All Rants

i got a new kitten recently who was born from a stray and i'm thinking that i might have to let him go. i've been crying so hard because i love him so much and he's so sweet but i'm too fucking depressed to take care of him the way that he needs to be taken care of. he doesn't deserve to have to be with someone who can't get out of bed to play with him or train him. i love him so much i don't want to never see him again but i can barely even take care of myself. i don't know why i thought i'd be able to do this. he's so precious and sweet and he licks my tears when i cry. i fucking hate my life depression is a disease

Tired of daily life. I get it, society has built its way and sometimes it’s just life, but I’m sick and tired of it. I feel like absolute trash, seeing others exceed so far, getting gifts, sponsors, being able to travel far. Wanted to put myself out there on streaming platform. Seeing my face, hearing my own voice, even i can't stand the thought of putting myself out there. I’m here with two retail, low-paying jobs and I can’t even keep my head afloat. I wanted to do a specific role for a convention that I volunteered for about three years. One time I ask for something different and get rejected instantly. I get it—I’ve got selfish demands that I barely ask for, but the one time I feel brave enough to reach out and ask, I get rejected. Constant rejections for better-paying jobs and such. Haven’t received anything nice, and I feel too trashy to buy myself anything nice because the moment I buy something for myself, I regret it. I don't want to die but I don't really want to live either.

I remember when I went to go see my uncle in the hospital after he almost died due to diabetes and yk I was sad but in the waiting room with my little cousin and my mom I saw this REALLY hot doctor looking at me and my type is like masculine women, feminine men, androgynous ppl, etc etc. and they were EXACTLY my type HO LEE SHET. now yk i couldn’t tell what was in their pants but i still wanna find out👀👀

I want to write a rant so I can make videos because rants always come up for me and I want to make one please it would be fun for me

i want to kill myself. i have no empathy inside of me. my partner says i make her feel sub-hmuan, but not in an abusive way and i dont know what im doing wrong. When I ask she says she shouldnt need to hold my hand and walk me through everything and I fucking agree man. I just dont know what the fuck im doing. Im not even a fucking human. The job market is fucking horrible. The only position I got accepted was an unpaid internship for 20 hours a week. What the fuck is my purpose. I have no future, I cant hold a relationship let alone connect with my partner, I am a failure to my parents and myself. I cant even get consoled by my partner, it doesn't feel right. I cant talk to my parents and I cant stress my sister out. I dont even have friends that would be willing to hear me out. I am a joke. Im going to kill my self soon. I hate my self.

I feel hated but not in a way that's obvious. It's hate disguised as love. I am so confused most of the time. I married but I always feel alone even when she's around. When I try to explain that something hurts my feelings she says " My life shouldn't always revolve around her" and that all I do is complain. I always feel like a bad person for simply having emotions

I can’t do this anymore honestly, it just gets worse as time passes, school’s hell for me, I hate what I study, I hate my classmates I hate my teachers, I hate people there, it’s just so toxic, people bullied me, I don’t want to return there, I’m trans, people calling me by my death name are killing me, it started like “fine I got this,” to a whole new level where it’s destroying me, I feel like everything it just useless at this point, every thread I desperately try to cling on breaks or isn’t strong enough to hold me, I’m sinking down, and probably, after 4 years, of going up and down, I’ll touch the deepest and darkest place, by touching the seabed.

i wish i could be love. i want to love someone and they love me too. i just can’t… love makes me feel weird

do I have friends? do I want friends?

I don't hate people, I just am pretty fucking frustrated and tired of everyone. It gets to a certain point where I just don't care and everyone is pushing that boundary so far back that I really don't give a fuck of anyone to the point where I just zone out in the midst of talking to someone. I mean I have good friends but its just popular girls and guys and a whole bunch of my family and my ex friends that really screwed me over.

what do you guys think happens when you die? i want to hear what you think. i mean IN FULL. i wanna know every stupid theory about while your dying when you die after or before you die. EVERYTHING. former it creep you guys out that one day we will all just die and never come back?!

I feel so numb. why do I have to go to school?

I'm going to overdose tonight. I'm gonna take the rest of my bottle of effexor. I love my husband, but he deserves so much better than me. I can't let him be trapped in a relationship with me anymore

i wish i was a skinny bitch with pretty hair in a french plait. life is not fucking fair

no matter what i do I'm never good enough. I'm the worst child I'm the worst friend I'm the worst family member I'm the worst pet owner I'm the worst student I'm the worst athlete I'm the worst owner IM THE WORST PERSON THEY SAY GROW UP BUT GUESS WHAT? TO DAMN BAD

I’m just gonna sit back and watch you get treated the same way ☺️ imagine being mad over a game 💀💀💀

i have genuinely never felt more alone in my entire life. it feels like everything that is around me has been placed there so it eventually hurts me when the time has come. why can i not just be a normal, happy person and be able to live a normal life filled with joy? i am constantly consumed with such a deep sadness all the time and it just makes me want to leave and go somewhere so far that memories of me vanish. i hate everyone nd everhrhing and i just want to be alone. it’s not fair that everyone gets their chance in life and i… don’t. why does everyone forget that im human too! i want to have fun and laugh too. i feel sad too. my feelings ALSO get hurt like you because im. a. human. i feel like im on Gods wrong side. what if he dosent love me? what if, im wasting my life and he never forgives me. i will rot in hell and be more lonley than ever. i will cry from the pain and burn so bad that i will have no choice but the scream. i hate this. it’s not fair

is it normal that I just wanna cry? I feel so depressed

i feel so empty inside . I cant do this...

i just feel useless like theres nothing good i can due in life due to me not having the qualifications in life. i wanted to do history and psychology yet im stuck due to this fucking english grade i got due to the stress i felt during the test and my dyslexia. genuinely i feel like theres nothing good i can do if i cant do the things i wanted to do in life.