All Rants

idk how my mom doesnt know how shitty she really treats me. it fucking sucks so bad. btw i guess this vent will be really mixed because ive never really done anything like this before. ahem anyways. my birthday was simple. it was just at my house, i only invited 3 people. my best best best best best friends. i didnt even want to celebrate but my mom yelled at me and shit so yeah i did it anyways. friend 1 was too lazy to tell her mom and stuff (she told me herself that she was lazy). friend 2 had appendecitis or howver u spell it. friend 3 DID come but she was 3 hours late. it was fun i guess. anyways my mom is verbally abusive. she sometimes hits me. also i probably shouldnt say this but i just started middle school. i just know im gonna fail.

I use language in conversation every day. It's a waste of my time. It's like talking to farm animals. There is no value in speaking with the uneducated. They are not my peers or equals. Yes they are amazed at what I know and what I can do but I don't try to impress my front door every morning when I leave for work. You are a part of the world to be used like my front door. You are a human but you are not a person.

my mom is nosy af and cannot let me handle my own life. without my permission, she went on my phone and installed a bunch of shitty apps. i cant do anything on it now, and ive lost my friends who lived in my old town because of this. whats the point of an phone if i cant call, text, or write anything on it?

I don't have to ask for permission to break your bones. You have no rights. You have no courage or worth. You are just miserable and offended. To pretend that you have any right to respect is ridiculous especially when we all know your trashy behavior. You can get all the degrees you'd like but collecting false paperwork from the "ivy leauge" diploma mills doesn't make you worthy of consideration.

It's my birthday but my best friend is sick puking her guts out and no one else RSVP'd to my party so I am just gonna get really fuckin high.

Just checked the news again. Why do I do this to myself? Every day, something happens, and it's usually not good. Groups are oppressed. The earth is decaying. People are dying for no good reason. Have humans always been like this? Constantly destroying each other in every possible way? We are animals. Beasts unable to resist desire. We tear at our own flesh and minds, we tear at the flesh of others. Yet we consider ourselves "more civilised" than the so-called "lesser creatures" we share the planet with. Creatures unburdened by the mind we gave ourselves. We are fools. We have no civility. We are simply wild animals with highly destructive weapons. What is even the point of gaining wealth or power, what's the point of stealing such things? It won't matter what you have anyway. The cold, uncaring space we're surrounded by will annihilate us all the same. Why do anything at all?

People try to think they are different but the same pathetic tribalism has polluted them. They are clones of failure. The worst part is- that is what they chose for themselves.

now that the worst possible outcome has come to pass everything seems...pointless, you could spend years of effort, time and money and walk away with nothing, makes me wonder what's the bother anymore

Son of a b. How is it acceptable for my noisy upstairs neighbors to be quiet as a mouse as long as they're keeping a baby up there babysitting or whatever. Then once they're gone they start up like it's the wwe wrestling ring or something. How tf would they like that on their ceiling. If it's not like a creaking ship it's thumpimg or stomping. At this point I really don't have words because it's really just wicked to be that way ON PURPOSE. It used to be for like 3 or 4 months in a row st least EVERY MORNING the loudest ass creaks whenever they got out of bed. That stopped and changed to thumping so I know it was on purpose. Why? Idk they're the ones who started shit with us in the first place fucking bitches. My feelings are valid because I've done nothing to these immature ass bunch. Family of course won't defend my feelings because it doesn't affect them. They have to be the shittiest people around here. At least that's how they act. And that's exactly why they don't have a partner.

Ive been feeling really sad these couple of days. i feel lonely even tho im not entirely lonely. i do have my s/o. but i barely have any friends. recently it seemed like i was starting to actually make new friends online, but i've been seeing their not as active, and i only actually see them more active when im not online. its starting to get under my skin. there's this person that's becoming my best friend, but now they've been less and less responsive. its like they're forgetting about me. i feel conflicted bcuz they will text me "hiiiiii" everyday, and i would say hiiiiiii back and try a have conversation with them, but it doesn't seem like their really engaging. it doesn't help that i get nervous when trying to make new friends too.

i didnt make my school sports team for the second time and im just so annoyed because im a good player and not to be arrogant but the truth is i play better than half the people that did make the team but i had one bad day and the team captain used that as an excuse to not put me on (the team captain doesn't like me btw because when they would make fun of me and tell me i had to clean everything up because i was a year younger i stood up for myself and made it clear that everyone as a team should clean up.) they're also the ones telling the coach who to not put on the team and i'm sure i didn't get on because they told the coach not to. also all of their friends made it and they absolutely fucking suck. someone please help me or give me advice. should i go to the school sports councilor and complain??

My fam is a effing idiot. Do they want to overdose? They don't know when to quit on top of being aggressive and not backing down. When they're not passed out. They're almost beyond our control they won't listen to anybody it's the do it or die attitude. What if thats just what happens though? They can't control themselves when it comes to this and we can't control them either. They wont seek rehab. My other fam is highly pissed at them. Not even yelling and telling them to back off harassing them helps. Idk they're kind of pushing their luck on a cocktail of stuff hollering more more more and becomes like an aggressive gorilla if they're refused. Idk it's a special kind of insanity that affects us all because of their behavior. Wtf. We don't know how much they've had. And when it's not that and they're near sober I'm affected by them because they run out and want my own effing meds because they can't control themselves to start with and abuse all their own in a week or so. It's idiocy.

All I want to be, deep down, is free. I want to leave, run away and never look back. I’ll find what I’ve missing for all this time, It’ll be wonderful. I’ll do it someday, maybe when I’m not held back.

Someone help me I feel like I’m drowning.

My bff has a guy she likes and plans to date but she set me up with him first. I then found out she was flirting with him while she set us up and I know I don’t like him like that but it has kind of pissed me off. I feel like she just used me. And now she keeps talking about him and I feel really awkward about it and it makes me annoyed all the time. I don't know what to do about it though.

So I met this guy around 2 years ago, came across as charming, charismatic, confident and he seemed extremely interested at first. Thats where the love bombing started. I also need to mention that he met me at a point where I’d just turned 18 and rebelled from my toxic household I was living in with my parents. At first he made me feel welcome, made me feel safe, made me feel like I was special to him. Then came the humilating. He’d humiliate me, talk about our sex life to his mates as if I was some slut he’d found on the street right in front of my face. If i did anything that upset him, he’d give me the silent treatment, refusing to talk to me for days, even weeks. Then he’d come back eventually and say something along the lines of ‘had a rlly chaotic week, your the first person I messaged’ etc. Throughout our relationship I got addicted to cocaine as he was a frequent user and me being the girl that had turned 18 looking for an escape from her toxic household, i went down the route

I cried in front of my mom by accident today and got called a child. She asked me what was wrong and I said I don't know I just feel like crying, which isn't true. Ever since school started everyday has felt like a bad day. Today I got called fat, mocked for my interests, and got my stuff searched. With everything else happening, I couldn't take it so I started crying. I've cried way too much today my eyes sting a bit. Even the smallest things can get added on to even bigger things I guess

Sometimes I wish I could've just chose one problem to deal with but instead I'm stuck being mentally broken in every way. Oh how I hate myself.

My dad is a pathetic excuse of a human being. He makes weird noises and kisses my 7 year old sister uncontrollably even tho she doesn’t like it at all. He never ever stops and when I mean weird noises I MEAN MOANS WHIMPERS AND THAT SHIT. I swear to god he’s also the most fucknig ugly men I’ve ever seen like how the actual flying FUCK did my mom go like “oh yeh im gonna f with him for a kid who’ll probably look like shi” HES WEIRD ASF!!! Plus he’s racist, homophobic, hates all religion m, and like the Asian race superimnist (might as well join the Asian kkk) He also somewhat loves and I mean LOVE ANIME AND JAPAN (cannot see the sexualization in media AT ALL) (likes the very short skirts of the school girls- mind you MINORS) I DONT WANNA LIVE WIH THIS FLESHBAG for 5 more years (till 18)I swear to god I hope I die or him.

I have this friend I’ve been close to ever since 6th grade. They’ve been getting on my nerves recently. All they do is complain about their home life, and their college life, and just everything in their life atp. It’s exhausting when all they talk about is how much they hate their roommate in their dorm even though they don’t interact and how much they hate their family for even making a single passive comment about what they wear. I’m not trying to sound insensitive about how they feel but your life cannot be that bad that everyday you’re venting about being wronged by people. It’s getting to a point where I don’t even want to hang out with them because all they do is complain about people or argue that you don’t get what they are talking about. It’s absurd how much negativity they can channel within a single hangout, it gets to a point that when we are out as a group we talk about them privately in a separate gc cause we are walking on eggshells to try and accommodate them.