All Rants

We're having issues getting an apartment because of my boyfriend's credit, so I have to move back in with my parents for probably under a month. My parents seemed fine with it (they were the ones who offered! Unprompted!), but now my dad is being weird about it and not replying to my texts, just sending me links to articles about how to raise your credit report. Thanks, totally not stressful. I wish I was dead.

I rlly tired of everything, as in everything. I wanted to end my own life that I promised not to, i’m rlly drained. I js wanted a complete and healthy family. I hope in the next life, my dads not an alcohol addict, gives us time, loving us, and providing our financial needs as a padre de pamilya—i hope in the next life, my moms happy, loved, and helped for our needs. But that’s only dream. When can i hang myself? Tomorrow? Next week? Or later? But neither of those, i’m still gonna end my own life so i’ll escape this cruel world. I don’t wanna rant to my friends or strangers bcoz they’ll scold me for attempting to end my own life. Why? Because i’m to young—even if i’m young and I still have a future, i’ll kill myself, you don’t understand it unless you experience it. Even a 10 year old kid can end his/her life because of this draining situation. Everybody have they’re own lives, has they’re own opinion, so why don’t let them? Why don’t let me? Yeah, I expected them to call me selfish

I genuinely don't want to continue living anymore. Everything that used to make me happy feels like nothing and I barely feel happy anymore. Every single time any of my family pets die my parents just spring it on us randomly and expect us to go to school like everything's normal and barely give me time to grieve. Our dog that's only like 8 months old just died and I can hear my mother laughing downstairs like nothing has happened. I hate school because the teachers don't give a shit about anyone's mental health and keep putting pressure on everything to do loads of things for homework in like a day. I genuinely don't want to stay alive anymore and don't think I can continue mentally. Best case I'll just rot in bed for a day or two and then get forced to go to school.

I don't even know what im feeling. Tired ig, burnt out. I wasn't really feeling it today i don't want to eat, I don't feel like it and hunger didn't hit me. I forced myself to take a bath because it was too hot but i didn't really want to get up. I just stayed in the room almost the whole day. I feel bored and just sad ig.

Why does a lotta society think that men in feminine clothing is bad but women in masc clothes is good?? And those same people stand for “gender equaliry”, like hello?? if we just change the genders for an example, it’d sound SO like yk, saying “boys shouldn’t wear skirts/dresses” is the same as saying “girls shouldn’t wear pants/suits” but in the opposite gender, or smth like that? Why, society??

i would rather die than be with my mom who always vent her anger in me for the stupidest shit she made

My mum a lot of the time just sits in her chair and has a hand to her temple/sighing lots in a way I know shes upset, worried or usually grumpy. She acts like she wants me to ask if somethings up and always says shes fine but keeps on fucking sighing passive agressively. It gets on my nerves but maybe because I either say if im angry or just dont show it ik thats unreasonable but its a rant site for a reason

The middle east is a miserable place

i get that at times it may seem like i have no self respect, that i’m a “bird brained bitch” or anything along those lines, but i’d just like to be loved properly for once man. no hiding me, no breaking up after 2-3 months, just being loved by a person who can handle me even during harsh times in our lives. for some reason, i still think i can go back to my ex-boyfriend and try to change him to make him love me properly, but i know that’s not going to happen and i’ll just be stuck in an infinite loop of: “what if?”

I want to die. I've felt this way since I was eleven. I don't know why I feel this way. I have a good life, I have amazing friends, and a beautiful girlfriend, yet here I am. My thighs covered in scars, both new and old, and my head filled with violent thoughts that I wish were not there. I'd say I have a nice family, but I don't feel like I can talk to any of them. My mother is emotionally unavailable and makes me feel shitty when I go to talk to her about how I feel, my step-dad is just an ass who does not give a shit about how I feel(or about how anyone feels for that matter), my bio-dad is amazing but doesn't do well with emotion, and I'm not sure how to talk to my step-mother about these things(I love her to death though). I feel so trapped in my own head, like my emotions are slowly tearing me apart. I hate this. Normally, I'm really strong when it comes to this, but I've honestly been slipping recently. I don't know how much longer I can go on. I feel so alone.

how do you get over someone who you loved with everything in you but they got over you so quickly..

This vent will have nothing to do with reality at all. It's about religion. My dark religious fantasy comes when I'm filled with rage and hate. I am mad at the people who force their beliefs on to me. I know god and Jesus aren't real and I know angels and heaven aren't real but this idea came to me one day. here it goes: I want to kill everyone in heaven. I want to kill god and Jesus. I want to kill the angels too. I hate every single one of them. I hate god and Jesus and I never loved god and Jesus because they aren't real. I can't help these feelings. I want to to burn heaven and set god and Jesus on fire. I want to burn angels too. I want the light to be turned to darkness. the darkness is better than the light. I was never born to be with god and people who say this make me want to kill people and myself. God, Jesus, angels and heaven are just bad. They are toxic and love is pathetic too. People who force me to be in heaven and say I'm evolving are the dangerous ones.

I'm so tired. My head is always so loud. I don't know how to make it stop. A constant static that blares into my ears from the simplest of things. Every interaction, every event, every action I take just makes my head spin. I want it to stop. Everything is too much. Everything is too loud.

Whenever I get into a relationship, all I can think about is how undeserving and unworthy I am of the person's love and care. I'm not good-looking, I don't have a big or unique personality, and there is literally nothing striking about me. Yet they still see something. It's confusing. I'm so bland, yet they take an interest in me. There are so many other people they could've loved and cared for, yet they chose me. It makes no sense. Make it make sense.

im scared i dont fit in at school. i only talk to like three people, im always quiet, and i feel like most of my teachers dont notice me. i want to interact with my peers, but theyre too rude. they really only talk about tiktok, nike, and starbucks. they also insult people who act differently, dress differently, or look different. i became friends with those three people because they talk about stuff i actually enjoy (drawing, music, object shows, etc). i want to hang out with my peers, but theyre not very likable. sometimes i feel like they think the same about me i didnt read over this and i dont usually vent/rant, sorry

i just moved to racine wi from fl i was in jail im 16 i was living with my grandma but she no longer wanted me so dcf put me with my dad i basically have no choice in my own life i cant speak unless he tells me i can i gotta work where he wants me to work i gotta go to what college he wants me to go to he wont leave me at home when he has work and i dont i gotta ride in the truck and do servise calls with him until the end of the day im truly not a bad kid just mentally unstable i tell him but he proceeds to yell in my face im his kid and his kids are fine and then he tells me not to talk then smakes my face when i dont answer him

when I don't know what to do I seek comfort in the same night sky we used to look at together, a distant memory that'll fade like the sun rises as the moon goes and I still think of you. They say to give you the moon but just like you it slips out of my hand. the stars shine like the light used to in your eyes when we first looked at each other under this same night sky. you'll share this sky with someone else now but when I look into the stars they'll always say your name.

I genuinely think I am going to die soon. I'm so exhausted. I would never kill myself, but I'm just expecting myself to go from just... mental exhaustion. I'm using the last of my strength to make others happy, since I feel like nobody can help me at this point.

I fucking hate mormonism. I'm sick of it. I'm stuck in fuckass utah, 95% of my family is Mormon, and God they make sure I know it. It's been nearly a year since I've left that disgusting, vile cult and I'm going insane. I wish I could save my 2 younger sisters and just grab them by the shoulders and shake them and tell them that they're in a cult, and that life out here is so much better than they can comprehend right now, that they've been brainwashed for years, how eerily similar it is to the well known scientology cult, and that they need to R U N . And now, the cult leaders lately have been essentially telling the members that if they have a family member or loved one that's "strayed off the path", then they're(the members)aren't being faithful enough, aren't a truly devout member, and that if they truly fucking drown in all the teachings and doctrine and practices, then one day the "strays" will come back. I just want them to see outside. It hurts that I can't save them rn.

its getting bad again . i nvr rly struggled w cutting or stuff like that . but have never felt the need to relapse so badly . i feel like i have no one in my corner nd im js doing this alone again . nd theres a part of me that rly wishes i could take away these feelings nd my actions,but who would i be if i didnt feel the way i do nd do wht i did ? its all js too much nd im honestly thinking abt committing . theres rly only 1 person i can think of that would be able to convince me not to do it . but even then thats a reach . i have so many letters to do bcs id feel 10x worse if i said goodbye w/out one last word . but at the end of the day,do they deserve my careful words when they were the ones who left me alone ? i think abt it everyday nd im trying oh so hard not to do it for another week or two,but god its getting so hard .