All Rants

I want to die so bad. I have no reason to live. My friends leave me out and hate me, my mum says I’m fat, I don’t enjoy doing things I used to love anymore and I can’t do anything right. There is so many things I wish I could change about my self, my weight, my face, my body, my grades, my popularity and so much more. I’m wondering if anyone will miss me if I die.. Im not trying to sound selfish but I want attention, I’m so used to not having attention that I feel awkward when I do.

I’m starting to normalise my friends leaving me out, they always walk ahead of me and I’m stuck behind them. They don’t talk to me either. I’m starting to think I’m a backup friend because they only choose me first or go to me when their main friends aren’t there. I don't like my friends but I have no one else to go to..

My mum keeps telling me to eat less because I’m getting chubby.

I spent 6 years loving someone I thought I would be with forever only to get that dreaded text the text that stated that it wasn't my fault that he left he said we could continue to be friends only for him to never speak to me again only for him to go behind my back and state to my friend that why he left was because I was selfish and made everything about me even though I had to do everything although the only way he would speak to me was if I texted first despite the fact I was willing to change everything about myself and my life to fit his needs while he could bearly do one thing and yet I was selfish

im the same person with the dental ache for the past 3 days, and YO? the cloves seem to be the move. ofc going to the dentist is better but apparently they can't remove teeth or smth when it's still aching. BUT THE CLOVES SEEM TO BE WORKING RLLY GOOD 😭

I hate loving someone I can never have my mind knows they could never love me back yet my heart aches for them to feel the same I hate that in my eyes they are the world it's self while to them I'm just another friend I wish I could make the feelings stop yet my soul continues to yearn for them

I told her "I love you" and she said it back to me... Im still against theses feelings but Im so happy that she said it back.

I’m scared my bf will cheat on me. I feel like he lacks boundaries. He has this friend who he’s really close with, and she’s currently going through a breakup. Her ex and her have joked that my bf is basically in a poly relationship with them because he’s always around them and involved in their relationship. They also made a promise that if they ever broke up, my bf would date her, and my bf has dangled that joke in front of me before. I know they’re probably joking, but it makes me feel really powerless and insecure. Now he’s going to be spending more time with her to help her through the breakup, and I don’t know if I trust him. They’re online friends right now, but they’re meeting in October, and I’m scared about what could happen when they meet in person. I’m scared they could end up doing something romantic or sexual, even though I don’t actually know that they will. I don’t want to stop him from supporting his friend, and I know she’s going through a hard time.

I want to scream. I want to hurt myself. I want to cry. I want to hide. I want to disappear. I want to die. Would anyone miss me if I’m gone..? Probably not they all say I’m a mistake.

i just had a crazy suicidal thought just now.. in the car and had the urge to grab the wheel with one hand and swerve. moms driving btw. usually the one dying in those situations is me so idk why i wanna do that

Not all these autism mums making Robbie Williams' diagnosis all about them... ohh that's not real autism, he has a career and is famous and can speak, I have to watch my son banging his head on the wall How do you know that Robbie Williams doesn't bang his head on walls? I have level 1 autism and I bang my head on walls. Maybe he does too. I mean Sia sang about it... Also maybe the reason your son bangs is head on the wall is because you're pissing him off. Most times I've banged my head on the wall it's because my mum did something to piss me off that she knows pisses me off but chooses to do it anyway

My classmate from tutoring class(now studying in the same school as me) has a crush on me. Except he is a possessive egotistical jerk. When he confessed, I clearly said we should continue being friends but he spread rumors that I was now his girlfriend. Then, his friends started staring and pointing at me in public. It was so creepy. But the worst part was I caught him recording me and taking photos of me. When I confronted him, he shrugged it off by saying I was not the main character and he already deleted it. Then, he made everything worse by spreading rumors about my guy friend trying to steal me from him, and telling his friends to send threatening messages to tell him to stay away from me. I wanted to press charges against him but my mom said to let him off the radar because I knew him for 3 years. But this event will leave a scar in my mind forever. The only good thing was I discovered I was aromantic cuz I never wanted romantic relationships.(ps the creep was ugly asf)

I failed. Im going to give myself 15 more years. Maybe living isn't so bad. -LG

Feeling hopeless trying to help my friend. His mindset is just completely fucked and it looks like therapy and medication aren't working. I wanna give his head a good shake because he's spiraling not just over a non-issue, but not even an issue, just something he's made up in his head. It's like he's been brainwashed. I know I should just sit and listen but I can't enable this mindset to continue, not when I've been brainwashed myself, people saying I was wrong helped me realise that my way of thinking wasn't the only way to think.

I started to get bullied at six years old and ever since then I have viewed my body with such distain. I recently read through some diary entries to which I saw myself at 12 describe myself as monstrous and displeasing to look at. And as I have grown older that has only amplified with those I meet. Each comment piled atop on another like a grain of sand filling an endless bucket which only gets heavier and heavier with each day that passes, with each snide remark and each disgusted look I receive. When I was 14 I began to think I was unlovable, purely because of my body, all the boys would always say I’ve the skinnier, smaller, prettier friend, so I eventually gave up. Whenever I would fall in love I would look in the mirror and repeat “nobody wants you fat a$$” until I understood what I believed my worth was.

My best friend has been ignoring me for two months now. It was completely out of the blue, no explanation whatsoever. I miss talking to her so badly. It’s so hard to not have a go to person, someone you be honest with, someone you can joke with, someone you can cry with. Now I’m crying all alone for the millionth time. I feel so lonely. I feel like everyone else must hate me now, or will hate me eventually and leave me once they get bored. I mean, people move on, maybe this is normal. It’s probably weird to be mourning a friendship of like, 2-3 years. I don’t know I always get too attached. And I’ve been left before, and I’ll continue to get left again and again and again. I really hate myself right now and I don’t see that stopping anytime soon. I hate myself and I still love her even after she decided she was sick of me, I hate hate hate. HATE. I hate all of this, this isn’t fair, why am I so upset about this, is this normal? Should I be this upset? I don’t know

How tf is some random lady going to come stop my washing machine, take out all my wet soapy clothes and just lay them on a counter so she can do her, obviously more important laundry? I am apartment living, for reference. I set timers to get to the laundry room within the MINUTE It is done. "Oh, im sorry my kid had an accident so I had to take all of your stuff out" YOU MY TOOK CHILDRENS CLOTHING OUT OF MY WASHER- I HAVE KIDS TOO. the insane entitlement and disrespect ohmygoooood . My son decided behind my back he was going to go take all of her laundry out and throw it in a big wet pile to see how it feels. Not fond of the fact he did this but maybe she will think twice about messing with other people's things.

i want someone who loves me. someone who is there. a man that will spend his time getting adopt me pets just for me. i crave love, but im too young and should focus on study. ik this is bad but i want someone,anyone just to notice me. no one.

i feel like im insecure, of my body, teeth, way i talk,ance and so much more. i feel so hurt when others comment on smth i dont like. believe me if i could change the way i am i would. and yes ik that everyone is special in their owns ways but i cant see how special i am

I wish people actually liked me. I’m not a bad person, I know that, people will talk to me, and open up to me pretty easily, I’ve never really experienced people being disappointed with me socially. I’m just not ‘good’ enough either. Out of all of the people in the world, I’m just good enough that you’ll speak to me, but never enough that you’d think to invite me anywhere, never enough to text back, never enough that someone would ask how I’m doing, or care if they hadn’t heard from me. And it sucks, I’ve always tried to be good, and these last few years I’ve been working on myself too! So why isn’t that enough for the people around me? It’d be enough, if someone played a game with me every once and a while, just so I know I’m worth something.