All Rants

i love summer js for the reason that there's no class, but i also hate it for the severe heat but more so; resetting my social skills. every time summer is over, my social skills hit rock bottom. it's like i forget how to interact w people. i don't rlly have siblings or friends or cousins that i hang out with over summer vacation so i just end up being a chud at home. it doesn't help that im also introverted and shy 💀 i mean social anxiety aside, i kinda just act awkward on a normal basis so it js is kind of in my system ig. it js makes it hard to talk to ppl...

I kinda wish that kids didn't spend their money on merchandise and shitty streamers/youtubers. Like, the reason why these zoomers are "cooked" is because they are evil, cruel, thoughtless, and spoiled.

im not a christian anymore nor a satanist but something about black metal brings me joy even if its evil. i recommend pissgrave

“In vain you beg, in vain you ache, in vain you’ve opened your wrecked heart wide. Perhaps in heaven the rainclouds quake because we both have cried? This pain of ours is without a wing. The fainthearted cry can never fly. Weep and pray! What god is coming by the path of the stars up high? Abandon yourself to the dust and upon it fall in surrender. Our great mother is ever so just to every sinner who kisses her. Within a Hell of godless emptiness submit yourself ever more to sleep’s spell. All is a dream, all is nothingness: the flower of the world is the asphodel. (Trans. Michael Shindler)” ― Gabriele D'Annunzio

Why are black people violently racist towards Asian people?

I’m exhausted. Chronically ill and just medicating early and feeling alone. I’m…so tired of being isolated when I just have to stay home (my immune system is Not Happy about me going outside. Long!COVID sucks.) I used to have dreams but they feel so foggy now that I’m bedbound. Idk I just want a hug now + folk to just See Me as worthy of friendship instead of pitying me

my mom might have a tumor and i don't want her to

bro DO YOU EVERY FEel like shit just hits the fan and there is no stopping stuff and all you want to do is just curl up and cry.. cuz thats all i wanna do

So if my upstairs neighbors can be quiet when babysit a baby, WHY TF CAN'T THEY BE QUIET FOR ME!!!!?????? And why TF do they stomp thump, jump me out of bed and act like a herd of elephants. Yes I get they're miserable people and don't have the sense a goose has. But this absolutely nonsense. I wanna throw fuckin rocks through their windows smh. Their all a bunch of fuckin bitches who live up there it's why you can't talk to them. The stomping seems on purpose because the one was still doing it after another went to work. I shouldn't have to be put through this I'm so over it. 😡😡😡😡😡

I visited my sister last week. She dumped two heavy mental issues on me. First…she told one of her friends my financial situation & how she took me on a trip (which I paid my flight & food), my sister claimed to have lost said friend because they felt if a person is on disability they shouldn’t be able to go on trips. Gifts or won or saved up for. I’m pissed my sister told my business so freely. It was supposed to make her look good but seemed to back fire. Second… we had an uncle that was terminally ill, he & I hadn’t talked in many years. He wrote to me (I never received it). Apparently he was asking me to forgive him, of what I had to guess. I forgave him for what I thought divided us, I was wrong on that. My sister told me he wanted forgiveness for being a racist (I have a biracial daughter). If I had known that was what he was wanting idk if I would’ve handed over so easily. I feel he should’ve asked my daughter for it too. But why did my sister tell me all this?

i hst the fact i dont have money man

I wish I could be a supportive friend. But every time my rich friend tells me he's worried about money, I get this weird feeling that I've never had with anyone before. It's like frustration and anger and envy and it actually makes me feel dizzy, everything starts spinning. I don't think he's doing it to wind me up. I tell him that £100k is a lot of money, and he seems surprised by that. But then he tells me that his dad is giving him several more thousand and I feel like my head is going to explode. You're seriously telling me that your dad is GIVING you that much for nothing, and you're worried about money? I hate to be one of those "others have it worse" people but come on! He's telling all this to someone who makes less than £10k a year. He knows this. I've had to tell him that it's better for him to discuss this issue with his richer friends, but he still tries to talk to me about it. I cannot empathise or sympathise. I wish I had that much money.

and for my final act of love ill make you hate me ill distance myself so when i finally kill myself you wont care as much

once people get close to me i try and distance myself, because no matter what i always expect them to leave and i dont want to get attached. this makes my relationship with my girlfriend difficult. i honestly just dont want to get left behind again

I feel really like alone I don’t know if I am just a weird person or something like today my dad was wearing just some underwear and I had this anxiety or bumping my knee or hand on his dih and nudged my knee a little and I’m convincing myself I touched him but also didn’t he didn’t say anything after so I’m confused same thing with my brother little brother and my mom I keep panicking with so much shame and fear after to the point I feel like throwing up

My father is an abusive monster who has tormented my mother for as long as I've been alive. My mother has been given a unique opportunity to leave him and start over, but she has a history of going back to him, and I'm worried shes going to waste this chance. My other family members are worried abt this too, but the way they express it makes me really anxious and lowkey suicidal. I dont know what to do because my go to coping mechanism is to clam up and cry. I feel so alone because everyone makes my problems abouts them and how they feel so I dont open up to anyone anymore

I used to like this guy since start of middle school, in high school I finally moved on but he said he used to also like me which lowk made me feel better for my old self. For some odd reason he now acts weird asf like on and off friend, he stops being my friend then he texts me again like wtf are you doing, we haven't talked for MONTHS and guess what, he texted me yesterday and then posted a video with a text/lyrics that said something like "I always will comeback/remember even when there's wrinkles on my forehead" it could be just a coincidence but ngl im weirded the fuck out, I didn't open the message cuz i dont want anything to do with him

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I’ve been homeless before and the way people think of homeless people is lowk funny as shit bc of the stereotypes iykwim

I have a cute puppy, we got her when she was really small and I've grown so attached and I love her so much, but my family's giving her away to a couple, they have the space and time she needs but I dont want to give her up this always happens we get a puppy and when they're bigger and harder to manage we just give them away, the new owners will still send us pictures and stuff and she'll go travel with them but, I should feel happy for her but im really gonna miss her, and I don't want to say goodbye she was my baby :(