All Rants

I need the barbarians to wipe my family out, to make wine from our blood and laugh.

I'll have a heart attack if my Snap stories get views, but I'm not sure if anyone's actually watching me in real life. 🥲

Snap pe bhi ye fairy aur honey bear content dikh rahe hai 🙏 Mujhe maar dalo bc can’t be at peace anywhere

guys im scared. i just got my first period 3 months ago. this week my period was 10 days long, ive been bleeding for 7 or 8 days, 2 or 3 days there was no bleeding. but just yesterday it got SO heavy. im talking like staining an overnight pad in like an hour. honestly i think its less, but im trying not to scare my self too much. anyways ive passed like 2-3 coins long somewhat thin clots. Multiple in a day.. and im genuinely scared, i know girls/guys are usually scared when they get theirs and dont know what to expect but this is genuinely abnormal no??? i think what makes my fear worse is that my sister might have endometriosis, and she has really bad cramps/periods sometimes. she literally had to go to the er twice for it. im also scared to look anything else up..

My eyes are so dry I can’t feel anything anymore

I miss everyone so much. I miss my friends. I miss how when something was wrong they could tell instantly. I miss how they noticed the small details. I miss the fact that if my eyes were red from crying and i went downstairs they could tell I've been crying, or how when I kept smiling they could tell something went well for me. I miss when they would encourage me to keep going even when I doubted myself. I miss my teachers I miss how if i needed something they would help me to the best of their abilities. I miss how when I was walking around school and i was quite they could instantly tell that something was wrong with me just because of the silence , they could tell i was tired or something was distracting me just because i was silent. I even miss the teachers that were strict , I miss the fact they actually cared and were strict , it honestly helped me alot. I miss when they would tell me good job and say how proud they are of me. I

If I could give my life for someone with emerald in their veins, my envy would take it all away.

I've been going to this website for a while now and usually the people are very nice. Recently—as in two days ago—I woke up at 1 AM went to my laptop to go there. I got paired up with this guy, the age range said 18-25, we started talking, I vented abt my hypersexuality. Turns out he was also hypersexual, he said some things he could relate to and it was actually fun for a moment. Then he said that one unsettling thing that put me off, "I bet I could make you cry on your first time. I wouldn't stop tho". Then he said things he wanted to "do" to me. He asked me if I was comfortable with talking like this, I said I was fine. He went on about some things I'll never forget.. I kept mentioning that I was 12. He didn't stop there. I did comply, I, regrettably, partly enjoyed it. I pretended to run out of battery and blocked him. But I wanted to go back so bad I was shaking. I feel disgusted that I enjoyed it and complied, I hate that I wanna go back.

I want to walk from the plantation straight into a burning coal pit, magma streaming down my cheeks as tears as I burn to death in the glow.

If someone can help, I don't have any friends and am not sure how to find them any more. I'm in high school, neurotypical, but I honestly feel like I just give off bad vibes as a person. Every time I speak I sound so stupid and people have told me that I'm pretentious and eccentric. I don't have any friends now and feel isolated from society and wish to return to it. If anyone made their way out of isolation how did you do it?

I need to find my better self again but its impossible Im falling apart more and more and it feels like drowning. Everything is getting worse as time passes and i cant focus not even in prayer anymore I feel like nothing is holding me steady anymore

I’m tired of my own existence..

I used to have this very close guy friend and he always had weird jokes once he said we should trade nudes while laughing and i knew he was joking so I said sure but you have to add some money too we had a good laugh and moved on but guess what years later hes telling everyone I agreed to send nudes and that I just never sent them to him and that im so easy, like boy what??????

Hi! why am i not being chosen? It feels like I'm always just a shadow. I will never be on seen. It's breaking me, for knowing I am not good enough where I know I can do it also. I don't know but, yeah. I WILL NEVER BE THE GOOD ONE,.

i think its genuinely over, im not making it through grade 7, my dad keeps on boasting that he took psychology as a major and how good it is, but if he really did? I wouldnt feel so depressed and the reason why i never feel enough, it's his fault. my mom is okay at least but she doesn't help like go and tell your husband that he's making their daughter SH and get suicidal thoughts.... i really can't take it anymore, for those who see this, i am still alive but i am questioning if i should even stay alive

So... before i start, just know that whatever mean things you want to say, ive already told myself a million times over, and then some. i am struggling, and i know that my questionable choices may not be understandable. I have been in a relationship (started online, but we have met 5 times) for a year, with a man. he didnt tell me about his relationship to begin with, and once he confessed to already being in a relationship, i was too scared to let go. i have never felt so seen or understood before, or loved. he described a relationship that was not good, only staying together because of their daughter. turns out that wasnt true. they got married in october, we started talking in september. i recently just found out about the marriage. i cut him off instantly, and we had no contact for a while, but he came back, begging, wanting to explain himself.. so i let him. bullshit explanation, i am just the weakest person ever. we are now talking again. its painful.

Sorry not sorry I don't like the energy you and your family give off karen. They act like an oppressive bully. I mean with awful way they've done my family and I. It's not just the one. One of their kids scraped the paint on someones vehicle and they acted like it was nothing. I don't like living near people like this. Why can't people chill tf out. Ofc my fam isn't worried about it which makes me mad because they have the sweep it under the rug mentality about things. Karen's don't change over night. Idk what their problems are I just wish they hadn't started crap with us. They act like they can get away with anything. And rules don't apply to them. They're too lazy to park in visitor parking (their company) despite me having to park there AND I LIVE HERE for the fact of spaces being taken. I'd love to set boundaries if I could. It's not always possible in every situation for now in my life.

I dont see why at this point i try to make friends, because i just can’t either trust them, or they dont feel comfortable around me. I dont think i do wrong, not at all, but even if i did, they never tell me, and slowly drift away. Even if i get close to someone, ill never be someone’s first choice… hell not even one. I just dont understand if im too strange or if i do wrong, push boundaries, say over the line stuff, because they never fucking tell me what i do wrong. I hate this, How i always feel like the problem, how i always need to think “what am i doing wrong”, on how i always need to text first… i just cant keep doing this no more…

Yesterday was the worst. The doctor i have sucks. All I was trying to do is get my medication and they made it a huge ordeal out of it. They are the most unorganized people there. Why does it take 45 minutes to make a stupid appointment!? They are the worst at communicating! I will not go there ever again.

What's something you wish you could say to someone but the relationship is too fragile? Relatives and fam both are hardly wrong in their own eyes. So they don't want to listen to their faults. ESPECIALLY when it comes to their raging drunkenness. Idk why I'm writing this it's too early. But it's true. When the one sobers up they don't wanna hear about how they cussed us or what they did. Embarrassment isn't an excuse for aggressive behavior they have towards us and simply blame it on the cause of the drunkenness rather than own it. Yeah thanks that leaves me with a heck of a lot of memories and crap they've said. Like once they told one to go crawl up in their mommy's vag and die. That's only one of many awful things they've said. Yeah it's ok don't worry about everything up in my head that you caused to be their concerning your drunkenness. Nor will they apologize for it.