All Rants

Trying to mock me does not change the truth. I read scripture. I have never been offered or prescribed psychological medications from doctors. The only "meds" I take are ones thay help my body heal when I am physically wounded. Beyond that- trying to mock the mentally ill says more about the vapid cruelty of the bully than it does about a mentally ill person who needs help or care of some kind.

I’m a virgin and I do not know how to do it

yep the christian bible was written by humans who said they had contact with the false christian god. It's not the christian god because the christian does not exist. I understand christianity perfectly. Much better than christians do. I've read the entire bible and I know the context. I know the history of christianity and I know that followers of christ are liars in the service of pure evil

My attention span is so bad and my mom hates me

my life is trash, its obvious my parents show favouritism to my sister, they said it themsellves than im useless and overshadowed i want to kms and never exist in this world its frustrating, i just want to leave everything behind.. even if i die my parents would probably think "oh shes just sensitive atleast she isnt here to drive the home crazy" like okay i know im not worthy enough to live, i just want to freaking die, my parents always find every way to blame me when i just exist trying to survive in this world, but i feel like giving up, im 15 already dealthing with having no friends, depression, social anxiety and im just socially insecure i dont know what to do anymore

Another disgusting and reviled christian called me "honey" here without my permission or consent. Thee christian god is absolutely not real. I have no disgust of the christian god because the christian god has never existed and never will. I was beaten as a child because of christans who chose to act upon the disgusting and unforgivable evil we all know as christianity. Beg your false god for forgiveness but you didn't didn't stave, beat, and try to kill your christian god when it was a child. You christans tortured me. You tried to kill me. Your god is not real but many more like me are real. We see christians for who you are and you are absolutely not forgiven "honey". We are everywhere and your pretend god cannot protect you from the just punishment you deserve for wounding and killing children like me. You christians wanted to kill us all but you made me stronger. You made me realize who christians are and the evil that followers of christ have worship. "honey"

HELP THE VOICES AND THE SHAWDOWS THEVE COME FOR ME IM SO SCAFED AND IM ALINE AND GOD HELPNME

matthew ch5 v17 Do not think that I have come to abolish the rules of the old covenant. I have not come to abolish them but to fulfill them. psalm 137 v9 Blessed is the one who grabs your little children and smashes them against a rock. jeremiah ch11 v22 god will kill the young men in war and starve their children to death. 1st samuel ch15 v3 god said, go and murder them totally destroy all that belongs to them. Do not have any mercy- murder men, women, children, babies, and cattle. matthew 10 vs 34 & 36 "Do not think that I have come to bring peace to the earth. I have not come to bring peace, but a sword. 1st timothy 2:12 I do not permit a woman to teach or to assume authority over a man- she must be quiet. luke ch14v26 If anyone comes to me and does not hate their own father, mother, wife, children, brothers and sisters, yes, even his own life, they cannot be my disciple.

I fucked up, did something I wasn't supposed to do, made terrible fucking decisions so now Im just living with this fucking regret rn. I wanna kkill myself so badly bcs this guilt might actually eat me alive. IM not those type of people that can just brush it off. It fucking sucks this feeling sucks. Imma just get back to my drugs to escape this shitty ass feeling fuck all of this FUCK MAN FUCK. Why do i gotta be so shitty

Don't ask me a question as an accusation I can't respond to. I do not and have never killed the innocent. I kill and even spare the guilty. Anyone who refrences karma or karmic debt does not understand dharma or hinduism in general. You are are also guilty for trying and failing to accuse me. You don't need to fear me. You need to fear what is more powerful and less merciful than I am. I do not enjoy killing. I do not enjoy mercy. It is a specific implication of justice through cruelty, brutality, and loss that I enjoy. I don't need to kill for that. Those beneath me dare not accuse me. Krisha bows to me. Kali is my slave. I am not her slave. That is why destruction obeys me. I do not obey destruction.

I see people and shadows that aren't there and hear voices and bodies very and I feel people too dining me who aren't there and I'm scared so so so scared and no one believes me I feel like I'm gong insane and no one will listen or help I can't tell them to leave or run be chase your in mg head and when I close the eyes it like there really there.I just want someone to be live me but no one does and it hurts so much.it doesn't help that my mom called me a asshole earlier and stupid and clumsy and so many other things.the one who is supposed to live me unconditionally has so many conditions and all my friends are fake and I'm with a boy I don't even like and he didn't like me either and I just shana die sometimes and let the shadows and people take me away to there realm where I will no longer be seen or heard.no amount of therapy can fix me I am bound to my pitifully painfull sorrows as I deserve I am horrible and I accept it.I can kill myself because what if I'm stuff with the voices

What's something family expects of you that fe

I dont know who's reading this or if even anyone can see this. I just want to say i might kms soon. Im so tired of everything and i have nobody to live for. Crazy i might not see my highschool graduation.

I don’t want to take a shower. I’m so stinky and ew

My dad beat me up again. He found me watching porn and he beat me to pulp

I hate my parents. I genuinely hate them so much. They don't let me be a teenager. They don't let me show negative emotions without it blowing up and turning into a whole thing. I'm a junior taking AP and Honors Classes and am still supposed to be completely stress free and in bed by 10pm. My dad literally turns the wifi off at that time. I usually get home at 4ish, for context. 6 when I have martial arts. Leaves 4 to 6 hours to do my work. Its never enough. Especially with my mom wanting family time and dinner and all the extra shit I have to do around the house. My tipping point today was when my brother, under my mom's instruction, went into my room and made my bed with clean sheets. They weren't even dirty. He didn't even do it properly. HE DIDN'T FUCKING TUCK ANYTHING IN, ITS A MESS, THE PILLOWS ARE LUMPY AND I HATE IT AND NOW ITS 7:20 PM AND I'M TIRED AND I JUST GOT YELLED AT FOR BEING UPSET AND I HAVE TO REMAKE MY BED ON TOP OF AP HOMEWORK AND WRITING REFLECTIONS. I'm tired.

I don’t sleep I don’t shower I don’t go outside I rot in my room all day in front of the screen I’m pushing 30s and I still maintain multiple e-kittens I have no purpose and I waste my money on irrelevant things I don’t save, only waste

i got a new kitten recently who was born from a stray and i'm thinking that i might have to let him go. i've been crying so hard because i love him so much and he's so sweet but i'm too fucking depressed to take care of him the way that he needs to be taken care of. he doesn't deserve to have to be with someone who can't get out of bed to play with him or train him. i love him so much i don't want to never see him again but i can barely even take care of myself. i don't know why i thought i'd be able to do this. he's so precious and sweet and he licks my tears when i cry. i fucking hate my life depression is a disease

Tired of daily life. I get it, society has built its way and sometimes it’s just life, but I’m sick and tired of it. I feel like absolute trash, seeing others exceed so far, getting gifts, sponsors, being able to travel far. Wanted to put myself out there on streaming platform. Seeing my face, hearing my own voice, even i can't stand the thought of putting myself out there. I’m here with two retail, low-paying jobs and I can’t even keep my head afloat. I wanted to do a specific role for a convention that I volunteered for about three years. One time I ask for something different and get rejected instantly. I get it—I’ve got selfish demands that I barely ask for, but the one time I feel brave enough to reach out and ask, I get rejected. Constant rejections for better-paying jobs and such. Haven’t received anything nice, and I feel too trashy to buy myself anything nice because the moment I buy something for myself, I regret it. I don't want to die but I don't really want to live either.

I remember when I went to go see my uncle in the hospital after he almost died due to diabetes and yk I was sad but in the waiting room with my little cousin and my mom I saw this REALLY hot doctor looking at me and my type is like masculine women, feminine men, androgynous ppl, etc etc. and they were EXACTLY my type HO LEE SHET. now yk i couldn’t tell what was in their pants but i still wanna find out👀👀