All Rants

My sister (13) is the exact antithesis of what I was at her age. For context, I am 17, also AFAB. This is such a loser thing to say, but I’m so unbearably jealous of her. She has a huge social circle and friends in all her classes, whilst i didn’t have a singular friend at her age (i barely have two friends who rarely reach out to me rn, im always the one to reach out). To add onto that, she has an actual best friend, while I myself have never had a best friend in my entire life. She even has a boyfriend and guess what??? I’ve never had a relationship ever. She’s also very conventionally attractive whilst i am absolutely not. I have acne scars all over my face. Sometimes it even hurts to look at her for too long because she reminds me that my teenage experience is almost over and i never got to experience anything like she has.

lol you got pregnant and had a kid now living in a trailer with a very sweaty fat dude whos only focus in life is to play video games and schizo post online, meanwhile i am doing well in life stable, no financial worries no stress, and i have all the time in the world to do what i want rather than being stuck as a parent for the next 18 years, funny seeing that after all this time goodluck

Bro genuinely, suicide is always on my mind. It is so obnoxious. I hate going to school listening to all these people laugh and smile with their friends while I sit alone thinking about what id write on my suicide note. I hate living in this shit hole. I hate knowing exactly how I’m going to die. I hate that people around me are excited to hit 18 or excited to get married or wtv while I watch from the sidelines just waiting to be able to buy a gun.

I'm holding in so much pent up resentment. I feel like it's eating me alive and it's only a matter of time before I go insane. It isn't directed at any one person, just most people in my life.

ive been taking meds for ocd and anxiety n i have got better recently but just had intrusive thoughts ytd n i still cant get out of that even tho i already took xanax n i dun reli have friends to vent to regarding this issue right now im just keep telling myself that its ok it will pass while focusing on writing my essay homework but i just feel a bit stuck n i hate it

I feel like a background character in my own life. I hate looking at group pictures of myself because I always look like the odd one out, no matter what. I’m not lonely at school, I have plenty of friends, but barely anyone that I really know well. I’ve stuck myself in a rut of loneliness because I never really reach out to others or really get to know other people. Sometimes I start to realize that I’m my own worst enemy always trying too hard to be cool and funny because I feel like I have something to prove or just completely withdrawing because I’m scared of being seen or acknowledged. I wonder if someone from school might come across this and maybe realize who exactly this is behind the screen.

Hey yall, guy from the 2nd grade relationship rant. I should clarify, she said we never matched but also she was honest and kind about it. In no way was she disrespectful or cruel about it, just honest, and I believe she made a choice that was best for herself. But to everyone who has posted since then, I want you to know I love you all. I could never know the pain you're going through right now, but I love you through it all. You deserve love, and peace, and grace, and everything good in-between. You aren't what you believe, because I KNOW YOU ARE WORTH EVERYTHING. I pray every day you'll find someone who will see YOU. Never forget, I love you no matter what. If one person can, it stands to reason someone else can too. Never forget your worth, never.

K is an egomaniac who accuses the worst of people who disagree with her, like when she called nonbinary people transphobes and flounced out of the community because a game glitch players can't fix causes aliens to switch between male and female sprites and people decided to use that to make nonbinary aliens. She came back years later and immediately accused someone of comparing art theft to rape simply because they said "I don't consent to having my art reposted". I don't even know why she came back when she clearly hates the community enough to have left in the first place. Given the timing I can only assume it's because E removing the art commissions channel was controversial, and he wanted to hire a mod to help defend the decision. I don't even care about the ban because it's his server and he makes the rules. It's the blatant treatment of K as his personal attack dog I've got issues with.

My mother cares more about her fucked up fiance than me and my sister. We lost our dad almost 7 years ago now, and when he passed, my mother wasn't here for her or me; I raised my sister from then to even now. I've taught her all the values and rights and wrongs she knows, I help with her school work, make sure she does everything right. I was there. My mother wasn't. My mother still isn't here. She is awesome sometimes though, for like a week. It feels like she is mother of the year for a week; though, it takes a very steep slope down the fucked up rabbit whole of the other man whom she makes us call step-dad. The day my father died I vowed I would never call another person dad or step-dad. Here I am though, forced to call this narcissistic asshole a "step-dad". I'm just so tired of being put last, and I feel like my mother should always put her children first. But she never does. It goes fiance-animals-sister-me. IM SO SICK OF ITTTTT

my mom makes me feel like I am a burden and that I am the cause of her problems, when she doesn't see how I am struggling with my mental health, she starts arguments with me and it makes me feel worse because I don't like when she argues with me but she doesn't care and I think I am loosing my mind

long story short it’s relationship problems it was good at first but it just started to go down hill and then cheating startedand then when i thought everything was ACTUALLY GOOD he’s getting mad at me for things he shouldn’t even be mad about.like i really think he’s just trying to make me break up with him,but everytime i do he blows up my phone comes to my houseand stuff but like for example a little information i cant lay on my left side because it makes my whole leg go numb he proceeded to ask me to rub himand im like ok, but i have to get on my side yk it be hurtingand layed on my side even though i knew it was gone hurt just to rub him he said nvm dontworry about it then and thenproceeded to argue with me saying that if i didn’t wanna rub him that’s all i had tosay mind you i rub him EVERYDAYand i never get rubbed orcuddled and just TODAY he got mad at me because he hadn’tgotten in the shower yetand proceeded to put his hands inhis pants and got mad bc i didn’t want to smell it

i think about death

hey back again. same person that had the situation with their cousin. I told him it was okay.. but GOSH I feel DISGUSTING and DISGUSTED. His gf found out about the situation and broke up with him. I would feel bad. I would accept his apology. I would mean it when I said its okay. And honestly I'm starting to blame myself. I could have spoken and said I was not comfortable. but that still doesn't make it right. Am I a bad person for lying and not truthfully accepting his apology..?

Ive been struggling alot recently. In the past year and a half my life has fallen apart. Ive lost almost all my friends, i only have 2. My boyfriend, and my friend who doesnt go to school. I went from being liked by a few people to being hated by people ive never even fucking spoken to. Its hard. School is a problem, but my home life is worse. My whole family treats me like a burden, my siblings always call me fat and never actually talk to me, so i always stay in my room. My parents fight all the time and tell me horrible things, both have told me to take my own life. Im 17, i have nowhere else to go. I turn 18 in November and i fear ill be kicked out and left alone to suffer. I try my best to seem normal and to help myself but it really sucks and its so painful. Ive always been quiet and to myself but ive been struggling sense i was little. I wish my life was different because being stuck in a house like this surrounded by people who hate me make it hard for me to want to keep going.

i don't rly matter to anyone. i'm fine with being a loner. i've always been one. but sometimes, it does hurt seeing people you call your friends make plans with everyone but you. i try to be nice to them. i get them gifts, etc for their birthdays. not once have i gotten a gift from any of them before. that's fine. i don't rly care about my birthday that much as it's just another day. but yeah, they could at least take ten seconds out of their day to send a text or smth. idk. lately i've just been wondering what the point of anything is. yeah, get the degree, get a job, then what? there doesn't seem to be any point except to just conform to the model life society has set out for us and that everyone expects us to follow. idk if i just don't want to live or if i don't want to live in a mold that brings me no satisfaction. why do i think about things like this? i care too much for others and they don't seem to care back. why must i put in the effort only to be hurt time and time again?

My ldr boyfriend lately is constantly busy and I think he is avoiding me and I just want someone's perspective on it? Is it true he doesn't love me anymore? Is it true that guys usually lose interest because a girl isn't near? Is it true all long distance relationships fail?

So I really want to be able to express myself to my parents but I can't cuz all they do it judge me. They tell me I can always talk to them, but when I do they try to change me and don't listen to me, telling me that I am the problem and can't do anything right. They also give me a million rules and don't let me be alone for one minute, making me feel like I'm suffocating. For instance, I want to be a professional kpop dancer, but when I told them I was considering becoming a dancer, my mom immediately shot me down saying I don't have and experience and couldn't do it. I just want my parents to support me, but they won't let me be me.

I hate being fat after having a baby. I’m 84kg and I hate myself so much. I see others my size and think they look stunning, why can’t I see myself this way?😩

The main reason I didn’t report my childhood SA was because it was the only time i felt noticed cause my mom hated me and didn’t give me any attention whatsoever. Messed up I know

I'm genuinely so saddened, I had such a sad conversation with my mother and I explained things to her how I was definitely not agreeing with so many points of religion and when I spoke back explaining how I thought it was fucked up and that science only proved that women's brains only develop at the age of 25 she dismissed it and said that science isn't Allah. and that he said that little girls are mature as soon as they get their periods, I'm seriously on the verge of letting my tears flow