All Rants

I'm so TIRED of no one in my house doing any chores or cleaning anything unless I specifically ask about it. we don't have kids, I live with two other full grown adults and unless I SPECIFICALLY POINT OUT WHAT NEEDS TO BE DONE, nothing gets done. No one takes out our dogs unless I ask about it. No one does the dishes, cleans up after dinner, hoovers or wipes down the counters unless I say so. I'm so tired of it. All I want is to live in a clean house that smells good.

Idk how this doesn't bother the rest of my fam. Sure the neighbors will be quiet when they have a precious little baby up there baby sitting it. Otherwise it's thumping like frickin track n field. And I think a lot of it is on purpose because they have no consequences for what they do. Its plain not right. It feels like the Karen hates our guts and fam just wants to sweep everything under a rug like nothing is happening or happened. However I notice.all their shit behavior. It appears they were mocking me yesterday but I can't prove it of course. Idk wtf their problems are. They started the shit with us we mind our own business. Hell I was good enough to return a misplaced package to their front door and mail they dropped. On our end though funny thing we didn't receive a certain bill last month and tbh I think they got it and trashed it but I can't prove it. I really don't like people who say like they do. Your life miserable? Don't take it out on others. I just plain don't understand

I am super ashamed of my nerdy interests, as a "normal" guy everybody knows for being good at sports. Not nerdy like watching anime or other cute stuff... I mean like stamp collecting, space history, science video games... im cringing. I am never ever gonna let anyone see my internal world I will be weak and pathetic and they will never look at me the same no matter how fluffy my hair is or how impeccable my style is or how much I try to looksmaxx. I feel like two fucking people at the same time and I will never get a girlfriend that actually loves me, let alone understanding friends. Even if they're smart. Cause at least most people can pick one or the other, I am a gross combination. It makes me sad.

I'm genuinely so curious why i choose to trigger myself every night Is it because of my sh addiction? Am i just looking for reasons to do it again? I find that such a confusing theory though. I sh because I'm bored, not because I'm miserable. Well, maybe a little. I'm a fucking chud

I was mature at a young age, 7-8yrs old because my parent's aren't. THey got fucking white hair but no brain cells and sense no to fight infront of their kids, get some sense you shits. They just got ball and ovary to bear kids and have no guts to be parent, at this point I would be better off not born then this shitty life.

So mentally a lot of stress is going on and it is affecting my physical health and I'm slowly being deprived of the will to live. I don't know what to do. Exam started and I don't have the will to study or generally do anything, they just keep agruying and fighting in house and that is just fuking my mental health not letting me focus on anything, just giving me tension and a reason not to live anymore. I'm having anxiety, I randomly laugh, cry be sad and emotionally and slowly mentally being unsatable at this rate, koi cha bhanne malai patan ma bhetna aau la.

Honestly is everything my boyfriend dad he mom he fucking brother it's where I live how I don't get to see my kids everyday or till them I love them and tuck them in . How I don't get to hear I love you mommy. That hearts my heart. But I hear that I'm a bitch and blah blah. And I just don't know what to do. I love my boyfriend I really do but at the same time I don't. I don't love him like I thought I would I miss my ex. I miss our life that I ruined!! He didn't do shit. I look back now and see what I did wrong and what he was trying to do. I should of helped more and stopped complaining at him about him not helping or the house need to ben clean . I should of stopped the bitching and helped him. I should of just helped better him. But instead I fucking ruined what I had. I had 10 years with the guy over that! Now I'm with someone who family hate me because I don't have a job. Or make money. I just miss my old life. I miss how it was with my kids with my family. I just miss myself....

It's a lot now. I don't know how to feel normal anymore. I try to fix it, but my stupid brain can't understand that I'm trying to do the right thing. When I get reminded, all my progress goes down the drain. I'm really tired. I won't mind dying because I don't think I'll ever be normal again

How do crossdressers deal with family that hate them and all that? It's been a pain even trying to talk bout feelings with my own.

Gen Y not old? But explain the lack of energy and pains. Prob Old now, so prob buried in a few years.

"You're so mature for your age". Yes. yes I am. Because my older sister is an irresponsible bitch and my parents are always working. I am because my brother needs to grow up happy, not wondering why mum and dad are never here, or why his friends get to go to the movies, and theme parks and pools and do normal kid shit while he doesn't. So yes. I'm fucking mature for my age, but it's not like I have a damn choice. You think I want to be mowing lawns and washing cars and dealing with fucking Karen's at a cafe willingly? Maybe think that not everyone grew up in fucking luxury.

My mom has this stupid schedule thing for my day. I’m supposed to have breakfast before 12pm, lunch between 12-5, and a small snack before 8. I’m not allowed to eat after 8pm. I missed my breakfast time, so now I can’t rlly eat until later because then I’ll be hungry too late in the day. Like I can’t already have lunch it’s too early imo. But I’m so hungry. I basically have to wait like 2-3 hours. Plus she just yelled at me because I took too long to give her my laundry bc she wanted to do the laundry and she hates waiting. Ig I’ll just have gum or something. Maybe cutting myself will make me forget how hungry I am

So for the past 3 weeks I’ve been worried I’d touch a persons groin or butt area whether that’s at home in school or outside in public and it’s really bothering me like for example: I was at a grocery store the other night and some man was walking past me with a phone and a cart and a chip bag and I got worried right like automatically and twisted my body/butt in a way that could’ve brushed anyone but now I didn’t touch the cart so I felt fabric….what did I touch or brush against? I have like 35 other cases like this and they’re eating me up I feel like a horrible person hiding in plain sight

I don't want to be alive but I can't bring myself to die either

I don’t want it seem ungrate full but my family is always pissing me off telling me what to do, taking me out my comfort zone, forcing me to socialize when I finally get alone time and when I do have free time I do self harm I don’t know what either ways to stop myself it’s like an addiction

I just cry sometimes I hate myself so much I get so insecure over little things I just want someone who I trust to notice my self harm so I have someone to talk to I’ve spoken to my plushies.

I wish I could be back to my old self. Everything was good back then. I miss my old prime mentally when it had no stress, no family issues, not being controlled, like you know it.

Ouch My bf and I just broke up less than a week ago and I found out that he's dating someone else and that he's been in love with a girl for a long time

everything I used to love doing is becoming dull and I don’t know what to do.

Ugh. Have to make a phone call to get my medication because I'll run out before my next review. Rang up and turns out I have to give a blood pressure reading. Used the blood pressure machine, got the reading, googled it to see if it was normal and now the NHS website is telling me to call 111. I'm not making another bloody phone call, I expect it's a false reading anyway. Will try again for the fourth time in a mo because I think I'm doing it wrong. But if I give them the results I've got, I'm worried they'll stop my medication.