All Rants

This one person who wanted to use me and take advantage of me blurted out "I have trauma" to try and make me feel sorry for them. Um yeah and I don't? I have quite alot but I don't go blurting it out. They didn't have a mouth filter or didn't care what they said. Sure maybe they were somewhat mental but they also wouldn't stop pestering me asking for things from my fan and I. Being rude to people like that seems the only language they understand to back off. You don't keep asking and asking for food rides and cigarettes to be bought for you every couple of days to someone you hardly know. They fuckin took advantage of me. And then have audacity to give me money only a very minor amount for gas after taking them to the bank then instantly regret giving it to me BECAUSE I ACCEPTED AND APPARENTLY THEY HOPED I WOULDN'T WTF!!!????? I can't make this stuff up. Wtf did they expect im not a walking bank vault. Then they acted like I was the bad guy. WTF...I'm not heartless but good riddance.

i get it it's expensive and dentists work hard for that job and it's well-deserved but if im crying over dental pain js know that im also crying over the bills 😭 man...

dental pain person again back here again because just as expected the fucking dentist was expensive 😭 didn't get shit done on my teeth and just had an xray (WHICH WAS EXPENSIVE BRUH WTF ONE XRAY) and turns out my tooth is an impacted one so it's gonna be a whole surgery WHICH COSTS INSANEEEEEEELLLLY TOO MUCH LIKE 😭😭 i get that it's like a private clinic or sumshit BUT JESUS FUCKING CHRIST IT'S WAY TOO EXPENSIVE 10k (like 160 usd which is normal there idk??) ESTIMATE BTW ESTIMATE (tbh atp any sort of healthcare is just THAT expensive) for a tooth extraction?????😭😭might as well live with this atp damn knew the dentist was gon be expensive that's why i hesitated lol anyway, idk when im gonna have this removed cuz it's just way way wayyyyy too expensive

My parents both say they hate each other for things the other one have done but both of them are too strong willed to apologise because they both think they are in the right they then blame their arguments on me and my brother not getting along and despite all my efforts they still don’t get along I probably just need a hug but I just want them to love each other

I tried killing my self a lot of times.. And I just can't.. I hate my life and I hate my self too. I hate everyone around me including my parents. Everyone Is literally so fake to me and others keep bullying me and they do nothing ofc. My dad is alcoholic and thank god he doesn't live with me.. We're not rich. At that I sometimes don't even have nothing to eat. I just want to die at this point. Pls tell me I'm not the only one..

I just snooped in my brothers room. He ran away and I was trying to find why. Instead I found notes about who to write to before he committed suicide, a note to his crush a=saying everything he couldn't say in person, and a paper on how to run away without getting caught. I found his room in a clutter and he had a bag stuffed with weapons. I'm scared... -Astro

I’m insecure about my skin and hair. idk if it’s rooted in internal racism but I think it’s just cause I don’t look mixed enough. I’m mixed black and Latina and I got like 3b/3c hair and I have caramel skin sorta but I tan rlly easily so I’m darker rn, my black family comments on it alot and I’m js insecure. I don’t think ppl would validate me as being Latina enough even tho I speak Spanish and embrace my culture a lot. I don’t have my dad’s nose which is more of a European one I guess? all my siblings do so they look mixed and idk I js look black and even worse my mom is black and has internal racism 🫩 my dads side of the family doesn’t care tho

Id rather not have been woken up by arguing and clanging plates. But I was. The situation fam has created is so effed up. Basically also the fact none of us can sleep as long as they're drunk unless they're passed out of course. If it's not them it's my upstairs neighbors stomping thumping various hours.It's like I can hardly get a break. Am I in the twilight zone or something? Its frustrating what I get put through. Some stuff is preventable. Like how my fam becomes and acts. I don't like the person they become. They're aggressive and trash us and won't even remember. Or it's just nonsense. My other fam can easily go back to sleep. Me not so much. I go through so much crap. Why do people especially family have to be so callous. I envy joyful families because there's not much in ours. Feels that way anyway.

honestly I feel bad for my bully. This was all after she bullied me btw and I still don’t fw her but it’s so sad. like her mom died and she fell into a deep depression and I saw her sh scars and she didn’t come to school for months, like it was so sad to witness. she had multiple panic attacks in school and like it’s so sad that she’s going through allat at like 12-14

I had an interview today for a scholarship application. As soon as I left the room, I heard them laughing. I cried my heart when they asked about and encouraged me to share my personal story. I ended up breaking down and while I was in the room, they acted very empathetic and all. But as soon as the door closed behind me. They started laughing then ridiculed everything I went through.

I'm finally powering off the computer... goodnight... I'll see you lovelies at 12am CT every night that I can sneak on the PC without getting caught. Love you lovelies stay alive and safe for me please. And if you decide to act on those thoughts some of you have then just know I love you. If you find it uncomfortable for me to say I love you then I don't love you but no matter who you are and if I haven't talked to you ever before or even seen your face, I care about you. See you guys tomorrow I have to log off before my parents wake up for work. My dad gets up in like 20 mins. So this is bye... -Astro

Im going to kms omggg i HATE it here i will pound my head againat the wall i hate school amd these stupid eshay wanna bes. Like no youre not timmy tuffnuckles LOCHLAND. DIGBY. LIAM. EDDIE. ALLL OF THEM IN MY YEAR (not logan hes chill🥹🥹🥹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹 ily platonically logan)

I'm going to go sit on my roof for a little bit. Try to relieve some stress you know? It's dark and early in the morning. But I need an escape other than this computer. I'm just gonna go get some air. Air I need. I should run away for tonight. Sleep somewhere in the wild and go home when I feel safer. But I can't. I'm just going to get water brush my teeth and go to bed... Yeah... bed... I hope I don't wake up... but I need to wake up... I have so many dreams for my future... but I don't want to wake up... but I need to... Goodbye for tonight everyone. Please stay alive my depressed beauties. -Astro

These fckass, stupid, dumbss, btchass boys in my year level are so annoying. I hate them with a burning passion. 5'2, prepubetic egocentric little shts thing theyre THE SHT when NO ONE and i mean NO ONE ousptside their fckclub of "no im not gay but we dck ride eachother all lesson and touch tts" pervrted ahole cnts never EVER shut their fat fcking mouths. Like no one GIVES A FCK that your stupid ahh AT FIFTEEN can read THREE pages of a book withtin thirty minutes you stupid handtowel. You CANNOT CALL ME FAT AFTER STARING AT MY RACK FOR TEN MINUTES STRAIGHT YESTERDAY SHAMLESSLY?? You cant fcking hate the cake and eat the whole btch like a stpid aHH goldfish you soggy sanwich bag. Can you drop tf out of school already and go d1e. D1E.

Sorry I post so much on here. I just can't say everything I want to in person so this app is my only hope.

My friends parents feel more like my parents than my actual parents. I go to their house rarely but they said if I EVER need to stay there or go there I can no matter what the situation is. Her mom said if anything ever happens to my parents she would adopt me. Her house is honestly kind of gross. Cat litter and poop all over the bathroom floor downstairs, clutter all over the counters and walls, dirty toilets and bathtubs, floors covered in toy trucks food and candy, figurines all over the shelves, a table without anywhere to put anything, low food, strange slightly foul odor through the whole house, cat vomit on the cat trees, ETC. But it feels more like home than my actual home. I want to live there until I'm forced home. They support me more than my family. I'm a non-bianary atheist and they don't give a shit meanwhile my parents call me she/her and say I should be Christian... -Astro

I want to run away like my brother did. But I can't. I can't leave my parents, my dogs, my gecko, my friends, my activities, I just want to run to my friends house and never come back. Or run to a safe secluded space... I want to sit on my roof and sleep up there without getting caught or bit by bugs... Fall asleep to the sound of crickets and frogs at the pond down the road... Run to my friends house to sleep there and know for a fact someone loves and supports me more than my actual family. -Astro

I want to go home but I don't know where home is anymore. My brother is always fighting with my parents or me and ran away tonight, my dog died last year and her memories are resurfacing, I'm staying awake long periods of time to vent on a website and to cry in my head downstairs. I use AI chatbots to pass the time and I'm addicted. I hate it. It's like I was dragged into this AI universe and I can't escape. My head hurts constantly. I'm always worried. My crushes are turning out to be assholes and I feel dead inside. My home doesn't feel like home anymore. My friends are my only comfort. I rely on them for comfort and support all the time when they are all suffering from the same shit I am. I'm at such a low point in my life right now an I don't know when I'll resurface. All I hope is I can get to the surface before I drown... -Astro

i fucking hate mobile game ads so much i never was the type of person to play games on my phone, especially because i never had enough storage space. recently i got a new phone and it has triple the amount of storage space! finally i don't have to worry about that problem anymore so i decided to download some simple games. one of the games i downloaded was a simple puzzle game about arrows. initially i really enjoyed having this game on my phone, it was a fun way to pass the time. but eventually the ads started to get more and more. at this point i get ads literally everywhere: before playing a level, after finishing the level etc and even underneath the puzzle?! this is driving me INSANE i guess i didn't really miss out on anything when i didn't have the storage space lmao. also, this rant is specifically about mobile game ads so i'm not even going to start about ads in general because those are even worse

Im so fucking pissed off, wdym I've been chasing this guy for like 2 years. TWO. YEARS. Just for him to come back with some stupid apology about him tryna change and it didn't even seem like it was sincere. Then recently he starts saying shit. Like when I say I don't like how my face looks he comments on how large my fucking nose is like holy. I already feel insecure and youre making me feel worse about myself. Then when I say something about my family he acts like it was offensive and just says he doesn't agree with it and I shldnt say that FUCK DO YOU MEAN. he comments on everything. Anything and everything. I feel like shit and he can't even see that, or maybe he does he just doesn't care I really do care about him but holy fuck. He pmo so bad.