All Rants

i have been speaking and been going on dates with this one guy for about 4-5 months now, recently he asked me to be his girlfriend and i said yes! he has introduced me to some of his friends and his family, has me as his wallpaper on his phone and has even announced to his coworkers he officially has a gf. it feels great and we have so much in common and i think the world of him. but i have this nagging gut feeling he is seeing someone else, that there's something going on behind my back. I have no reason to, we've both been thru each other's phones and i haven't seen anything that will make me doubt him but i can't shake this feeling. I've been hurt in the past, and I chalk this up to having an anxious attachment style. But idk what to do or what to say, think or feel. We only see each other once every two weeks, and its a 50 min drive to each other, I think this distance doesn't help. I'm sick of feeling like this, like something bad is around the corner and i didn't prepare enough

im so fucking depressed. i feel useless, i wanna have a well paying job but im so fucking dumb, even if i study hard. my family life is hell, i got an abusive mom whos bipolar and a brother who wants to hit me. i try talking to my other family members about my issues but all i get is "i went through that." im so severally tired that i dont wanna wake up, i dont shower, i dont brush my teeth, i smell and i look like a mess. i was so pretty, really really pretty but now since i broke my fucking tooth i look so ugly. im so insecure. i want someone to love me but every guy i talk to is a werido who says something racist and has a brain of a pea. im trynna study but im so dumb to not get anything and when i slip up, i get abused for being "too dumb". i wanna move out soon but im so broke and i have no money to my name. no motivation is helping me, all my friends are fake, im a loser who is severlly chronically online and i have a mentally ill sister and a fucked up family. fuck my life.

I feel lonely and unloved. Everyone can find someone that loves them and I only find partners that don't even love me, I feel like something is wrong with me.

This customer I got today is a fucking bitch. 2 months ago she saw me at a shop and she was like "Hey ur the girl from (my work)" and I was so caught off guard, tired bc I had a long day, and i also interacted with this lady twice in my life at this point. I responded with "I think so" and then I forgot about that day completely. 2 months later, today, she was at my register. Everything is normal, I'm serving her, then she cracks it at me. She says "oh ur the girl I saw at the shop" and she starts getting mad and saying that im a "fucking rude bitch" because I didn't talk to her outside of my work? It was right after school I was still in uniform and I also don't know this lady. Why do you care?! Why are you still pressed?! This happened two months ago. Why are you only bringing it up now? It isnt personal. Omg I've never wanted to slap someone more than her. I genuinely wish the worst for her sour ass sorry ass excuse for a person. I seriously hate her

I was hurt by my class one day; everyone turned against me because a girl told the class some lies, and I was unfairly judged, even by my friends. But some of them were really kind and supported me. Still, I spent days and days crying, and nights too; I couldn’t stop crying and didn’t talk about it with the teachers or even the school tutors, and I withdrew into myself, no longer able to talk as I did at the start of the year because I used to be very sociable and playful, and I’d even make friends with people who were bullied and not appreciated by the school; basically, I was adored by everyone at school. But even with their support, I couldn’t forget what happened to me, even though now everyone has forgotten about it. I will never forget it, and it hurts every time I think about it

bro, I made a sticker of my bestie and sent it to the gc, IN WHICH THERE ARE LITERALLY THREE PEOPLE, me, my bestie and my other bestie, and like I deleted it right after I sent it, and they both saw it, but now my bestie suspects that our other bestie has saved the sticker and is gonna send it to others, but like I don't think so, but she's gotten to me and now I have some suspicions, but like I'd feel so bad if our other bestie's actually saved it and sends it to others, my bestie would become a meme and it'd be my fault, what do I do, and like we have a three day break from school so I can't even talk to her tomorrow

Thank you to whoever made this website. You've saved a lot of lives. Ive been in a relationship for 12 years. Just recently found out he's been cheating on me. He was honest about it so I can't be mad. We just had our second kid 4 months ago. I don't have any friends or social media. No job. No car. Nothing but him and my kids. I've never in my life felt so alone. I'm sad. I'm broken. I'm happy. I don't know what else to do but stay and work it out. I can't look at him the same anymore because all I think about is him being with her. She got everything that Ive been wanting from him. I'm broken. That's all for today.

I don't really know what to type in right now because I just can't explain what I'm feeling and been going through, but I'll try my best to rant. I really don't know what to do with my life, I lost the motivation in everything, and I feel really guilty for not being able to help my family. I'm just like a lazy person living alone while my family is in another city, working.

i made the biggest mistake of my life. a month ago, i broke up with my boyfriend of two years. i did this because i was in a really bad space, and i thought that maybe it was the relationship that was draining me and making me feel so sad all the time. but over these past few weeks, i realized that i wasn't suffering much. because i had him. without him, i hate being sober. i just thought that maybe we wouldn't work out since im so independent and he wasn't my ideal type. everything he did annoyed me... he was so submissive and agreeing. i just wanted him to be his own person. but i miss him. i critiqued him so heavily when all i needed to do was stop expecting so much out of him. recently, he's shown signs of moving on. and i just can't let go. i miss him. i wish i couldve hugged him one last time or something. and we agreed to be friends, and idk how to just be friends with someone i loved for so long. i just want him back. hes my baby

whens the part where I become speacial and loved. im so sick of this life

i hate being the black sheep of the family, and i hate that i havent accepted the fact that i am yet. I hate that im still scared to disappoint them, while everything i do already disappoints them

i genuinely liked this boy. he was polite, quiet, and we related a lot, especially socially. legit i introduced myself through little letters that he would write back to me. we began talking, and he was genuinely my whole world, even if he was only a friend. i didnt mind him being a friend, in fact, i preferred it that way. BUT THEN I COULDNT TALK TO HIM ANYMORE CUZ MY PARENTS SAID NO, since i techincally confessed when i gave my first letter. and even after they made me explain i was only friends, AND HE AGREED, they still didnt let me talk. he made me want to go to school. and when i couldn't talk with him, it destroyed me. i hated getting up. i hated life. i hate life. my friends had recently explained to him why i wasnt talking. initially my friend lied and said he was looking around for me, and then told me later that he actually looked rlly confused, and kept asking for repeats. now ik forsure he wont talk cuz he's too polite to barge in. I want him to forget me, free from me.

how am i supposed to live like this? i wanna die, throw myself off a bridge, or onto traffic, or off a building, or hang myself off my air conditioner on the roof with notes pinned onto my body talking about all the apologies, all the regrets, everything i hated when i was alive. but i cant bring myself to holding a sharp sculpting tool when i feel like that, or holding a cutting knife for paper. i wanna die but im scared of death. it has to be one or the other, but im scared of the idea that if my hope that ill just reincarnate is false, and that ill just be brought to hell is the only thing seemingly keeping me alive, and the idea that it would hurt. SH feels like an in-between. I can feel the pain from outside, but not die myself. I don't cut myself. i just whack my head cuz i dont like seeing scars. im scared people would only tell me off or get upset, saying that im too privileged to want to die, that im ungrateful. i dont want to be here anymore. no school, and no life. i hate it

Everyone fricking sucks. my parents keep going "oh so yeah, we're the dumb ones and you have all the knowledge" like stfu i did not say that- when i say stuff like "never mind" or "no its okay then" when im trying to explain something- its cuz i cant understand it enough myself to explain it well, not cuz im thinking ur stupid like wtf💀 I can't talk to the only guy i like, even if its already been thoroughly and painfully explained to him that we're only friends (in which he agreed) AND I HAVE TO SEE HIM EVERYDAY, HE'S SO CLOSE BUT YET JUST OUT OF REACH- AND I EFFING HATE EVERYONE- i dont know if im js sensitive or shiih, but there are so many toxic traits, and i would much rather be alone than with people around me at this rate. and how i could explain that i wanna effing die when all that would happen is that ppl would tell me off and say that im overreacting or act rlly nice for two seconds and proceed like they didnt just see me cry, and go back to acting all normal again. LIKE TF

I don’t wanna die but i don’t wanna live like this

I got broken up with. I don’t know how to feel. The relationship was really toxic and I know I should be glad to be out, but I really loved him. When things were good, they were really good. I cried so much for the first two days, but then I was in a better mood for the next two days. For the past week now, I’ve just felt so empty. I can put up with being sad, but the emptiness just feels heavy. I can’t sleep, I can only eat when I get so hungry that I can’t ignore it. My antidepressants feel like they’re not doing anything and I’m just stuck.

My best friend wants to kill himself and it hurts so bad. I love him so much, he's genuinely the kindest person I've ever met. He makes me feel cared about which is rare. He's always there for me and I try to be there for him but it's not enough. I don't want to lose him.

I am ranting because a website called X has suspended my account twice for violation of simply using the expression "You as well die with your boots on." when a cretin wrote on X something dying his his cause. Come on Elon Musk, I have more freedoms calling out a bleep damn cretin who is likely a foreigner that hates our nation. Just for that, my advice for you is that you can kiss my cheeks since I am simply a foreigner who lives here who APPRECIATES his freedom. No more answering what a cretin of any color or nationally wants me to give them reparations since my ancestors allegedly mistreated their ancestors. Se acabo.

why tf is she cominng at me rn , why the fck is she evn shouting at me currently, does hanging cloghs also have a fcking way, like this is new or smth, and she keeps pointing out unecesary shit for no fcking reason and just to fcking complain, the fuck is wrong with her and her fcking mind , im really fcking angry rn and this anger is fcking turning into fcking tears. why tf is she ragebaiting me , no wonder her kids left her alone to , i get that she feels fcking scared that i might leave her and shi but that doesnt give her a fcking reason to keep shouting at the littlest things and im ignoring her rants out cuz i cannot fcking take it anymore , i feel like i will slam my phone down and i just wanna punch the things and i fcking have violent thoughts rn , why the fck is she being like thta , cant she just fcking shut up instead of fcking rage baiting me ,i could ragebait her to but instead i fcking chose to shut up instead so why cant she do the fcking same.

i never felt so lonely, it’s eating me alive. up until my birthday i guess ive expected a little bit more support on this day, but it feels even more lonely. no one was here to celebrate, up until the morning i was crying and even start relapsing again. it’s terrible, i just wish some people would at least give up the amount i would for them and it’s just..it made me realized how much i shouldn’t belong here i don’t feel supported i don’t feel appreciated. Im so tired of this and im so tired of being tired. It’s a never ending cycle and i feel like it wont stop until i put an end to it. i feel like throwing up. i wish i could get better