All Rants

I'm so tired. My parents keep traveling and finally taking their time off. I'm completely happy for them, but I feel like I'm just acknowledged as someone lower to them with not a lot of feelings. My mental health is worse, I'm tired and can barely get out of bed, and when I wake up early it's so I don't get shamed. I'm eating either less or more, and I can't catch a break. It feels like when I want to be home, I spend time from anywhere but home. My parents don't let me have a break. If I want one, I'm a lazy and spoiled asshole. I told my mom about my past mental health, and she brushed it off and said I used it as an excuse. If I want space, it's an argument. If I want to lash out, it's immediate punishment. I cry through my eyes. I bleed red. I use my words to speak. But it's different because I'm younger? I'm no different from you, I have to go through it at some point. I was simply born. I want to be liked. I want a name other than "fat" or "child". And why dismiss my comfort?

I crave validation so much it feels unhealthy. I post art hoping to see people comment, saying "It's so nice!!" Whenever I do get those, it feels good, but it makes me want more. I'm constantly checking my notifications to see if strangers online think I'm cool. I hate it so much. Now I can't even bring myself to feel motivated to post something, or do anything productive at all, but I still want praise. I hate myself so much.

I'm scared to come out to my parents as nonbinary. What if they hate me? What if they just tell me "Your a girl, don't label yourself as that." Or "why are you thinking about that? Focus on school." I don't feel safe talking to anyone about this because they'll just think I'm a burden. I hate being here, I wish I could just stop the pain. Now I just snap at my sister sometimes and feel so guilty. I've been thinking about dying everyday and I can't stop it- I even wrote goodbye notes. I don't know what to do.

Im so tired of everything going on. Im only a freshman in highschool and I just want to skip this whole highschool period. I want to move away and everything. I’m so tired of going to the lunch room and not eating anything but then also sitting with people who I thought they were my friends we came from the same middle school but they are just horrible to me. I always feel like I’m the problem and I need to make it up but ITS not me. ITS THEM. They need to grow up, not everything is funny. Not everything has to be about boys. You don’t need to point someone out calling them fine or chopped. LIKE SHUSH

I feel like shit for not being able to get things done ,I feel like shit for the fact that I'm here and having these thoughts ,I feel like shit cause I don't got any support fromy parents though they make it seem like that ,I feel like shit cause they all talk and can't act ,i feel like shit that I get to be blamed for something I can't do ,I feel like shit cause my life is in a rocky ground and I feel like shit cause rn I think my purpose is to die ,I feel like shit cause I believe that Jesus is my purpose and also believe that death is the thing for me ,I feel like shit because I bottle things up ,I feel like shit cause I can't talk to nobody about how I feel it's always a digital platform never my friends never my family ,I feel like shit cause I just have no one it's only me in my corner,I feel like shit I don't have patience ,I feel like shit cause this feels like the end and I want it all gone I want to lay peacefully and I'm sorry to God ,siblings, those who give less than 2 f's

I feel like my crush K doesn't like me back. Like, he is popular and I'm not, so I do NOT think he will like me back. He's nice to me, makes jokes around me, but I don't know. Honestly I need help.

It's another bad day . I can't get over the hurt that he put me through. All I want is for us to go back to how we used to be.. but then I think , I was obviously the only happy one...

I hope my mother doesn't arrive home. I keep praying for her death. I don't know if this makes me a bad child. But it is either her death or my suicide. I am too young to kill myself. With each day passing it just gets worse. I keep forgetting the fact that I do not matter in anyone's life. The worst part is that I have no one. No one to talk about this. I can't call anyone. They don't help. Not when she has done nothing psychical. They won't believe me. They'll say I am sick. And I am starting to believe that. She keeps calling me useless. Keeps guilt tripping me. And she also keep harassing me. Touching my inappropriate places knowing damn well I don't like it. Then yells at me for not wanting it. She keeps telling me to end myself. Telling me I am nothing but a piece of shit. I'm starting to believe that. I don't want to kill myself. But it seems like that's the only choice I get to get away from her. I can't runaway. I can't live on my own. I don't know what to do. I'm confused.

My ex-boyfriend and I broke up last Friday. We ended on great terms. We decided to be friends. He wanted to grow a little bit and get his master's. We both made promises to each other. He told me, Whenn we get back together, we will look back on this day and laugh." We snap every day but dont talk as much as we usedtoo. last night, i asked if there is another girl. he told me "no. not at all." which i beileve him because he wants to focus on himself for right now and grad school is on his mind. Before I asked that question, I asked him if he is still keeping his promises. he said yes, and I said, " All of them? like waiting and stuff?' and he said yes. I mean, I know there isnt another girl because the man wouldn't cry for over an hour to his friend about this and wouldn't come over the night after we broke up, thug meug. So I know that. He is still coming to my graduation, and he does not want me out of his life. I need help. I am so overthinking this.

4/17/2026 Feeling the same dull, empty dread as usual. The mere thought of having to sit there, concentrate, and work on the same thing I'm not at all interested in for hours is scaring me, all while knowing that, because of how long it took me, there will forever be more work to do after I take sometimes up to several weeks to finish one assignment, grieving and mourning all of my now lost and pointlessly wasted time by wasting even more time stalling and procrastinating, pathetically and fruitlessly chasing a non-existent peace and trying to avoid what's troubling me. But the whole time, I'm doing even more work in my head trying to ignore the fact that I'm fully aware that me just watching TV and trying to relax or whatever is just a vain, empty distraction that fails at its sole purpose to distract me, rather just reminding me of what nothing I've done, and that my fate of more useless work and lost life-time is coming, that I am slowly growing older. Remy/Isabella (she/they)

I can't stand the idea of my dad with his "girlfriend" or whatever fucking label he decides to give it. It's one thing when she comes over to hang out with him but now she's spending the night and I hate it. It's not that he doesn't have the right to see other people after Mommy died but the sheer idea of it is ridiculous to me after how he treated her when I was growing up. Shae doesn't have to come home to him drunk after a long day at work. (if she even has a job) He doesn't berate her over spending money because now his kids are the ones paying for everything. He doesn't accuse her of cheating to cover his own tracks. It's like she gets the best of him and me and my brother and Mommy got stuck with all the trauma. If this becomes a permanent thing I might have to move out because I shouldn't have to be the one to pay rent when my dad doesn't even have the decency to give us a heads up when she stays over. (Or worse, move in.)

My life is so fuck up; I want to continue my studies but why is it so hard? every college entrance exam I applied all failed I don't even know where school would accept me. I don't want to go to a private school because my family can't afford it and some scholarship, I applied to turn me down why is it so hard I just want to get a degree, get a job and help but why is it so hard even finding a part time job is hard what am I supposed to do then???

man idgaf if ur neurodivergent or whatever that doesnt excuse you from being an asshole to everyone and insulting mfs for no reason and acting all emotionless or some shit

i was so happy holding the bouquet you gave me, without even realizing it was the money you stole from me.

Feels like nobody gets it when I say we shouldn't draw nudes or NSFW of teenagers in anime. Pokémon trainers are usually 10 when they start out, and in middle school I accidentally discovered porn trying to find fanart and information on the games. Somehow I'm the fucking crazy person because I say that's fucked up, but everyone's like "it's just a drawing bro, get over it", like I don't want to get over it, I want to rip your fucking tongue out of your head so you never say something so fucking stupid ever again. Finding that awful fanart started a whole fucking chain reaction of testing what kind of porn I could find next and before I knew it, I was looking up lolicon art like it was normal, and I just acted like nothing was wrong until I graduated high school, now I feel like someone who managed to get off heroin and people say it's so easy to quit drugs or that heroin is your choice, it isn't bad. I basically traumatized myself for years and now everyone acts like it's okay.

Been addicted to porn since I was 13, my wife thinks I stopped when she found out years ago, but I will either feel sick if I try not to look at it when my brain gets that neural pathway going, or I will just absentmindedly look up memes and before I know it I'm 2 hours into trying to find a video I saw over a decade ago. It's too easy to find this stuff, and everyone is either so disgusted by it I can't tell them, or is so okay with it that it disgusts me. I don't want to be told it's normal, I want to not feel the urge to watch other people having sex while being unwilling to do it with my wife, and even if I thought it was okay for me, she has self-esteem issues and would think I want these other women instead of her. I'm sure I've collectively spent a year of my life just browsing for porn and I'm so sick of it. People tell me to pray about it, but it seems God either wants me to overcome it myself, or confess to my wife, but I can't do that to her, I'd rather die than hurt her.

i recently lost my dad to suicide in October 2025 and i just lost my mom about 10 days ago. i have a lot of things and a lot of memories with my mom and dad that i would love to just talk about but everyone is treating me like its forbidden to talk about my parents and like they have to guard over me. My dad was a really strong man and he did a lot of amazing things in his life , such as saving mine because in 2024 i tried to commit suicide because i felt like i didnt have anyone. He told me i always had him and my mom, i have neither now . ive been drinking and smoking every single day since my mom died . they said it couldve been broken heart syndrome that caused her sudden death , im just hoping i follow behind them soon.

Despite knowing I'm supportive of LGBT+ and trans people, my MIL keeps sending me dumb shit about people who think they're a deer or cat like that's the same (oddly, she likes the furry convention they have in her city, but not the pride parade). She also keeps sending this hideous AI videos with fake voices going on and on about how the giants and mermaids and all that secretly being demons, or talking about the Book of Enoch like its hidden knowledge while also saying the 7 books removed from the Bible were bad, and if I ever try to point out how much of it is bogus (I am Christian, read the whole Bible, I take it very seriously), she justs says she found it interesting and not to take it seriously. It's always "this habit of yours is satanic", "buying this product will put demons in your body", "the end of the world is tomorrow, Nostradamus predicted it". Whenever we visit she basically watches this shit for hours at a time on TikTok and I'm so fucking sick of it.

Generally my wife is a pretty level-headed person, I've known her almost 19 years and married half that, but when it comes to religion and politics, we're having trouble agreeing. She'll say she's in the middle and both parties are awful, but still tells me Trump isn't that bad (not full-on MAGA, thank God), likes Tom Macdonald's music, and believes a lot of the videos claiming drag queens are balls-out while reading to kids (which is odd because she was the one who had me watch Try Guys Try Drag). She has friends in the LGBT+ community and will be nice about it to their face, but she still says she doesn't support their lifestyle for religious reasons, whereas I believe someone can be gay and still saved, she seems iffy about it. She also gets mad when I say I support Sep. Church and State, because I don't think laws should be based on someone's twisted interpretation of Scripture, but she also doesn't like the Catholic Church because it has used it's authority to affect the world...

I'm not Catholic (Christian but unsure what kind), but I know the value the Roman Church has had on theology, retaining history and science even when the world was burning, and it's downside of occasionally becoming corrupt (what large group hasn't?), but a lot of my family, in-laws, and the general non-Catholic population seem so hellbent on being as non-Cath as possible that they can't seem to see that they're throwing away actual biblical beliefs. They don't want a pope because Rome had too much power, but they think America should be Christian and lead the world as such. Calling people saints is bad, but martyring Charlie Kirk is okay. Exorcisms are demonic ("a house divided", anyone?) but you can say "satan get out of my house" or "I rebuke this spirit to leave". "Priests molest children and the Boy Scouts of America were great when they didn't allow gays" (lots of kids got molested by the straight Scout Leaders if no one remembers). It's just frustrating seeing the hypocrisy.