All Rants

words that hurt me affect me more than words that are meant to encourage me. like someone can say negative about me and it would forever stick with me but when someone compliments me or say anything positive about me i forget about it and doesn't really have any positive light on me. it just doesn't have any weight for me. no matter how positive or sweet the words are they're just a bunch of nothing to me. but i can't say the same for negative words. ig im just not capable of accepting happiness or love or sumshit

Really wanted a crossdressing subby life with a dominant by now. Probably too ugly and useless now.

I don't know why my neighbors above me have to thump so much and be so loud early morning hours. I HATE BEING WOKE UP LIKE THIS. And I'm actually super quiet. One of them was up there thumping at 2 o'clock in the effing morning. Before the rest of what pissed me off. Clearly they're miserable people. The one seems always mad at the world. They have 0 respect for us. They act like roaches tbh. Their loud ass thumping seems to affect me only because they sleep above me. Despite thumping everywhere else it doesn't wake my other fam up like it does me. A number of people lived here before us. They probably caused them to move out by how they are most likely. Someone in a review did say people here are so mean they wouldn't wish it on their enemies. That has proven true. I don't like feeling pissed first thing in the morning. I hope it rains rocks on their roof and ceiling. If it were up to me I'd throw a cinder block through their windshield is how angry I feel.

i was a master at baiting,im now 2 months cleen,but my stupid self decided to do i again,im disgusting.i hate being hyper sexuel

yall ever get told smth that kinda hurt u and u js sit there unable to move? like a certain fear of js moving or doing anything after being scolded(?) i can't like physically move after smth like that for a while and have to mentally 'reset' myself to actually move my body again idk it js sucks maybe it's js some mental thing idk idk anymore

you know,when i tell some one about my thoughts,like gemini(and no,i dont sepport ai)they always say talk to a theripist,talk to my family,or they give me a bunch of helplines when i cleerly told them im scared the'll send police to my house.ill never vent to ai again

i hate u jose. you fucking ruined me as a person, i have an ed now im in an out of the hospital i cant fucking eat without throwing up, i cant livestream without being asked about you. i cant fucking live my life happily knowing your still fucking out there living yours to the fullest, i have notes in my room. just know your fucking name is on it. i hate you, i hate everyone else who fucked me over as a person in this fucked up world. you knew i was dealing with physical and mental abuse at home and deciding to fucking verbally abuse me then say i was fucking crazy YOUR A FUCKING LIAR AND I HOLE YOU FIE . i hate you so fucking much, i genuinely want to kill myself and send you the video.

i hate my ex, i hope he disappears off the this earth so i don’t have to fucking think about him anymore he hurt me so badly and he got a new gf so fucking quick showing that i didn’t mean shit even afterwards after all the shit i told him he done to me he still didn’t care i’m gonna kill myself one day and i want him to know he’s the fucking reason.

Beyond the restraint from destruction I am worried by what I see. I know I need to try to be fair. I need to try to be more kind. What burns deep in me is the realization that I don't regret a lot of the horror that I've done. I know it was excessive force and I'm happy to do it again and again until people realize that I'm only one of us. So many like me can become like the clock tower shooter. No one is safe and when people act with ignorance, disrespect, and arrogance then they don't deserve safety. That bothers me that I realize Theodore Kaczynski was absolutely right and he committed no crimes. Those that Ted punished were the criminals and he delivered the real justice. Ted was persecuted, martyred, slandered, and mocked for doing what was right.

I know what I have done. I know I've killed men and boys. I know that it was called war but I didn't have to kill them. Didn't have to torture them. I learned an acquired taste to enjoy it. I thought that was what made me powerful. The ruin and horror. What makes a man powerful is to gain ability then become greater than temptation through restraint. I can kill men but what makes me powerful is breaking their bones, shooting them non-lethally and leaving them to survive. My power is in my restraint and mercy when I can use it. My power is in realizing that there is still a life that can be spared in the bodes of those I could kill. It took me a long time to realize and I'm still not always stronger than my lust for destruction against those I dislike but I am strong enough now that I can, and have, held back from killing & causing more damage than was necessary. Almost anyone can pull a trigger but it takes the development of restraint to hold back when it's not necessary.

I’llTELL EVERY DAMN ONE ABOUT YOU AND THAT BITCH’S ACCOUNTS

Idgaf about your affections but make fun of me on twt Ill let everyone EVERYONE KNOW ABOUT THE TYPE OF ACCOUNTS YOU ARE RUNNING

I will file a cyber harassment case against you for stalking and making fun of me with your bitch on twt. I’mDEAD serious Anchiket

Child of god There was once a marble vaulted ceiling above where I was forced down kneeling I never heard the voice of god I just heard the lies droning on. I found strength in truth but that disgusted you. I bled and you beat me but your shame still could not defeat me. You're the child of your false christian god but I'm righting all of your wrongs. Pour your sins out on to me Downing so I can't breathe In the darkness from your soul I kept warm despite your christ like heart that's frozen cold Let me burn with rage to scorch away the pain. So much contempt for the child that I was And your violent loathing of me for doing what I must. You're a child of your false christian god but I'm righting all of your wrongs Fighting with steel and song I finally found a place in the fires of war where I belong Shrapnel sting spit in my face feels better than your hate. Bullets screaming overhead are kinder than your religious texts.

Anyone who tolerates or respects christians does not understand christianity or people. matthew ch5 v17 Do not think that I have come to abolish the rules of the old covenant. I have not come to abolish them but to fulfill them. psalm 137 v9 Blessed is the one who grabs your little children and smashes them against a rock. jeremiah ch11 v22 god will kill the young men in war and starve their children to death. 1st samuel ch15 v3 god said, go and murder them totally destroy all that belongs to them. Do not have any mercy- murder men, women, children, babies, and cattle. matthew 10 vs 34 & 36 "Do not think that I have come to bring peace to the earth. I have not come to bring peace, but a sword. 1st timothy 2:12 I do not permit a woman to teach or to assume authority over a man- she must be quiet. luke ch14v26 If anyone comes to me and does not hate their own father, mother, wife, children, brothers and sisters, yes, even his own life, they cannot be my disciple.

I’m not your REM stfu Ugly ass hoe rem is you

Keep degrading me because that’s all you know on how to keep her happy 😊

People like how I am? "Don't ruin it" Go fuck off the edge of the grand canyon and break every bone in your body on the way down. I don't exsist for other people to like me. I exsist because of my choices. If you like me then maybe I could like you back but if you think the world and other people revolve around you then I don't care if you like me. You're selfish, narcissistic, and pathetic. I'm not the only one who belongs to myself. Everyone belongs to themselves. Not to anyone else. "I like you. Don't ruin it." Everyone will see you for the garbage that you are. No one owes you anything. They are who they are unto themselves and THEIR choices. You have no right to others.

Idgaf bro my fiancé is far better than you. He got that height, looks and a GREAT personality 🤏😏

im not okay. at all. i cant vent or even cry to my friends bc i dont want to burden them. i cant focus in class anymore. i cant feel things anymore. i need to cry every min but i cant. not anywhere but my room. im barely speaking to my parents now. im realizing that becoming a teen sucks. i can barely trust any of my friends now. Earlier, i was crying so fricking hard bc i had a massive fight with my mom. my stomach was in pain. my legs, back, arms were in pain. my head was spinning. the worst part? my friends talk shit and betray me like im some shitty doll without feelings. they compare themselves to me every time, saying im on a lower level and i cant do shit right. i believe them. i agree with all the stupid bullshit they say bc theres no point in denying anything anymore. im so done with skl. im so done with life in general. ive tried stopped, cutting everyone off. i failed. im scared to try and lose everything and everyone. what do i do now.? im lost in this world. i feel empty.