All Rants

I don't really know what to type in right now because I just can't explain what I'm feeling and been going through, but I'll try my best to rant. I really don't know what to do with my life, I lost the motivation in everything, and I feel really guilty for not being able to help my family. I'm just like a lazy person living alone while my family is in another city, working.

i made the biggest mistake of my life. a month ago, i broke up with my boyfriend of two years. i did this because i was in a really bad space, and i thought that maybe it was the relationship that was draining me and making me feel so sad all the time. but over these past few weeks, i realized that i wasn't suffering much. because i had him. without him, i hate being sober. i just thought that maybe we wouldn't work out since im so independent and he wasn't my ideal type. everything he did annoyed me... he was so submissive and agreeing. i just wanted him to be his own person. but i miss him. i critiqued him so heavily when all i needed to do was stop expecting so much out of him. recently, he's shown signs of moving on. and i just can't let go. i miss him. i wish i couldve hugged him one last time or something. and we agreed to be friends, and idk how to just be friends with someone i loved for so long. i just want him back. hes my baby

whens the part where I become speacial and loved. im so sick of this life

i hate being the black sheep of the family, and i hate that i havent accepted the fact that i am yet. I hate that im still scared to disappoint them, while everything i do already disappoints them

i genuinely liked this boy. he was polite, quiet, and we related a lot, especially socially. legit i introduced myself through little letters that he would write back to me. we began talking, and he was genuinely my whole world, even if he was only a friend. i didnt mind him being a friend, in fact, i preferred it that way. BUT THEN I COULDNT TALK TO HIM ANYMORE CUZ MY PARENTS SAID NO, since i techincally confessed when i gave my first letter. and even after they made me explain i was only friends, AND HE AGREED, they still didnt let me talk. he made me want to go to school. and when i couldn't talk with him, it destroyed me. i hated getting up. i hated life. i hate life. my friends had recently explained to him why i wasnt talking. initially my friend lied and said he was looking around for me, and then told me later that he actually looked rlly confused, and kept asking for repeats. now ik forsure he wont talk cuz he's too polite to barge in. I want him to forget me, free from me.

how am i supposed to live like this? i wanna die, throw myself off a bridge, or onto traffic, or off a building, or hang myself off my air conditioner on the roof with notes pinned onto my body talking about all the apologies, all the regrets, everything i hated when i was alive. but i cant bring myself to holding a sharp sculpting tool when i feel like that, or holding a cutting knife for paper. i wanna die but im scared of death. it has to be one or the other, but im scared of the idea that if my hope that ill just reincarnate is false, and that ill just be brought to hell is the only thing seemingly keeping me alive, and the idea that it would hurt. SH feels like an in-between. I can feel the pain from outside, but not die myself. I don't cut myself. i just whack my head cuz i dont like seeing scars. im scared people would only tell me off or get upset, saying that im too privileged to want to die, that im ungrateful. i dont want to be here anymore. no school, and no life. i hate it

Everyone fricking sucks. my parents keep going "oh so yeah, we're the dumb ones and you have all the knowledge" like stfu i did not say that- when i say stuff like "never mind" or "no its okay then" when im trying to explain something- its cuz i cant understand it enough myself to explain it well, not cuz im thinking ur stupid like wtf💀 I can't talk to the only guy i like, even if its already been thoroughly and painfully explained to him that we're only friends (in which he agreed) AND I HAVE TO SEE HIM EVERYDAY, HE'S SO CLOSE BUT YET JUST OUT OF REACH- AND I EFFING HATE EVERYONE- i dont know if im js sensitive or shiih, but there are so many toxic traits, and i would much rather be alone than with people around me at this rate. and how i could explain that i wanna effing die when all that would happen is that ppl would tell me off and say that im overreacting or act rlly nice for two seconds and proceed like they didnt just see me cry, and go back to acting all normal again. LIKE TF

I don’t wanna die but i don’t wanna live like this

I got broken up with. I don’t know how to feel. The relationship was really toxic and I know I should be glad to be out, but I really loved him. When things were good, they were really good. I cried so much for the first two days, but then I was in a better mood for the next two days. For the past week now, I’ve just felt so empty. I can put up with being sad, but the emptiness just feels heavy. I can’t sleep, I can only eat when I get so hungry that I can’t ignore it. My antidepressants feel like they’re not doing anything and I’m just stuck.

My best friend wants to kill himself and it hurts so bad. I love him so much, he's genuinely the kindest person I've ever met. He makes me feel cared about which is rare. He's always there for me and I try to be there for him but it's not enough. I don't want to lose him.

I am ranting because a website called X has suspended my account twice for violation of simply using the expression "You as well die with your boots on." when a cretin wrote on X something dying his his cause. Come on Elon Musk, I have more freedoms calling out a bleep damn cretin who is likely a foreigner that hates our nation. Just for that, my advice for you is that you can kiss my cheeks since I am simply a foreigner who lives here who APPRECIATES his freedom. No more answering what a cretin of any color or nationally wants me to give them reparations since my ancestors allegedly mistreated their ancestors. Se acabo.

why tf is she cominng at me rn , why the fck is she evn shouting at me currently, does hanging cloghs also have a fcking way, like this is new or smth, and she keeps pointing out unecesary shit for no fcking reason and just to fcking complain, the fuck is wrong with her and her fcking mind , im really fcking angry rn and this anger is fcking turning into fcking tears. why tf is she ragebaiting me , no wonder her kids left her alone to , i get that she feels fcking scared that i might leave her and shi but that doesnt give her a fcking reason to keep shouting at the littlest things and im ignoring her rants out cuz i cannot fcking take it anymore , i feel like i will slam my phone down and i just wanna punch the things and i fcking have violent thoughts rn , why the fck is she being like thta , cant she just fcking shut up instead of fcking rage baiting me ,i could ragebait her to but instead i fcking chose to shut up instead so why cant she do the fcking same.

i never felt so lonely, it’s eating me alive. up until my birthday i guess ive expected a little bit more support on this day, but it feels even more lonely. no one was here to celebrate, up until the morning i was crying and even start relapsing again. it’s terrible, i just wish some people would at least give up the amount i would for them and it’s just..it made me realized how much i shouldn’t belong here i don’t feel supported i don’t feel appreciated. Im so tired of this and im so tired of being tired. It’s a never ending cycle and i feel like it wont stop until i put an end to it. i feel like throwing up. i wish i could get better

it’s my birthday and honestly i’ve never felt even more alone than i should have. no one was really here to celebrate my birthday with me and ive been crying all day. I just feel so lonely and i guess i never realized it more than until today

I used to have a good impression of this TL, but now I’m increasingly biased against him. Following his instructions caused me to fail the client’s exam, while other colleagues who didn’t follow his directions passed (which makes me feel like I was played). The second time, I followed his and other Meta QA’s guidance to appropriately ask work-related questions, and I ended up being put on standby. Isn’t this a clear case of double standards?

I feel like I have no true friends, they all have someone else who they would rather be with than me, I just wish I had friends, I have no one ive known since kindergarten or preschool. I have no one. I feel so distant from my family and everyone else.

poossure ranter yet again. nobody fuckin knows who i am or what i'm talking about genuinely what r we doin anyways i guess i'll at least have my silly medal clips i mean that is if pressure is going to be nuked off the face of the planet idk it's all still fresh though i'll have to see how it plays out security check is asking what is 6+7 67676767676767676qawztehcjokgipuol679uj sorry i had to get that out anyways yeah i'm a 10 year old mentally. yeah i need to get off the internet more often. uhhm i'm 19 and i like my plushies and drawings and vidya games son 😭😭😭😭i need 2 lock the hell in bro this the person who's training to stick u with a needle and draw ur blood this yo phlebotomist 😭😭😭😭😭🤣🤣🤣🤣🥹🥹🥹 anyways i mean yeah still bummed out about all this stuff but i'm definitely in a better mood now i really needed this i'm glad i did this go on twitter and look up nolongernull give em support in anyway u can or don't i mean you probably don't know who the hell that is

i am poossure ranter yet again: venting about all of my feelings and thoughts in the light of the truth ren/nolongernull has so bravely put out there has helped. i should write more rants that can also just be about whatever is bothering me in this life. so yeah keeping it in is not healthy kids ! you'll eventually explode and thats bad ! it helps to organize my thoughts and put words to what i'm feeling and then kind of just. file them away. what are the ethics of continuing to play a game made by a terrible person but just not buying anything with real money, whether it's gamepasses or official ugc. someone lmk. to be fair i'm probs just going focus on my upcoming phlebotomy classes, idk i think that might be more important or something but ahh i'm also like i could play a little incase the game is shut down 4 good oh i just realized i can still press enter and not have it send ok i like this format way better i always write my crappy notes app vents and stuff like this (to be cont.

hello i am the pressure ranter if you've even seen my previous rants that is. character limit pisses me off WHY NO LINKS ALLOWED but idgaf anymore imma just type even if it makes no sense. so uh idk. i have an iota of a inkling of hope that pressure could come back in the future. it would take a miracle and a half for that and is the least likely way this could go, i know. so. oh well. good things don't last forever or something. i distanced myself in my own way from it all, that includes leaving the three pressure discord servers i was in and unfriending nearly everyone on roblox. man what am i doing it's not the end of the world if my fav roblocks game is sealed in a coffin. even if it feels like ripping off a limb. but i think there are definitely some good things that have arised from this. i've been knowing that i'm only distracting myself from reality with this game and not making healthy steps towards my goals for myself. like some sort of grim wake up call. (to be cont.)

I fuckin wish people would TW shit. Community spirit isn't hard at all. /nbh (nobody here)