All Rants

I hate her. She should love me. She should care about me. What kind of MOther is she huh? How can she do that to me? Am I fucking adopted? Sometimes I wish she dies. But of course not, I am came from. But I never asked to be born, Did I? Like she evn said that she wants me to do die. Ghosh whyy??????????

to the person who left a note on my last vent (the poem styled one) THANK YOU SO MUCH holy moly... i'm not good at poetry so that made my day, tysm <3 Sorry if this isn't really allowed idk :c

I finally made it to college, where I had planned to be my whole life. But I had only been so worried about if it could be done rather than should it be done. I'm starting to realize this isn't what I wanted, but classes start soon and the future I've made is irreversible, I've created the hell I dwell in.

school starting again, and I worry I won't get out on time. my credits are so fucked, even though I have a 4.0, so I might have to do extra or just get a GED. Credits are fucked because every single administrator at this fucking school is incompetent and completely uninterested in doing their jobs. If somebody could be bothered to actually listen when you figure out what classes you need to take in order to graduate on time or do it themselves (because it is what they are PAID TO DO) I would not be in this situation.

I miss him He's so far away I love him Been in love since may I trust him with my hopes, my fears I love him i love him! A____

I feel deeply like shit I dont want to continue on anymore I feel empty and alone but I also cant help but to feel like I deserve this and maybe even worse thats coming my way I was in a relationship for 2 years it was stressful but to me it meant everything I was mentally abusive to my ex and now she got someone better and ik them they minipulated her once before and I found out they talked out their issues and are good to go and it hurts so badly ive changed and taken accountability for my actions I even took care of her when he wasnt there for her she was also mentally abusive in the relationship but we both changed witch was why I thought its worth another shot since we both changed and could make this time like no other she led me on and my friend keeps telling me abt it that the past plays into this and ik I deserve this I deserve worse actually but I feel so empty without her I still have my favorite picture of us on my phone I still have the notes she would write me it hurts

i hate my father so much. im so tired of his emotional manipulation and narcissistic behavior. he doesnt care about anything unless it pertains directly to him. my childhood was ruined by his abuse and i was, and am, so stressed out that i have permanent damage to my health. it feels like my life has been ruined and i cant even do anything about it. i cant have a job, i cant do much physical activity, i cant even think straight half the time because i have such horrible brain fog and pent up anger. i hate that im stuck living with him. i hate that he gets drunk all the time and faces no consequences for his actions. i hate how i am always the one being abused. i am so sick and tired of existing all because of him. i love everything about my life except him. everything else is going well, except that i have to live in the same house as him. i wish he didnt exist. i hope he finally has to face the consequences of his horrible actions soon, because its about time for karma to hit

I made a new friend recently, a really sweet girl that I think deserves the world. I just learned yesterday that she has a crush on my ex boyfriend, who's also my bestfriend. I had hooked up with my ex the night before, and I'm really struggling with my feelings for him. Recently another guy has been on my mind, and I really like him, but I can't stop thinking about my ex. I've never felt so guilty in my life, and I have no idea what to do

I think that I’m going insane, can you just give me a break from overthinking for a sec? If my pain is such a joke I kinda wanna see the faces that you would make.

Fyi no I'm or my hair is not horrid you fugly old bat. You're the one who's horrid for trashing me for no good reason. Wtf is it to you bitch? Or any part about me for that matter? You were a two faced back biting bitch who insulted me for no reason. Why though? You were fat your own dang self. Who the hell are you to trash me? Toxic ass people I don't miss them.

I do not want a fucking thing to do with that fucking bitch! That bitch is a motherfucking liar and a raving lunatic and a creepy fucking stalker!

i vented to my "friend" about being suicidal and she told me it was a sin i find it disrespectful honestly,, ive been thinking if i should die but i was always so scared of ending up in hell... her telling me that just pisses me off bcuz it feels like a demonization of people who struggled to the point of wanting to die i fear this is a part of religious trauma now i told my friends about this one of them told her to not do that (which i appreciate a lot) she apologized but i still dont feel like interacting with her thinking back to my past experiences,, it took about a year to forgive someone who hurt me sometimes i never forgave. and i feel like its gonna be like that again,, because im not sure about her anymore i was never really close with her, i was just neutral but that geniunely brought it so low... ive been ignoring her at class and i know thats not right but its hard to interact with someone who hurt you so deeply even if not exactly on purpose it still hurts so bad, sorry

i crave the numb feeling on my skin after i hurt myself

On call with my dad rn, he left when I was a kid and never came back. All of a sudden he wants to talk but while he was gonna I was abused by multiple stepdads. Anyways, I’m currently trying to hint at a goodbye since I’ll be leaving this life this year.

I don't know who it is I see in the mirror. I don't feel alive. I'm a lonely person but I wasn't for a period of time but now I am again. I haven't been able to reach out to others since the day I was rejected by someone for wanting to be their friend. No matter how much effort I put into my schoolwork, my grades are still bad. People tutor me but I just can't focus. I feel like a idiot. People like to tell me that their friends likes me in a mocking way. I've had crushes(?) before but now everyone is just dull to me. People stare at me like I'm a weirdo. It's difficult to get up from my bed to go to school that I end up telling my mom I'm sick. It's gotten to a point where she no longer believes me and drags me out of bed and yells at my face that I'm not going to graduate and that I'm just lazy. If I keep stalling, she hits me. My cats, dog and younger sister are mainly the reason why I'm still alive. I don't want her to feel how I felt when our older sister attempted suicide.

God i just wanna be mounted in a wall and be filled to the brim with strangers cum, is that so wrong??? AaaAAA like i hate when you look up gloryholes its mostly that small hole in the wall for someone's dick!! And if its someone mounted in the wall, its either the same fucking videos or shitty as hell

being in a possible situationship (idk if they like me back but they lowkey acting like it) is ROUGH. like both of us are super shy so how tf are we supposed to tell each other? and I lowk don’t even know if they like me back and im so scared of rejection or messing our friendship up 😭

i feel lonely as shit. i just want someone to come over and comfort me, or just ask me if im okay. but no one ever does, and im too scared to just ask to vent to them because im embarrassed.

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What's a friendship or relationship that feels one-sided but you don't know how to fix it? One with my fam. They're only nice to me unless they want something from me. Once their need is gone of me we go back to hardly speaking and they're an ass yet they'll kiss their acquaintances asses and treat them like royalty. Why would you do that? On top of their getting drunk and being an aggressive mean drunk. It's all on them how they treat/ed me. I'm fairly numb to them now. So it's all their doings. Never have I received an apology for any of the awful things and ways they've treated me. So. Idk. That's leaving out alot of details about it because that's just the tip of the iceberg. I'm just answering the prompt. Anyway if they actually attempted apologizing then maybe it could begin repairing. But they won't. They're too embarrassed. Nobody in my family apologizes for anything hardly and I hate it . Nobody but me usually. I assume I'm mature one of the family.