All Rants

I fucked up, did something I wasn't supposed to do, made terrible fucking decisions so now Im just living with this fucking regret rn. I wanna kkill myself so badly bcs this guilt might actually eat me alive. IM not those type of people that can just brush it off. It fucking sucks this feeling sucks. Imma just get back to my drugs to escape this shitty ass feeling fuck all of this FUCK MAN FUCK. Why do i gotta be so shitty

Don't ask me a question as an accusation I can't respond to. I do not and have never killed the innocent. I kill and even spare the guilty. Anyone who refrences karma or karmic debt does not understand dharma or hinduism in general. You are are also guilty for trying and failing to accuse me. You don't need to fear me. You need to fear what is more powerful and less merciful than I am. I do not enjoy killing. I do not enjoy mercy. It is a specific implication of justice through cruelty, brutality, and loss that I enjoy. I don't need to kill for that. Those beneath me dare not accuse me. Krisha bows to me. Kali is my slave. I am not her slave. That is why destruction obeys me. I do not obey destruction.

I see people and shadows that aren't there and hear voices and bodies very and I feel people too dining me who aren't there and I'm scared so so so scared and no one believes me I feel like I'm gong insane and no one will listen or help I can't tell them to leave or run be chase your in mg head and when I close the eyes it like there really there.I just want someone to be live me but no one does and it hurts so much.it doesn't help that my mom called me a asshole earlier and stupid and clumsy and so many other things.the one who is supposed to live me unconditionally has so many conditions and all my friends are fake and I'm with a boy I don't even like and he didn't like me either and I just shana die sometimes and let the shadows and people take me away to there realm where I will no longer be seen or heard.no amount of therapy can fix me I am bound to my pitifully painfull sorrows as I deserve I am horrible and I accept it.I can kill myself because what if I'm stuff with the voices

What's something family expects of you that fe

I dont know who's reading this or if even anyone can see this. I just want to say i might kms soon. Im so tired of everything and i have nobody to live for. Crazy i might not see my highschool graduation.

I don’t want to take a shower. I’m so stinky and ew

My dad beat me up again. He found me watching porn and he beat me to pulp

I hate my parents. I genuinely hate them so much. They don't let me be a teenager. They don't let me show negative emotions without it blowing up and turning into a whole thing. I'm a junior taking AP and Honors Classes and am still supposed to be completely stress free and in bed by 10pm. My dad literally turns the wifi off at that time. I usually get home at 4ish, for context. 6 when I have martial arts. Leaves 4 to 6 hours to do my work. Its never enough. Especially with my mom wanting family time and dinner and all the extra shit I have to do around the house. My tipping point today was when my brother, under my mom's instruction, went into my room and made my bed with clean sheets. They weren't even dirty. He didn't even do it properly. HE DIDN'T FUCKING TUCK ANYTHING IN, ITS A MESS, THE PILLOWS ARE LUMPY AND I HATE IT AND NOW ITS 7:20 PM AND I'M TIRED AND I JUST GOT YELLED AT FOR BEING UPSET AND I HAVE TO REMAKE MY BED ON TOP OF AP HOMEWORK AND WRITING REFLECTIONS. I'm tired.

I don’t sleep I don’t shower I don’t go outside I rot in my room all day in front of the screen I’m pushing 30s and I still maintain multiple e-kittens I have no purpose and I waste my money on irrelevant things I don’t save, only waste

i got a new kitten recently who was born from a stray and i'm thinking that i might have to let him go. i've been crying so hard because i love him so much and he's so sweet but i'm too fucking depressed to take care of him the way that he needs to be taken care of. he doesn't deserve to have to be with someone who can't get out of bed to play with him or train him. i love him so much i don't want to never see him again but i can barely even take care of myself. i don't know why i thought i'd be able to do this. he's so precious and sweet and he licks my tears when i cry. i fucking hate my life depression is a disease

Tired of daily life. I get it, society has built its way and sometimes it’s just life, but I’m sick and tired of it. I feel like absolute trash, seeing others exceed so far, getting gifts, sponsors, being able to travel far. Wanted to put myself out there on streaming platform. Seeing my face, hearing my own voice, even i can't stand the thought of putting myself out there. I’m here with two retail, low-paying jobs and I can’t even keep my head afloat. I wanted to do a specific role for a convention that I volunteered for about three years. One time I ask for something different and get rejected instantly. I get it—I’ve got selfish demands that I barely ask for, but the one time I feel brave enough to reach out and ask, I get rejected. Constant rejections for better-paying jobs and such. Haven’t received anything nice, and I feel too trashy to buy myself anything nice because the moment I buy something for myself, I regret it. I don't want to die but I don't really want to live either.

I remember when I went to go see my uncle in the hospital after he almost died due to diabetes and yk I was sad but in the waiting room with my little cousin and my mom I saw this REALLY hot doctor looking at me and my type is like masculine women, feminine men, androgynous ppl, etc etc. and they were EXACTLY my type HO LEE SHET. now yk i couldn’t tell what was in their pants but i still wanna find out👀👀

I want to write a rant so I can make videos because rants always come up for me and I want to make one please it would be fun for me

i want to kill myself. i have no empathy inside of me. my partner says i make her feel sub-hmuan, but not in an abusive way and i dont know what im doing wrong. When I ask she says she shouldnt need to hold my hand and walk me through everything and I fucking agree man. I just dont know what the fuck im doing. Im not even a fucking human. The job market is fucking horrible. The only position I got accepted was an unpaid internship for 20 hours a week. What the fuck is my purpose. I have no future, I cant hold a relationship let alone connect with my partner, I am a failure to my parents and myself. I cant even get consoled by my partner, it doesn't feel right. I cant talk to my parents and I cant stress my sister out. I dont even have friends that would be willing to hear me out. I am a joke. Im going to kill my self soon. I hate my self.

I feel hated but not in a way that's obvious. It's hate disguised as love. I am so confused most of the time. I married but I always feel alone even when she's around. When I try to explain that something hurts my feelings she says " My life shouldn't always revolve around her" and that all I do is complain. I always feel like a bad person for simply having emotions

I can’t do this anymore honestly, it just gets worse as time passes, school’s hell for me, I hate what I study, I hate my classmates I hate my teachers, I hate people there, it’s just so toxic, people bullied me, I don’t want to return there, I’m trans, people calling me by my death name are killing me, it started like “fine I got this,” to a whole new level where it’s destroying me, I feel like everything it just useless at this point, every thread I desperately try to cling on breaks or isn’t strong enough to hold me, I’m sinking down, and probably, after 4 years, of going up and down, I’ll touch the deepest and darkest place, by touching the seabed.

i wish i could be love. i want to love someone and they love me too. i just can’t… love makes me feel weird

do I have friends? do I want friends?

I don't hate people, I just am pretty fucking frustrated and tired of everyone. It gets to a certain point where I just don't care and everyone is pushing that boundary so far back that I really don't give a fuck of anyone to the point where I just zone out in the midst of talking to someone. I mean I have good friends but its just popular girls and guys and a whole bunch of my family and my ex friends that really screwed me over.

what do you guys think happens when you die? i want to hear what you think. i mean IN FULL. i wanna know every stupid theory about while your dying when you die after or before you die. EVERYTHING. former it creep you guys out that one day we will all just die and never come back?!