All Rants

UGH so the other day I was answering alot of questions correctly in class, and my teacher just got back from the 2 months they took off ( her husband died) and when I answer another question right, she called me to her desk and gave me a chocolate chip cookie ( I don't really like chocolate but for some reason this one was really good) so I ate most of it, then i gave some to my friends, but as we were getting our stuff to go home, my friends keep calling me a fucking nerd, and im like bitch? Just because I got a cookie and I was answering questions correctly, doesn't fucking mean I'm a nerd! Like I know the subjects, I understand it, ITS EASY AS SHIT. AND YET IM THE NERD? ( i also think my classmates are dumb asses because my teacher asked one of my classmates "what's half of a thousand? "and they didn't know)

I don't know how to start this off so im getting straight into the point, I've started to cut my self, not because I feel insecure or stuff like that, I like the feeling of the blade of the knife going into my skin, it feels nice and relaxing to me, I having done it much, but there is a small cut on my left arm. On a different note, I think I have a gore addiction, or like I don't feel anything when watching it or seeing it

stressed stop working in fast paced enviroments if you have anger issues

HE SMILED AT ME. IM KICKING MY FEET AND GIGGLING BRO. I ALSO CAUGHT HIM LOOKING AT ME A COUPLE TIMES AAAAAAAAAAAAA idk why im sharing this but yeah

I really, really hate dating women when I'm straight. I'm straight af, but man, it really is exhausting dating women.

Hi,I've been a porn addict for three years. It's also worse for me since I'm quite young. And I've picked up some bad coping for it,like self-harm,vaping,and polybuzz. I'm just wondering where can I get help,online or in real life. Any help helps.

I cant even explain it. I'm adopted, so I'm not blood relatives to any of my family. But my one cousin is a complete player. He's dated almost every girl in our grade. Today I was working with him in class and he kept putting my hand on his thigh. I felt disgusted because I uncontrollably move my thumb in the rubbing motion. He put his arm on my hand and my hand was stuck. He kept looking *there* and I felt disgusting. I don't know if Im overthinking someone who just likes physical touch (bc I do too!) or if he actually is attracted to me. I don't even know. Im so uncomfortable, and he even told me he doesn't like my boyfriend. I told my bf about the situation and he separated me from my cousin bc he went through almost exactly the same thing (he is closeted trans ftm, so he looks more feminine sometimes). Im so uncomfortable and scared. I don't know what to do.

!!!TW!!! i dont know what to do. everything seems fine in my life, my grades arent bad, my friends are amazing, so why do i still feel like crying everyday when i come home from school? i tried jumping twice before, but stopped myself. im thinking about it again, but also trying to find other mechanisms. i was thinking that maybe cutting could help, but im also trying to find others, but nothing seems good enough. i just want to disappear for a while

It hurts. Over and over again I get attached to emotionally unavailable people. They all acted like they were so obsessed with me at first. The first one was cheating the whole time we were together, I wasn't even his first choice. The second one rejected me and disappeared when I asked him if he ever wanted a serious relationship with me. The third one faded from my life and replaced me with someone else. The most recent one is in an abusive relationship and can't get out, doesn't seem all that willing to get out, even though he says he loves me. And all the ones inbetween. They all acted like they loved me so much. But it never lasts. I'm just a shiny toy to people, and I lose my shine after a while, and that's when they drop me. I'm their object. I'm a doll. I'm so tired. I just want something that works. I want to feel like I'm lovable and the first choice and the only choice. I don't want to worry about being replaced. Please don't leave me. Please don't ever leave me again.

i have been speaking and been going on dates with this one guy for about 4-5 months now, recently he asked me to be his girlfriend and i said yes! he has introduced me to some of his friends and his family, has me as his wallpaper on his phone and has even announced to his coworkers he officially has a gf. it feels great and we have so much in common and i think the world of him. but i have this nagging gut feeling he is seeing someone else, that there's something going on behind my back. I have no reason to, we've both been thru each other's phones and i haven't seen anything that will make me doubt him but i can't shake this feeling. I've been hurt in the past, and I chalk this up to having an anxious attachment style. But idk what to do or what to say, think or feel. We only see each other once every two weeks, and its a 50 min drive to each other, I think this distance doesn't help. I'm sick of feeling like this, like something bad is around the corner and i didn't prepare enough

im so fucking depressed. i feel useless, i wanna have a well paying job but im so fucking dumb, even if i study hard. my family life is hell, i got an abusive mom whos bipolar and a brother who wants to hit me. i try talking to my other family members about my issues but all i get is "i went through that." im so severally tired that i dont wanna wake up, i dont shower, i dont brush my teeth, i smell and i look like a mess. i was so pretty, really really pretty but now since i broke my fucking tooth i look so ugly. im so insecure. i want someone to love me but every guy i talk to is a werido who says something racist and has a brain of a pea. im trynna study but im so dumb to not get anything and when i slip up, i get abused for being "too dumb". i wanna move out soon but im so broke and i have no money to my name. no motivation is helping me, all my friends are fake, im a loser who is severlly chronically online and i have a mentally ill sister and a fucked up family. fuck my life.

I feel lonely and unloved. Everyone can find someone that loves them and I only find partners that don't even love me, I feel like something is wrong with me.

This customer I got today is a fucking bitch. 2 months ago she saw me at a shop and she was like "Hey ur the girl from (my work)" and I was so caught off guard, tired bc I had a long day, and i also interacted with this lady twice in my life at this point. I responded with "I think so" and then I forgot about that day completely. 2 months later, today, she was at my register. Everything is normal, I'm serving her, then she cracks it at me. She says "oh ur the girl I saw at the shop" and she starts getting mad and saying that im a "fucking rude bitch" because I didn't talk to her outside of my work? It was right after school I was still in uniform and I also don't know this lady. Why do you care?! Why are you still pressed?! This happened two months ago. Why are you only bringing it up now? It isnt personal. Omg I've never wanted to slap someone more than her. I genuinely wish the worst for her sour ass sorry ass excuse for a person. I seriously hate her

I was hurt by my class one day; everyone turned against me because a girl told the class some lies, and I was unfairly judged, even by my friends. But some of them were really kind and supported me. Still, I spent days and days crying, and nights too; I couldn’t stop crying and didn’t talk about it with the teachers or even the school tutors, and I withdrew into myself, no longer able to talk as I did at the start of the year because I used to be very sociable and playful, and I’d even make friends with people who were bullied and not appreciated by the school; basically, I was adored by everyone at school. But even with their support, I couldn’t forget what happened to me, even though now everyone has forgotten about it. I will never forget it, and it hurts every time I think about it

bro, I made a sticker of my bestie and sent it to the gc, IN WHICH THERE ARE LITERALLY THREE PEOPLE, me, my bestie and my other bestie, and like I deleted it right after I sent it, and they both saw it, but now my bestie suspects that our other bestie has saved the sticker and is gonna send it to others, but like I don't think so, but she's gotten to me and now I have some suspicions, but like I'd feel so bad if our other bestie's actually saved it and sends it to others, my bestie would become a meme and it'd be my fault, what do I do, and like we have a three day break from school so I can't even talk to her tomorrow

Thank you to whoever made this website. You've saved a lot of lives. Ive been in a relationship for 12 years. Just recently found out he's been cheating on me. He was honest about it so I can't be mad. We just had our second kid 4 months ago. I don't have any friends or social media. No job. No car. Nothing but him and my kids. I've never in my life felt so alone. I'm sad. I'm broken. I'm happy. I don't know what else to do but stay and work it out. I can't look at him the same anymore because all I think about is him being with her. She got everything that Ive been wanting from him. I'm broken. That's all for today.

I don't really know what to type in right now because I just can't explain what I'm feeling and been going through, but I'll try my best to rant. I really don't know what to do with my life, I lost the motivation in everything, and I feel really guilty for not being able to help my family. I'm just like a lazy person living alone while my family is in another city, working.

i made the biggest mistake of my life. a month ago, i broke up with my boyfriend of two years. i did this because i was in a really bad space, and i thought that maybe it was the relationship that was draining me and making me feel so sad all the time. but over these past few weeks, i realized that i wasn't suffering much. because i had him. without him, i hate being sober. i just thought that maybe we wouldn't work out since im so independent and he wasn't my ideal type. everything he did annoyed me... he was so submissive and agreeing. i just wanted him to be his own person. but i miss him. i critiqued him so heavily when all i needed to do was stop expecting so much out of him. recently, he's shown signs of moving on. and i just can't let go. i miss him. i wish i couldve hugged him one last time or something. and we agreed to be friends, and idk how to just be friends with someone i loved for so long. i just want him back. hes my baby

whens the part where I become speacial and loved. im so sick of this life

i hate being the black sheep of the family, and i hate that i havent accepted the fact that i am yet. I hate that im still scared to disappoint them, while everything i do already disappoints them