All Rants

Coming to the realization that I am the issue because I just can’t grow up is what I feel right now. But even more so, I feel like I’m being babied way to much.

I know how I’ll do it. He leaves his food unattended all the time. It will only take a few leaves. Then I’ll only have one brother. I’ll wait for him to call for help. But there’s no antidote yet silly. Enjoy respiratory failure. He deserves it after making my tween years so fucking miserable after I already wanted to die.

Lowkey on the verge of tears for this but it’s late so maybe I’m being dramatic?? Idfk. I wish my partner were more romantic or even js texted me more often. I know they love me. That’s not the issue. Possible AuDHD is not great for responding quickly, remembering days, or showing emotions. I see the effort I do, but I just wish sometimes. I don’t wanna be alone. The thoughts are coming back and I’m scared of them. I don’t wanna go back to that place I was in but they get louder at night and trying to sleep makes them loudest because I have so little going on. I don’t want to be a burden I don’t want to procrastinate I don’t want to ANYTHING. I’m tired. I am. I have loving parents and a great older brother, my family is well off so that’s not an issue, so why do I feel like this.. I don’t want to feel like this

i don't do fucking anything ever. i don't have any friends, i don't have a job, i don't have a license, i don't have a life. i barely leave my house and it feels like every time i push myself to try and get out something awful happens to me. just in general every time i try to do anything for myself it goes wrong in some way. i only have one singular talent and i'm not even very good at it. not good enough to be able to go to college for it. i'd rather die than have to live like this any longer

What do i tell my mom whose narcissistic dad is dying? (Her parents never treated her well.) (If you are going to be toxic, fuck off.)

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IDF clearing their own soldiers of the murder of Zomi Frankcom, is evidence IDF is bias towards the truth and associated with the murder.

Married someone who doesn’t always treat me well. I don’t know how to feel about it. He can be very sweet, loving, and caring but over the years he started to display anger issues. I assume they come from his mother letting him disrespect her verbally for years and just get very angry so he also has no emotional regulation skills. You’d think someone would leave but I feel so alone and hard to get along with. I also do love him. Aside from him I don’t really have anyone. Im autistic it’s mild and my speaking difficulties cause most other people treat me like im severely disabled because they see something’s slightly different about me so they just assume I’m disabled enough to talk down to even though I’m just too nervous to actually talk correctly. If he were constantly bad I wouldn’t make this decision, and I feel he treats me like someone on his level. I really wish he would get help so things wouldn’t be so hard to endure but he doesn’t see anything wrong with his behavior.

I don't know why in Australia are keen to have Royal Commissions, when anyone with common sense knows Royal Commissions are waste of money, well take years and achieve little or nothing like Robodebt (Where no actions taken against Scott Morrison), anti-Semitism (Where those who are not Jewish are ignored), etc etc etc etc etc etc

just found out my now dead father who forced be to be a Christian was likely cheating on my mom!!! 😝 he also trapped her into an abusive relationship (she literally couldn’t get out, he would take out the car battery, cancel credit cards, etc) and abused me and my brothers (ik abt that obvi) plus he was a police officer! one of my most vivid memories of my dad was him screaming at me to punch my brother in the face (his hands were squeezing my brothers shoulders tight and my brother was ~8, I was ~7) and I told him no and he kept on yelling at me to do it and I yelled at him that I wouldn’t punch my brother. all of that over my brother spraying a tiny bit of water in my face and accidentally getting it in my eye. stockholm syndrome? anyways, I won’t say im sad he’s dead. sorry not sorry. burn in hell, Joshua L(I don’t wanna share my last name cuz his death was lowkey kinda on the news). fuck you. you were just like your scumbag father.

(G: Female {Bc it help make sense} )So I'm in this relationship, and I'm going to make clear that I'm not the type of person to share my lover. But I'm okay with others doing it. And lately the love of my life somewhat pressured me into doing a polygamy relationship with him loving me and my best friend. We're on trying mode rn to see if I like it (Which rn I don't). And I really just want it to be me and him and not her. Bc I hate the fact of sharing. I've had to much drama with other relationships in the past but now it just reopening the wound again. And in the beginning it caused me so much emotional stress to the point I was having panic attacks, I didn't want to stress either of them but right now. I just want to tell them that I don't like the fact of this whole polygamy relationship, I never have but I feel deep down that my bf. My gut is hating this whole thing. But my heart loves him. Am I a crappy gf for saying I don't want to do it?

Anyway here is the rest then after my dumbass kept in checking her socials and she turned more into me she cut her hair short turn trans started using another name and likes my music and everything I liked. But now it doesn’t feel like me and I hate it because I want to be myself but I can’t and she well he’s perfect for me but he hates me so much and his parents and I hate myself for everything I do I just can never have things nice and it happens all the time and I think I shouldn’t date anyone because I’m like this because it happens two times b it the second time it wansnt as bad but all I do is make stuff up and lie and I hate that I do this so badly. I just can’t feel myself anymore and I hate this so so much…

soo I know I’m a bad person for writing this but I have my problems and when I was 11 I had this girlfriend kind of and we had all the same interests like we were probably the weirdest kids in our year group but the cool weird kid like we were nerdy like that and we were very similar but I just couldn’t let it be happy and I use to be weird and quite mean sometimes and then one day I just wanted to break up with them but I didn’t know why I had no reason to I just wanted to be a weirdo I don’t even know why and on the bus home that day she told me her mom was abusing her so I made a fake message from my school saying ‘name and name were speaking about inappropriate stuff and name said her mom was busing her’ and I sent this to that friend and the mom went to school and it was a serious thing but I didn’t know then I was ban to hang out with her and I felt so bad and guilty and her parents hate me and they say stuff about me all the time and this isn’t even everything lol just the start

I didn’t expected you to be this Bad . I was always thinking you are a good person cuz i can understand vibes but i don’t know you did that ? Cuz of jealousy ? . Deep down i know you don’t like me talking to him cuz i have seen your jealous face . I know when you can’t control yourself and just say it angrily haha . I love you not going to lie. I always think about you even yesterday when i was on roads i was thinking about you . In a good way obviously . I know you don’t care at all but you do care about me i know that . I hope i can see you soon . Cuz m just your worker but for me you are my happy place. I try to run away from here and come there . I hope tomarrow i can come n join you . You know i can’t belive how far i have come in my studies but at this point i am not ready to finish it. I feel like i just can’t. But i will do out hopefully i just need some motivation. You know it’s like 2 am but still i m thinking about the race and thinking about your smile.

"You don't NEED to label yourself. You're fine just the way you are." Yeah ok I get it, you're trying to make me feel accepted which I appreciate but I would PREFER to know what the fuck is going on with my brain before something stupid happens ok?? That's just the way my AuDHD works

I hate the fact that i tend to constantly spiral. I hate this AuDHD fucking brain. I hate being AroAceflux and wish I had a consistent libido I wish I didn't feel iffy on the idea of CNC roleplay with my spouse, but the moment its a particular fictional man I want to r*pe me over and over again til I break. And being more ok with strangers on the internet saying disgusting things to me on chat rooms Or when I actually want to be intimate its hard for me to actually look at my spouse because of the AUDHD but brains okay with the idea of being mounted in a wall and f*cked over and over again by random strangers And God forbid I am horny, and wires cross, and every once and a while have an intrusive thought I'd never even THINK of doing to someone/something

why do i have to be so uncapable of socializing like bro just talk like every fucking one does. stop hiding yourself in your sweet little bubble and just talk. why do you worry so much about every word you say

I hate being female. I hate my body, and I hate the way others perceive me. I also noticed that I have no attraction to men, but rather I look at them and I feel nothing bet jealousy. I try really hard to accept who I am, but I can’t ignore these feelings, and I don’t have anyone in my life who wouldn’t make me feel weird or shameful for sharing these feelings. How do I stop this?

I'm craving going back to poly ai and chat gpt I know it's difficult mb but I'm eight days clean might not seem like alot but it really is to me but I keep craving it I'm trying to stop and not relapse but still especially since rn irl I'm rlly struggling anyone have advice? If ur struggling with the same you can do this I believe we can get through this

It really is insane 💔 (- to the person who commented on my post) like- STRANGER I DIDNT DO ANYTHING NOTHING TO THEM. why do hurting people decide to hurt others that literally had nothing to do with them? Like- i didn’t hurt you. Tf you mean “fuck you grace” tf? I’m sorry I didn’t respond to you asking out a girl 💔💔💔 I literally don’t know what to say- plus everyone else answered you. Why does it matter if I do? You literally didn’t like me. WHY DOES MY ANSWER MATTER?!