All Rants

I feel disgusted Why am i like this? Actually I know why all I want Attention, someone to love me I'll always feel alone though Always feel disgusting

I really miss my old friends and I hate the new ones. Even if it's just online they meant so much to me now my new friends are just assholes. My new boyfriend (I know online and in real life) doesn't cuddle with me, doesn't hug me, Doesn't hold hands with me, Doesn't kiss, me doesn't care about how I feel. I liked him at first but I feel like I'm just dating him now cuz I'm desperate I don't even know if he likes me either And he just says he does. I just come home hoping somebody text me to see if I want to hang out or something BUT NOOO nobody EVER TEXT ME! I always have to be the first one to text them to hang out otherwise I don't talk to me. And then I have to come home And deal with my mom, I love her but when she drinks she acts stupid, And even sometimes when she's not drunk she still does. My new friends are absolutely weird And the only reason I think they talk to me Is because they want to hang out with my bf.

I miss my friend she fucking hung herself and nothing is okay anymore and I just really miss her I love you Niamh forever and ever

I feel mentally tortured by my household. My physical needs are taken care of, but my emotional burdens remain. The yelling, the screaming, the nagging, the suppression of free will. I'm in my mid-20s, but why do I still get treated like I'm 14 years old? I'm just constantly living on edge, with an irrational fear of getting in trouble, of not meeting parental expectations. It's really eating into my life. I find no joy in life anymore. Everyday is routinely. Everyday is the same. I feel like I can't breathe. I feel suffocated. What else do I have to hold onto when my identity has literally been stripped away from me?

As soon as I realize that we're all broken and the world is broken, it sends me spiraling. I just wish someone who wasn't lying would tell me that it would all be alright and I wouldn't have to hurt anymore.

Have you ever loved someone so much that you pushed them away? This is happening to me. I have four suicidal friends whom I talk to daily at school, and I love them with all my heart. I want the best for them, and I want them to have a great life. They're all depressed,and they all tell me about it. I have no idea how to respond to any of it. I just try to be encouraging and lend a listening ear, but then at the same time, I hate to admit it, but they kind of scare me. What if I say the wrong thing, or I'm not encouraging enough? I can't let them feel hurt in some way that would cause them to hurt themselves or something. I love them all, and I don't want to say something wrong. I feel like I've put a subconscious barrier between me and talking about their problems with them. Not because I don't want to hear them, it's just because I don't know how to respond, and I don't want to say something wrong. I'm trying my best, but my best isn't good enough.

I just never feel confidence anymore my mother destroys my confidence and she’s toxic and she makes me feel useless and like trash and I cant do this anymore every time she says something that hurts me I don’t react anymore I’m so used to it

I'm very frustrated right now. My mom was going on about studying well, getting a good job, dreaming big and enjoying our life. I get it, so why did the parts that seem so specific that it sounds like venting have to be necessary?? Like I'm sorry my cousins aren't doing their part in helping the family, my dad being too generous to others that don't give back, or that other people we know just spend their money willy-nilly to unimportant things. I get that you don't want us to be like them but couldn't you have said that same message without making us your therapist or something. It's like 10 am, we're just trying to eat breakfast bro.

Sometimes i dislike being a people’s pleaser. I love seeing everyone else happy but what about what i want to do? I wanted to try something new today but i was convinced otherwise when i saw their reaction, look happy when i agreed to more commitment. I dont think they suggested anything bad, but i wish sometimes i could do something on my own choices.

My brother said he wished I were dead and I told him that I actually almost committed 10 months ago and he laughed at me and now I’m trying to isolate myself so I don’t hurt myself with anything.

I can't help but feel like I wish I had sex before meeting my wife. Losing her would kill me, but I still regret staying celibate until marriage and it makes me feel shitty.

Maybe once I am dead, I could feel that love others do. Maybe once I finally get rest, my dad will notice me for once. Things are hard right now, and I have been going through much. As of now, I have done drugs as a teenager. My grades suck... I suck. I rarely feel anything but sadness or just emptiness now. My parents only decided to get me help after I have been battling this feeling for years, nearly 3 now. My mum placed it down as anxiety, but I don't even think I could say anything at all. All those therapies people do is tell everything to your parents, but I might just spill everything, so I could get real help. Only people that seemed to really care for me is the cops who are in my town. They have comforted me and made sure I was okay whenever I came to them, something my parents have never done before. They only toss it aside since I cant be like this since I didnt have a childhood like theirs.

My dad gave me his credit card for an art festival and gets mad at me and says he's disappointed in me for spending money. I feel like absolute shit and I know my mom is going to hate me too and I'm just so scared all I can do is cry in my room. It's gotten to the point where I fantasize about falling down the stairs or hurting myself just to get attention from them that isn't complaining or them telling me how worthless I am.

I'm so tired. My parents keep traveling and finally taking their time off. I'm completely happy for them, but I feel like I'm just acknowledged as someone lower to them with not a lot of feelings. My mental health is worse, I'm tired and can barely get out of bed, and when I wake up early it's so I don't get shamed. I'm eating either less or more, and I can't catch a break. It feels like when I want to be home, I spend time from anywhere but home. My parents don't let me have a break. If I want one, I'm a lazy and spoiled asshole. I told my mom about my past mental health, and she brushed it off and said I used it as an excuse. If I want space, it's an argument. If I want to lash out, it's immediate punishment. I cry through my eyes. I bleed red. I use my words to speak. But it's different because I'm younger? I'm no different from you, I have to go through it at some point. I was simply born. I want to be liked. I want a name other than "fat" or "child". And why dismiss my comfort?

I crave validation so much it feels unhealthy. I post art hoping to see people comment, saying "It's so nice!!" Whenever I do get those, it feels good, but it makes me want more. I'm constantly checking my notifications to see if strangers online think I'm cool. I hate it so much. Now I can't even bring myself to feel motivated to post something, or do anything productive at all, but I still want praise. I hate myself so much.

I'm scared to come out to my parents as nonbinary. What if they hate me? What if they just tell me "Your a girl, don't label yourself as that." Or "why are you thinking about that? Focus on school." I don't feel safe talking to anyone about this because they'll just think I'm a burden. I hate being here, I wish I could just stop the pain. Now I just snap at my sister sometimes and feel so guilty. I've been thinking about dying everyday and I can't stop it- I even wrote goodbye notes. I don't know what to do.

Im so tired of everything going on. Im only a freshman in highschool and I just want to skip this whole highschool period. I want to move away and everything. I’m so tired of going to the lunch room and not eating anything but then also sitting with people who I thought they were my friends we came from the same middle school but they are just horrible to me. I always feel like I’m the problem and I need to make it up but ITS not me. ITS THEM. They need to grow up, not everything is funny. Not everything has to be about boys. You don’t need to point someone out calling them fine or chopped. LIKE SHUSH

I feel like shit for not being able to get things done ,I feel like shit for the fact that I'm here and having these thoughts ,I feel like shit cause I don't got any support fromy parents though they make it seem like that ,I feel like shit cause they all talk and can't act ,i feel like shit that I get to be blamed for something I can't do ,I feel like shit cause my life is in a rocky ground and I feel like shit cause rn I think my purpose is to die ,I feel like shit cause I believe that Jesus is my purpose and also believe that death is the thing for me ,I feel like shit because I bottle things up ,I feel like shit cause I can't talk to nobody about how I feel it's always a digital platform never my friends never my family ,I feel like shit cause I just have no one it's only me in my corner,I feel like shit I don't have patience ,I feel like shit cause this feels like the end and I want it all gone I want to lay peacefully and I'm sorry to God ,siblings, those who give less than 2 f's

I feel like my crush K doesn't like me back. Like, he is popular and I'm not, so I do NOT think he will like me back. He's nice to me, makes jokes around me, but I don't know. Honestly I need help.

It's another bad day . I can't get over the hurt that he put me through. All I want is for us to go back to how we used to be.. but then I think , I was obviously the only happy one...