All Rants

Genuinely i’m an attention seeker, cuz what do you mean that i’m willing to hurt myself just so people can pay attention at me and make sure that i feel okay and loved??? i’m willing to twist my ankle, create bruises on my skin, falling on concrete on purpose just for what??? for them to say “i’ll be here for you” i’m genuinely going insane and i feel so pathetic that i keep doing this just so people look at me and do special treatments

I hate my brain and my life. I keep failing and failing with something that i used to be good at. Now, it feels there’s a monster crawling inside of my body, make me feel that i’m no longer a human being that feels emotions and love. And the worst of all, i keep lying to people….I DONT UNDERSTAND WHY I KEEP LYING THAT I’M FINE, IM NOT FINE PLEASE SEEK HELP. everytime i lie, the guilt started to get to me, it gives me the urge to sh because thats the only way to punish myself….now idk who to seek help..my heart feels very empty and SHIT ITS PAINFUL, IT FEELS LIKE I COULD DIE BY THIS PAIN AT ANY TIME..

I am so tired of people. Maybe I am the problem and attract such people, but it always feels so bad. In fact, it feels like after some time I am left with no one. It feels like if suddenly a chain of unlucky things started happening in my life. First, person#1 started rumors about me in school, but my few classmates didn't let it go unnoticed, exposed them and because of that, #1 who left school. But #1 called it "bullying"😿 and leaked some of my photos with face. Then another person#2 was in my life, I was happy. We made company in our city. But #2 was inactive, didn't do their job. #2 started threatening me with suiciee when I said that I want changes. And now another person#3 left. My friend didn't support a joke about race and #3 started kinda being rude. Another person spoke up, not about #3, just said joke is weird #3 started being aggressive, calling them names and all. when #3 were told to be quiet, #3 got mad. Am I the problem? Is there something possible to be done?

im usually sociable but i feel like i havent had a real conversation in days. i eat breakfast lunch and dinner with my family, but i don't get any messages from my friends unless i text first and i'm stuck in my room too dysfunctional to do my work but with too much work to get up and go speak with my family. every message i get feels detached, almost like i'm not talking to a real person, and it hurts to think about asking someone to talk to me longer because i'm desperate for human interaction. i know they'll do it if i ask, but it just feels so pathetic, and it'll just make me feel like all my friends are fake. i feel like i'm sitting here doing absolutely nothing, flipping between my work, my music and my social media, and nothing is happening on my work and nothing is happening on my messages.

I hate it when mum says ily after a fight, but I don’t remember the last time she said it just because she felt like it. “Youre so closed off” Yea, i wonder why. Maybe bcuz you never bother to stop and ask what im doing. Y’all always hated everything I like and shamed me for it. And now she’s complaining that I don’t talk to them…

i feel like im not cared for by other people. I know i am, but... I just dont feel it. I dont feel like im loved or cared for, even if i know they do. It just pisses me the fuck off. ykw? no. im noy pissed off. im depressed because i dont feel like i can trust anyone enough so i have to come to this anon vent website. how pathetic am I? too pathetic. I hate myself and my life. Im trying SO hard to not relapse or anything ut it gets to a point!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! QAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!! i hate this!! i hate everything!! I just wish someone would push past when i say im okay. i wish someone would gently but firmly make me talk. i want to talk. i want to tell the truth, but i just.. cant. i get scared because im a fuckking pussy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Im raging enough to kill someone or break everything in my house but i cant because i will have to pay to repair everything

id rather kill myself than take this fucking class ever again. one credit class? suck my fucking dick. this is more work than my 3 credit classes but she didn't load the work on until after course drop date. oh, technical issues? well suck it up and try harder. genuinely. i hate my professor i hate my teammates i hate this stupid class that makes me feel like i shouldn't have been born in the first place. never should've gone to college man should've just disappeared at the ripe age of 18 before i wasted all this money going to this damn place.

I have never been on a date or in a relationship and as someone who is approaching 30 years old, it really bums me out especially when most people I know are in relationships or going on dates. It makes me feel like I’m undesirable and unworthy of love or being loved. As if something were deeply wrong with me and everyone else can tell but me. I’ve always felt rather lonely because of this and am starting to believe that maybe there is in fact something wrong with me and that I’m meant to be alone for the rest of my life. I’ve tried dating apps and meeting people in person however, nothing ever came out of it other than momentarily having a minor crush on someone or matching (but not meeting). I have so much love to give but given how the current dating market is and how no one my age genuinely wants to commit, it’s been very difficult to even remotely try and find my person. I want to get married and have a family but, I don’t feel like that’s eventually going to happen.

I cant do anything right without anyone complaining or correcting me. I hate this.

how to tell you this all? That I walk around till it hurts no more. This environment is not good at all. It tastes almost bitter and feels quite hollow. Only at night we gather with our painted smiles, but in the mornings we continue to fight I am trying so hard to hide, to make myself small. To not make you feel so upset with me. I absorb all that you throw at me. I do not know how much longer I can hold on I am already in fragments lost myself somewhere on the way. I will never be good enough I know I really am nothing but a burden Is it even worth? I want out.

i want to kill myself and my family and friends

Anyone with common sense, knows even with a million hospital beds across Qld, it wouldn't be enough unless you have staff and not having enough staff means having extra hospital beds is a waste.

To the 2nd grade relationship rant. Made my morning to read that. Gotta say yesterday when I read ur rant it got me feeling some type of way. It was a whole domino effect yesterday, not in a catastrophic way but definitely in a stoic way.. didnt mean to go all rant mode yesterday with the two posts, was more so projecting my own experiences on urs, context is so important lol. Definitely don't regret what I said tho. U seem to have lots of passion for the things u want so I think u will do just find. That girl on the other hand...well hopefully she doesnt end up pregnant with a kid living in a trailer with a very sweaty fat dude whos only focus in life is to play video games and schizo post online..lol

my best friend thats been with me for 5 years is drifting away from me and slowly start to ignore me because they got a partner

More idiots in vehicles driving dangerously, illegally and stupidity that Qld Police continue to ignore. 12th of April 6.30pm male driver of white 4 wheel drive with bullbar and bike rack and carrying passenger, like other vehicles was not only speeding along Fairfield Rd Yeerongpilly but stopped over the pedestrians crossing at Cardross Street forcing pedestrians to walk outside the crossing.

i wish i was born in a 1st world country and being an upper class there, like sometimes i wish my problems are just fussing over what pronouns i wanna go with rather than fearing if my country would collapse tomorrow

being in the art community sometimes is just hell. imagine, fucking imagine how much of a loser incel shitfuck chud could you be to romanticize a situation between debtor and a loan shark. i hope one day, your loved ones will be trapped in desperation which led them to be in debt for their entire life and you WILL experience their collateral damage, not so romantic now, is it? tldr: you deserve the deepest pit of hell, Vince

i feel bad i've lost to lust again i feel so guilty but i just cant stop i need idont know waht to do

I don’t feel like myself anymore. I’m usually the kind of person who acts happy, cheerful, and like everything is okay with life, but right now it doesn’t feel real. After my girlfriend/boyfriend broke up with me, something in me just feels off and I can’t even properly understand what’s going on inside my own head. I keep wondering if I did something wrong, if I’m the problem, or if I’m just… not enough for people. My days all blur together. I wake up, go to school, sit through it, then go to work, then come home and just repeat everything again. The only thing I really do outside of that is art, and even that doesn’t always feel like it means anything. Most of the time I just end up scrolling, watching anime, reading, sleeping too much, or just laying in bed doing nothing because I feel drained in a way I can’t explain. I keep thinking about my life and it feels messy in my head. My grades aren’t good, my parents aren’t together, and I don’t really have people I feel close to anymor