I actually loved this one.

what do i do with this dental pain brooo, i can't go to a dentist cuz we're broke but this shit hurts so badddd i took some pain reliever yesterday but was told i can't take it for more than 7 days or sumshit how is this supposed to work??? do i js drink water every minute and pray that it disappears miraculously?? this shit hurts so bad, i wanna get it checked but there are other things we have to pay for.

i feel so unseen even by the people that care about me most.

I gotta have the worst luck ever when it comes to love but like srsly, a dude I liked turned out to be a neo Nazi, another dude liked kids, another one actually liked me but had internalized racism and didn’t date me cus of that, my ex gf is like weird and obsessed, my other ex gf literally sa me BITCH?? I think I’m not meant to fall in love or something cus why are they all weirdos??

life is worth living, dont take your life.

I'm scared for school, as many are. It's nothing special. I'm going to be both new and late this year and that's scary to me. Being new isn't bad, If anything its just different but i hate being late. I want to go to school, sure, but being late makes me feel so behind. Behind on introductions, friend groups, context, everything. I'll be fine, i just don't know how i'm going to fit into like, the 15th school I've ever been in. this'll be "fun" :T

Basically at a sleepover my friend was being closer to one of her other friends so that wasn’t a problem, it was them constantly leaving me out. The next morning our other friend walks to her house and we order DoorDash. The entire sleepover we didn’t do anything that was sleepover and I was pissed because my mom wasted her gas, I could simply scroll on TikTok at home and we could call and play Roblox aswell. Btw my friend deadass makes those comments “oh you’re so black” “you’re so dark” for some reason ???? like wtf?? mind u one of our friends is dark skin and im lightskin so im wondering why im being targeted?? what’s wrong with my skin being “dark” anyway? btw since then i stopped talking to her. I called my best friend and played Roblox with her at the sleepover and they said i was rude and it’s like all u fat ugly bitches js left me out. on top of that I said we should do something and one of them says play blind deaf mute and Iwaslike there’s four of us??? She said exactly. BRO.

There is this girl I've liked for a while now, 5 years to be exact. I care a lot about her and she means a lot to me, but I just know that there is no possible future where I end up with her. She talks about people she likes and her type in front of me and I just smile and nod, it's not her fault because she has no idea I liked her. Even after I confessed, some things were left unclear. It was clear she didn't like me back that way but I still do. I tried to get over it, I really did, but it's just so hard to get over someone when liking them has become such a normal thing in your life. She's my best friend, and I would hate for anything to change or get in between us, I just don't know what to do. She deserves everything, so much more than what I can offer. I haven't been feeling the best myself, I feel like crap and I feel so insecure. I just don't know what to do, honestly I'm open to advice, I think I need it.

im a financial burden on my parents i hate being chronically ill i hate it i want to take my own life so badly

so i have this friend who’s profoundly autistic and she has a special interest in Atlantis, Jason Momoa and Minecraft. she’s so into it in fact that she’s actually delusional and is literally convinced she’s the reincarnation of the goddess athena and is the daughter of poseidon and she is super convinced she’s gonna meet jason momoa and that he protects her and also her Minecraft OCs are her siblings/spouses…i hate to be that person but im getting beyond sick of it

I’m so scared. I’m graduating this year and I’ve never once had a significant other… what if i never find love?

God, I’m scared to face the world. I’m graduating this year. I honestly hated most of my class, but they’ve been there longer than I can remember and I don’t want it to end because though they may not all be good memories, they’re still memories. It’s gonna be hard not having to get up every single morning for school. I don’t know what I’m gonna do after school. I told my dad and pretty much everyone I wanted to join the navy but now I’m not sure. But now I feel like I’m in too deep.

Im so scared of my town getting blown up. The others around me have, and I believe ours is next. I try tell my family to evacuate but they dont believe me since they dont watch news. If it does get blown up, I just wanna say that if I dont make it out alive then I loved my family so much. I can hear the echoes and the winds of the bombs. They think its the military testing out bombs. Im scared. Im only 17, I wont even make it to 21. The chances are very high, like super high.

I feel so stupid!! I get scared of Elite or Pros in my sports team. I don't want to train with them because their training processes are always hard for me. But I'm so scared that my Coach will make me train with them. I'm so scared to the point that I skip training because I can't face this fear!! This is why I don't improve quickly. I'm not consistent in training because I'm insecure and immature and I'm being childish about them elites/pros when I'm sure they don't even care about me. I hate it. But I can't erase it. I don't want to mess up in front of anybody. ARGHHHH

I really with I had a boyfriend or girlfriend. I want someone to love and cherish completely. Someone to spoil yet have no money to spoil them with. Anyone I like sees me as just a friend, and thats okay. I just wish one would like me back.

What do you do when you feel like you have no friends. Just feels like i have people that are acquaintances. Nobody ever asks to hang out. Call to talk. Nobody ever picks me first. They all have people/someone that theyd rather be with. I want to try make friends, Reach out but when i did. I got ignored or maybe they were put off by me randomly reaching out. Im tired of being alone. Im tired of being anxious and socially isolated. I just want someone to understand me. My anxiety is eating me up. And i dont know how much longer i can keep doing this. I just want to disappear completely. Seems like everyones better off.

I think i love her. I dont know what to do about this except ignore it it for as long as I can. Idk if this will go away or if it will stay but I hope it goes away. I dont want to love someone like this, i dont want to- its to much to handle and to much to think about after everything thats happend. We've known eachother for a little bit over a year now and I feel like thats to soon for me to be feeling this way. I hate that I love her and I want this feeling to stop.. but at the same time I want her to love me too

26th August balloons tym :pppppl