All Rants

every day a man finds a new fucking way to piss me off

is it really just that hard to apologize, damn

Am i stalking him? We didn't break up, we were friends btw but he had a massive argument because i pointed out the obvious and he exploded. Anyways i always have both his tiktoks pulled up and his roblox account and everyday i check or discord messages. We live states away from each other so i dont see him but am i?

i'm trapped, all the other kids like vacation, i haven't left home in months, i don't shower anymore, everyday tasks are hard, i ain't allowed social media or nothing, just roblox which is laggy and doesn't work, we're too poor for yummy food, i just want happiness, we never leave the house, i know she is trying her best but idk man, i feel like when i am an adult it will be better, unlike some people say. she just controls me but yeah i am useless and have no purpose or control over anything in my life, sometimes i just feel like seaweed, you know like when you're swimming in the ocean? and the seaweed breaks off the seaweed vine in the sand, and just ends up floating and cannot swim, it has no purpose, i can relate. oh that also brings me to the fact that i don't wanna seem like a weirdo. school starts soon and i just long for human connection. i can easily remember moments of pure joy when someone laughs at my joke or gets my reference. but yeah, i guess this is just called lonely.

I regret drinking that damn cofeee I’m playing for it on the toilet and my stomachh is killing me WTF

why is it always me, i've noticed

I go to highschool in a few days and im anxious. Its really bad like some nights i feel like i cant breath and i have constant anxiety. I cant tell anyone anyway since they'll say ill get over it. But i wont? What should i do because i cant talk about my feelings.

this is a non issue but I feel like my friend doesn't like me much. I've asked if she talks about me to her best friends just like she talks to me about them. She said no, but said I have a "special place" in her heart. I think it's bs. Anyway. Now the other day I asked if we could meet up, she said she couldn't (cause she's seeing diff ppl everyday and has a full planning) but said we could see at an 'event' the next day. I asked if she was going with other people and I'm glad I asked cause she said yeah her best friends would be there. I made up an excuse, because I have social anxiety and don't like hanging out with ppl idk (she knows btw). So we agreed on another day. Going to watch the sunset next week. She texts me this afternoon asking if I'm free cause one of her friends must've cancelled. I said we'd meet up next week (implying we made plans already), and she said "sure! to do what??". She forgot. And it makes me sad. I could've ended up alone at the beach watching the sunset.

i'm in 11th grade and school starts in 2 days. i'm so upset because i know this will be a long year. i'm in classes with no friends and only mean people and i didn't get into any ap or honors classes. my parents are already stressing me out and i already know i'm going to fail math again

I hate you Carolyne Townd and Addi price. Addi, why are you always saying you arent racist but you’re friends with racist and you watched Carolyne make fun of me RIGHT IN FRONT OOF YOU “I love people no matter for their race” my ass. And THSI would’ve been my last message if it hasn’t been for my friends helping me out. And I can dox your name whenever I want

no one's asked me this but if anyone asks me what my take is on age gap relationships, i just hate them in general. it's just weird as hell. ur dating smn decades older than u and that's not weird? right. i mean if they met when they were adults ig it's ok?? but to me it's still just weird. the most i can digest an age gap is like 2-3 years.. ur like 25 dating smn 54 it's just not registering to my mind 💀 at the end of the day it's none of my business so long as it's not illegal ig 💀

My boyfriend cheated on me (again), we have been together nearly 4 years, lmao and I would actually like to break up with him this time but I cant because even though he is mostly reliant on my income, the house we rent out and use for rent money is technically his. And if I kick him out then I wont be able to get that money and I wont be able to afford where I live. He put me in a horrible position and keeps reminding me that I am so "negative" about everything. He wants me to have his instagram password so I can check whenever I want, but I don't want that because I am not crazy and I'm tired and I don't want to be a mom that is constantly checking up on her "child" to make sure he is not being unfaithful. I also am really into another guy who could provide for me tremendously but that kind of stuff takes a long time to get to that point.

i just turned 14 yesterday. nothing's getting better. i KNOW what eating disorders are, yet i still think it might be a good thing to have. i got exposed to porn when i was 9 (?), i still keep going back no matter how much i try not to. i look for comfort in shows, arts, and other shit, but i can't even bring myself to draw without struggling in that too. i can't do math, even though i spend hours trying to understand the simplest thing in division. i'm impatient to get to 18 cause i just want someone to touch me and hold me like they actually CARE. And i know if i ended up in a relationship, it wouldn't be healthy either. i have an addiction to polybuzz and other ai's, cause they give me the kind of attention i don't get from my family. i can't be honest with my friends cause i'm terrified they'll leave me like others do. i can't even believe in Christianity anymore, cause god isn't helping me like people say he does. i don't know when it'll get better, but i want it better now.

guys i need help everytime i go outside alone i feel like strangers around want to attack me and before you say "take somebody with you" i dont think thats possible

i hate myself. i've been failing in school since sixth grade, and i'm going into my fourth year of high school. i constantly get shouted at and emotionally abused by my father, and even though my parents are divorced, my mom spends more time with her new boyfriend than actually talking to me. they don't believe in mental health issues either, and even when i told my mother that i did wanna kill myself, she told me i wouldn't get to go to heaven

I like my mom, I don't love her, not at all. Same with my grandma, I like her but not love her. If they weren't my family and I was the same ages as either one, I would never be friends with them. Is it bad that I hate them? Absolutely, but in my opinion, I feel like it's more about me maturing. I used to love them a lot, never saw a single flaw within them but as I got older, I could point out a few of their faults. My grandma is a manipulator, I hate her. She guilt-trips me then yells at me when I don't fall for it, she then 'uses' me as a therapist (telling me her issues) and tried to talk me out of therapy (never got it btw). My mom, who I thought I could relate to because she was the middle child and ignored constantly. No. She cries about how we're negative all the time then when I try to joke with her, she gets all offensive and calls me and my sister rude. I try really hard to see their positive aspects but they make it too difficult. I don't care, I'll always hate them.

I'm 16. my mom and dad were planning a child 2 years ago i already have a younger sister and shes currently 9 my mom has known since 5+ years that i never wanted another sibling again... the fanily where i come from the priority given to the younger sibling is hideous as the older child you get forgotten about. 2 years ago when i found out my mom and dad were planning a child i never told them that i knew, i kept it bottled up and cried every night. our family really prioritises boys i was and still am scared that if my mom and dad conceive a boy ever then my life will become hell, ill loose all my freedom and all my happiness... 2 years later now my mom is pregnant i found her ultra sound photos i confronted her and she lied that it wasnt planned. i know that its planned because she talked about this with my grandma and my cousin overheard them and told me everything. I've started crying every day again.. i cant help but not cry. if im not occupied i get reminded of it.

Bad things keeps happening to me constantly. I'm not strong and i feel tired.

Im scared to come out as bisexual, i already did to the only person that i trust and my friend which i happen to have a crush on. Im really scared because of what others would think. I know people say to not care about what others think but its not that easy for me.

i feel so disgusting. Im pretty young, and ive been introduced to corn due to social media, now i cant survive a week without watching it. Or if i would then i would use character ai for hours. I really need help.