All Rants

i wish i was born in a 1st world country and being an upper class there, like sometimes i wish my problems are just fussing over what pronouns i wanna go with rather than fearing if my country would collapse tomorrow

being in the art community sometimes is just hell. imagine, fucking imagine how much of a loser incel shitfuck chud could you be to romanticize a situation between debtor and a loan shark. i hope one day, your loved ones will be trapped in desperation which led them to be in debt for their entire life and you WILL experience their collateral damage, not so romantic now, is it? tldr: you deserve the deepest pit of hell, Vince

i feel bad i've lost to lust again i feel so guilty but i just cant stop i need idont know waht to do

I don’t feel like myself anymore. I’m usually the kind of person who acts happy, cheerful, and like everything is okay with life, but right now it doesn’t feel real. After my girlfriend/boyfriend broke up with me, something in me just feels off and I can’t even properly understand what’s going on inside my own head. I keep wondering if I did something wrong, if I’m the problem, or if I’m just… not enough for people. My days all blur together. I wake up, go to school, sit through it, then go to work, then come home and just repeat everything again. The only thing I really do outside of that is art, and even that doesn’t always feel like it means anything. Most of the time I just end up scrolling, watching anime, reading, sleeping too much, or just laying in bed doing nothing because I feel drained in a way I can’t explain. I keep thinking about my life and it feels messy in my head. My grades aren’t good, my parents aren’t together, and I don’t really have people I feel close to anymor

I actually have no clue how to reach out. I've been struggling mentally since 5th grade (I am a freshman now) and I've never truly vented to anyone. I've vauguely described some things that have been bothering me to my mom, but never to the extent that I should be. I've recently noticed that my state is getting worse. I think I've developed an ED. I eat at most twice a day and I am on three sports teams. My parents have commented on how much I've been eating, but haven't asked noticed its an ED. I have no clue how to ask for help. I thought about writing a note describing my mental state and asking for a therapist. I'm also pretty suicidal and I've collected pills in case I ever get to the point where I want to end it. I also don't know if I have the time since I spread myself thin with activities which I use to distract myself from things I struggle with. I also don't know if my parents have the money since they spend a lot on my and my brother's activities. I just want to be happy.

I have online friends. There is specifically one who I've known for about 3 years. I am 14 and she is 17. About 3 months into being friends, she left her account for about 2 and a half years and only came back August of 2025. Ever since then, we have been increasingly close. Now, this friend is known for making ARG's (alternate reality games) and is emotionally intelligent. I, however, am not emotionally intelligent in the slightest. Turns out, throughout about 3 months of about 80 hours on call, she was kind of manipulating me in the process. She got close to me to restart her ARG's with an old group of friends. I don't know if I can trust her anymore. I also just feel like she doesn't like talking to me about my interests. Since we are friends and I want to talk about stuff with her, I try to consume a lot of media she does, but she doesn't do the same. She's been there for me to an extent and I enjoy talking to her, but I just don't know if she actually enjoys my presence.

I don't know if anyone actually likes me. I'm surrounded by people because of the extraciriculars I do, but I don't think anyone likes me past that. I have sports teams, but I'm typically left out. I have "friends" who go to parties often, but I've never been invited. No one ever hangs out with me without me asking. People laugh at my jokes and I always have someone to sit with in my classes, but I just feel lonely.

I am a freshman in high school. I'm planning to go to college and get an undergrad and then go to law school. I'm very high achieving so this is very possible, but I don't actually want to do this. I've looked over many job fields and law is the only one I find interesting. However, I feel like I'm still forcing myself to do this. From an early age, I created my purpose of going to the best college possible. As I grow older and I have more conversations, I realize I haven't found anything to do after. Of course, I'd get a job and maybe get a family. I don't want this though. I don't feel fulfilled at the idea. I just don't understand the concept of my purpose and what I want to do in life. If I was honest, I still have dreams of finding a community and becoming a Youtuber or a streamer. I love the sense of community within content spaces, but it is unrealistic. I have a "bright future" and I am a girl, so misogyny is bound to occur. I just don't know where to go with my life.

I wish my brother had actually killed himself that day. He led his friends on in to thinking he did, then got shocked when police were called. They banged on the door and shone lights through the windows—it was 1 am. So many things have happened since then, and yet I am supposed to give him “grace” because he has occasional psychosis and depression. Fine, those are contributors, but I will never forgive him for traumatizing me over and over and then acting like we’re besties. I don’t plan to talk to any of my family after I move away for college. I wish I didn’t have to, but I’m scared I’ll snap and hurt them if I stay. Why do they all get therapy but me? My doctor has even said I need a therapist. I hope they will never visit me in Denmark or New Zealand.

No matter how hard I try, I fail. In fact, it seems the harder I try, the more I fail. At everything. It feels like I just don't even belong in this world. I seem to have problems doing things other people just do with no issues and I don't know why. I don't fit in anywhere and the whole world just doesn't seem to want me around. When I try to explain this to people no one seems to understand. They tell me to keep trying, but trying hurts because it just leads to one more inevitable failure. I don't even know if I have the energy to keep trying.

I don’t know if what he did is wrong

Things never get better they just keep getting worse, and I'm so tired.

I just don't know what to do anymore…

My sister (13) is the exact antithesis of what I was at her age. For context, I am 17, also AFAB. This is such a loser thing to say, but I’m so unbearably jealous of her. She has a huge social circle and friends in all her classes, whilst i didn’t have a singular friend at her age (i barely have two friends who rarely reach out to me rn, im always the one to reach out). To add onto that, she has an actual best friend, while I myself have never had a best friend in my entire life. She even has a boyfriend and guess what??? I’ve never had a relationship ever. She’s also very conventionally attractive whilst i am absolutely not. I have acne scars all over my face. Sometimes it even hurts to look at her for too long because she reminds me that my teenage experience is almost over and i never got to experience anything like she has.

lol you got pregnant and had a kid now living in a trailer with a very sweaty fat dude whos only focus in life is to play video games and schizo post online, meanwhile i am doing well in life stable, no financial worries no stress, and i have all the time in the world to do what i want rather than being stuck as a parent for the next 18 years, funny seeing that after all this time goodluck

Bro genuinely, suicide is always on my mind. It is so obnoxious. I hate going to school listening to all these people laugh and smile with their friends while I sit alone thinking about what id write on my suicide note. I hate living in this shit hole. I hate knowing exactly how I’m going to die. I hate that people around me are excited to hit 18 or excited to get married or wtv while I watch from the sidelines just waiting to be able to buy a gun.

I'm holding in so much pent up resentment. I feel like it's eating me alive and it's only a matter of time before I go insane. It isn't directed at any one person, just most people in my life.

ive been taking meds for ocd and anxiety n i have got better recently but just had intrusive thoughts ytd n i still cant get out of that even tho i already took xanax n i dun reli have friends to vent to regarding this issue right now im just keep telling myself that its ok it will pass while focusing on writing my essay homework but i just feel a bit stuck n i hate it

I feel like a background character in my own life. I hate looking at group pictures of myself because I always look like the odd one out, no matter what. I’m not lonely at school, I have plenty of friends, but barely anyone that I really know well. I’ve stuck myself in a rut of loneliness because I never really reach out to others or really get to know other people. Sometimes I start to realize that I’m my own worst enemy always trying too hard to be cool and funny because I feel like I have something to prove or just completely withdrawing because I’m scared of being seen or acknowledged. I wonder if someone from school might come across this and maybe realize who exactly this is behind the screen.

Hey yall, guy from the 2nd grade relationship rant. I should clarify, she said we never matched but also she was honest and kind about it. In no way was she disrespectful or cruel about it, just honest, and I believe she made a choice that was best for herself. But to everyone who has posted since then, I want you to know I love you all. I could never know the pain you're going through right now, but I love you through it all. You deserve love, and peace, and grace, and everything good in-between. You aren't what you believe, because I KNOW YOU ARE WORTH EVERYTHING. I pray every day you'll find someone who will see YOU. Never forget, I love you no matter what. If one person can, it stands to reason someone else can too. Never forget your worth, never.