All Rants

What the fuck is wrong with everyone?!

I am feeling down, exhausted, tired and just wish I didn't wake up this morning. I am tired I do everything and get nothing in return. My husband will leave and have no communication with me and when I say something about he starts to ignore me, stop talking to me and make me feel like I done something wrong. We had a rough patch about 2 years ago and almost divorce. But I thought we were working through it and was getting better. But he treats me like his enemy sometimes and say things like I don't want you and you can leave out of my life, but tells me to trust his actions and not his words. Well his actions are he doesn't take me out we don't talk about anything but news and whats going on around the world. I try to have other conversations with him but he ignores them. I try to plan things with him and he shuts me down on the planning. I am so hurt and broken right now and he say I am imgaine things

I'm losing my mind slowly. I'm going to break soon... IM BROKEN !!!!!!!!!!!

I'm starting to accept the fact that I will never be good enough in his eyes. I will never be who he needs or wants me to be..

I can't stand how it's normal for adults to be so emotionally unregulated they think it's a sign of trust to unilaterally burden other people with their deepest insecurities and expect the other person to be an on-demand source of reassurance. It feels almost inevitable I become someone's therapist in a relationship or an object of obsession. I don't want to be chased or held up on a pedestal. I don't want to fill the void in someone's life because I will never, ever be enough to fix it- it has to be resolved by that person themselves.

I want to forgive. But I can't. I want to just forget it ever happened but I can't !! The trust is 100% gone. Been together 11 years and it feels like its just all down the drain. I hate myself because I got cheated on. How does that make sense? I keep going over everything in my mind and just keep thinking if I would of did something different none of this would of happened ... I hope it gets easier. And I hope I can stop bringing it up. That's all for today.

My parents have been divorced since I was 6(I'm 11-15 now) and I still hear the echo of they're shouts it once got so bad I slept in the same room of my sister and it really stressed me tbh and my dad's visiting soon and I can't get the stuff out if my head when I see him..

I have an app that I'm not supposed to have and my parents have no idea. And I have a girlfriend and three best friends and I'm a way diffrent person and it's making me really stressed.

Tw for self harm. I recently relapsed with self harm after being clean for two months- i feel like such a loser because of it. I was doing well and now not only am I back at the start, but I dont want to try staying clean- I want to stay relapsed. Its so frustrating and I cant tell anyone about it either

I just feel so stressed sometimes about my relationship with my boyfriend. He's so sweet, and caring, but god I hate how every now and again hes telling me about his friends, and somehow theres almost always a misogynistic joke they're making with each other. Its not major ones, but the vibe is still there. I hate that I genuinely love him and he does that- i feel so heartbroken

How do you stop overthinking? I really wish I knew. If I stopped giving a fuck about every single detail I think my life would improve drastically lol

I don't wanna study anymore, but I really need it due to midterm this week. Especially it's my major. I really wanna take a break but absolutely I cannot. I tried those methods where you break it and rest, but I just think it's a lot to do and that method does not work. I wanted to get motivated but of course it's impossible. I really want to quit school and just work, but my sisters told me not to because work is much more gonna burn you out. I'm also bad at stats, I wish I could learn it but I can. I passed my other exams, but I feel like my friends are pitying me because they both got a almost perfect scores...

cont... its not going to fix itself. Find healthy outlets, like this, that makes u feel like u let some weight off ur shoulders. DO NOT hurt urself...its not cool having psychomotor issues when ur older b/c u thought it was cool slitting ur wrists when u were 15 or some shit...ya thats ONE issue that can happen if u cut, cant even grab a controller, type on a keyboard, or pinch a thread or coin or some shit. Or have organ failure when u downed some pills or did too many drugs...yea so fun..w.e content that ur absorbing saying that self harm is cool dont tell u that when u get older ur body fails on u b/c of things u did when u were younger...yea so cool when u have random shots of pain from ur body b/c u self harmed x years ago. U will know..

I have been reading every post on here for the last couple of months. There is a recurrent topic of self exit and depression that many posters vent about. It makes me sad to read that ppl feel like there is no reason to live life or try to get out of the rut they r in. I think most of the posts related to self exit are made from ppl that are chronically online, have terrible living situations, terrible parents, etc. I know when I was a teenager it was almost cool to slit ur wrists and be depressive but really it isnt. Whats cool is living the life u want doing the things u want, traveling, having a house, a family, a functional life that ur a responsible participant in. Doing the most w/ ur life and living like u won the lottery. Ppl that attempt have lots of mental illnesses (ya that is cool still too, so sad), physical complications, and it gets worse when u get older. To think youngins are breaking their body down even when its still growing is so sad. Its not going to fix itself it

im so tired, im expected of so little yet it feels like so much. im homeschooled which should make my life and learning easier because theres hardly any pressure put on me, but every time i want to focus on my work my cognitive issues just seem to ruin everything for me. im always distracted, i keep skipping over words when i read and im always unable to process everything properly when its school related. i feel like i have nobody to relate to, i feel alone, and i know i have to push through it but i have no idea how im supposed to when i feel completely and physically unable to do so. i just wish i was born differently, i dont want to be the way that i am. im exhausted even though i have done nothing with my life. at this point im positive im never going to get out of this hole. i feel so stuck and hopeless

I'm feeling sad, I dont have many people to talk about my emotions with besides my boyfriend and my parents i dont have anyone else to talk to. I feel alone and invisible sometimes when people don't understand my quirkiness, I'm different from everyone else and whenever i express my emotions outloud my family get frustrated by it and its not good to keep my emotions bottled up its best to tell someone how your feeling so they can help you. I just want somewhere like a big open field where i can go to yell and scream and cry and nobody can hear me and im not affecting other people when i do it

ever since my mom went to her friend's daughter's funeral i havent been able to do anything. i didnt know her but she was living life just like me and couldnt take it. i havent been able to leave the house and am definitelt going to fail all my current classes. how am i suppozed to look my mother in the face and tell her "sorry for wasting all your money, its just i havent been able to get out of bed bc im too busy thinking abt how much i understand that girl." its not fair to her. it feels better to shut myself away but it just postpones the issue. i have to tell her but what will happen when i do? im so tired of everything but i cant bear to tell anyone. i feel so selfish just typing this out. im so tired of feeling guilty.

i feel so uncomfortable in my body. i wish i wasn't born like this but i just had to. god i would give anything to change my body, my gender, my name, everything. it hurts hearing my family and relatives calling me a girl and using she/her pronouns on me but i'm too afraid to come out because i know there's a chance they won't support me and that is one of my biggest fears

im not sure if i’ll leave later today. im scared, i never really wanted to die. but im exhausted, it doesnt seem like there’s anything to hold on to. i tried to fill my promises to live with white lies. i do want to live, but it’s tiring to keep going this long. everyday more pain, physically and mentally. trying to hold on, but not trying enough. i’m just giving up. i wish i could apologize for all my wrong doings. im sorry to those i hurt, and im sorry if i wasn’t enough to keep going on. if i do go, i wouldn’t want anyone to blame themselves. even if ive gotten so hurt by them, just forgive yourselves. i was just tired is all. love you

I don't know, everything just feels so plain and like nothing. Work is meh, the daily routine with toddler feels like a secondary work. Married life has stagnated after 10 years, there's not much closeness, laughing and goofying around together anymore. There are no other plans than work, try to get more money, buy a bigger apartment, watch the kid grow old, and what then? Is there anything else to life than just flowing through it and then be done with it. Why are we here, what are we supposed to do? What should I do to actually feel happy about life and enjoy it?