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My bff has a guy she likes and plans to date but she set me up with him first. I then found out she was flirting with him while she set us up and I know I don’t like him like that but it has kind of pissed me off. I feel like she just used me. And now she keeps talking about him and I feel really awkward about it and it makes me annoyed all the time. I don't know what to do about it though.

So I met this guy around 2 years ago, came across as charming, charismatic, confident and he seemed extremely interested at first. Thats where the love bombing started. I also need to mention that he met me at a point where I’d just turned 18 and rebelled from my toxic household I was living in with my parents. At first he made me feel welcome, made me feel safe, made me feel like I was special to him. Then came the humilating. He’d humiliate me, talk about our sex life to his mates as if I was some slut he’d found on the street right in front of my face. If i did anything that upset him, he’d give me the silent treatment, refusing to talk to me for days, even weeks. Then he’d come back eventually and say something along the lines of ‘had a rlly chaotic week, your the first person I messaged’ etc. Throughout our relationship I got addicted to cocaine as he was a frequent user and me being the girl that had turned 18 looking for an escape from her toxic household, i went down the route

I cried in front of my mom by accident today and got called a child. She asked me what was wrong and I said I don't know I just feel like crying, which isn't true. Ever since school started everyday has felt like a bad day. Today I got called fat, mocked for my interests, and got my stuff searched. With everything else happening, I couldn't take it so I started crying. I've cried way too much today my eyes sting a bit. Even the smallest things can get added on to even bigger things I guess

Sometimes I wish I could've just chose one problem to deal with but instead I'm stuck being mentally broken in every way. Oh how I hate myself.

My dad is a pathetic excuse of a human being. He makes weird noises and kisses my 7 year old sister uncontrollably even tho she doesn’t like it at all. He never ever stops and when I mean weird noises I MEAN MOANS WHIMPERS AND THAT SHIT. I swear to god he’s also the most fucknig ugly men I’ve ever seen like how the actual flying FUCK did my mom go like “oh yeh im gonna f with him for a kid who’ll probably look like shi” HES WEIRD ASF!!! Plus he’s racist, homophobic, hates all religion m, and like the Asian race superimnist (might as well join the Asian kkk) He also somewhat loves and I mean LOVE ANIME AND JAPAN (cannot see the sexualization in media AT ALL) (likes the very short skirts of the school girls- mind you MINORS) I DONT WANNA LIVE WIH THIS FLESHBAG for 5 more years (till 18)I swear to god I hope I die or him.

I have this friend I’ve been close to ever since 6th grade. They’ve been getting on my nerves recently. All they do is complain about their home life, and their college life, and just everything in their life atp. It’s exhausting when all they talk about is how much they hate their roommate in their dorm even though they don’t interact and how much they hate their family for even making a single passive comment about what they wear. I’m not trying to sound insensitive about how they feel but your life cannot be that bad that everyday you’re venting about being wronged by people. It’s getting to a point where I don’t even want to hang out with them because all they do is complain about people or argue that you don’t get what they are talking about. It’s absurd how much negativity they can channel within a single hangout, it gets to a point that when we are out as a group we talk about them privately in a separate gc cause we are walking on eggshells to try and accommodate them.

Told my bsf i chipped my front teeth again after getting it fixed 2 weeks ago and I said to her how scared I am to tell my mom and all of that, her response was like reacting to a joke "Damnnn thats insane and school is about to start too" and few mins later she just starts sending me tiktoks all in good mood, ok dont get me wrong I understand I'm also not good at comforting and I didn't need her to write paragraphs or something but atleast not just start sending videos that have no relation while im clearly upset, i love her ofc, but sometimes i just feel so unheard idk

If you wanna know how being stalked feels like bc a lot of people want that for some reason, imo it’s like you never have privacy and you’re constantly being watched, like you’re going to hate it. they’re gonna know everything and they’re not gonna do like cute shit like in the movies, it’s gonna be REALLY weird and invasive. I’m like really paranoid and I have to constantly hide shit. it’s js gonna be a nightmare maybe a secret admirer would be better?

okay so yeah don’t post ur fave as a minor cus now I got a bunch of freaky old men in my DMs and following me GULP. blocking them but yeah I forget there’s actually people like that👀👀

hello conejo here in Provo Utah being targeted by Jews + feds + corporate leftists + freemasons + satanists please help man i shared way more than i usually share about my trauma + PTSD with a new buddy iwas tryin make im man + i did not naturally share its true i got some brain damage too + i got fucked over by therapy + they forced me open up when i originally did not want to i do not normally more of the time overshare like this they doin somethin to me New Perspectives Programme based in Orem Utah but have been living in Provo since early June this year they tryin destroy + i dont deserve this man + i just need a fresh start :) #conejo #newperspectives #newperspectivesutah #provo # orem #utah #programmes #autism #targeting #man #help #justice #truth

What's a daily frustration that seems small but keeps building up? I have to go out of my way to avoid certain people. Fam are like land mines or geysers never know when they will blow. Fam are too hard headed. I get called crazy despite the family being dysfunctional itself. Neighbors won't attempt to make things right they'd rather report report report because they had an issue with fams smoking despite us seeing them puffing on a vape now they try to hide it. And tbh I think their kid was smoking in their place while the parent was at work blaming us and or vaping. Because we saw 2 lighters thrown outside my fams window. Yet we got blamed for smoking and they puff puff puff vape and got my fam chewed out near evicted us. There are 2 more units in this place people smoke, smoke weed (I smell odor yet I'm not a snitch like little miss put on a good image face for the community on social media yet they're hellish obnoxious neighbors aka a hypocrite). I don't deserve this shit.

I recently had to let go of something that I realized wasn't helping me and wasn't good for me. When I finally released it, I felt relief, but there are moments when the hurt comes back..... I don't want to think about it and there are many times where I don't....in those moments there's a special kind of joy that overcomes me.... but sometimes there are things that I see that reminds me of it😔 so then I get reminded of everything I had to go through.... and how there wasn't any real closure.... I just want to get over it!!! I don't want to care!!! I think about the lessons I've learned from such a horrible experience to try to soothe myself, but then an anger appears because I feel like I want Justice I want them to acknowledge the hurt that they cause instead of just not caring.... what they represent is not who they are and it's hard to just walk away and not have the world see what I saw and what I experienced😭😭😭 I just want this hurt to go away, I hate that I care!!😭😭

Is it so wrong to want to live in peace with people? Everybody around me almost are salty snobby and hateful as can be. Family cant have peace they gotta throw a hella drunk. Neighbors turn the opposite way seeing me earlier. I can't help fam are fighting because they're on the verge of overdosing and won't back off n take no for an answer. Then there's karen above us who hates us by starting shit without trying to resolve it. And their kid acts just like them babyish immature as can be. And I'm in the middle of it all AND I BOTHER NOBODY!!!!!!!!! I get hated without cause. Why is my life like this? I miss actually having people who cared about me. Sure fam minorly does and doggo does of course and I know God does. But I get put in the worst situations I'm not even responsible for and fam wont attempt to clean their own issues up instead I suffer for them. Ain't it great 😃👍. Nah🥴😔🥺😑😐😶😟😥

I feel like I'm just being dramatic, I don't have much words to describe what I feel because everything is scattered at this point. I hate being in my family, not that I'm not greatful, they provide a roof over my head, and food on the table thats enough to fill my stomach. But theres one thing lacking and I can never build the courage to complain about it because, how dare I? I guess, and it's about mental health. One time I went into an argument with my parents and slipped the thought of me wanting to off myself, I never got an "Are you okay?", it didn't feel like they were concerned about what I was going through, and they also just said it's because I didn't get what I wanted, that thing I wanted was to transfer schools because I was uncomfortable in my current one to the point I've began to slowly lose motivation, and is damaging my mh. They don't care, they never will do they? they will continue to ignore it will they. do I have to die first for them to understand?

Today's my birthday. I wonder if you're thinking of me. Wonder if you're thinking about messaging me, if you're wondering if I'd say thank you. Maybe we could catch up on what's been happening in our lives. We don't talk anymore but I think it's better. I'm not sure I could handle it if we did. I ache. Almost constantly now. It's only been a few months. The ache isn't as painful as it is empty. I long for your warmth again. I am always so cold. I want to fall asleep in your arms again, to smell your perfume. My thoughts recently : Life is a series of opening and closing doors. I prefer to keep my door open for people, should they wish to return. I know some people don't deserve it, but seeing the good in people has always been a flaw of mine. I hope someday I'll see you standing in that doorframe. I hope you've left something in my life to come back for.

14 days clean :). I'm so excited for school, its in two days

I'm so scared. I'm being threatened by a terrible person (they might have changed but their actions towards me arent forgiven yet). They hurt me significantly and admitted to it but they think they deserve what they have which is the power of admin and they want to kick me. I defended myself but they didn't read it and people started writing new messages. I don't want to continue this drama and I want to keep the mood up since the group was meant for good vibes but my residence in the community is being threatened. What do I do? :(

My boyfriend and I have been dating for a while. I love him so much, more than anyone else in the world. And the idea of him with someone else really makes me so angry and sad. He means so much to me. We're gay, two guys who love each other, but I'm a trans man and he's cis. He's the bottom and im the top so it's really difficult for me to please him in the way he really wishes. I'm trying to find a prosthetic that works for me, but I don't know if it's ever going to be enough for him. He wants to give blowiobs and handjobs and I just can't give him that in the way he wishes. And i want nothing more than that, I would do anything to have a penis but it's not attainable for me right now, it's such an intense surgery and it's a very big decision impacting my overall hormonal health too. We love each other so much for who we are but the sex is putting a big strain on our relationship. I just hope I can find an attachment that's close enough, and enough for him, and enough for me

Im so glad I didn't kill myself when I almost did. Things do get better

I think I kept a memory suppressed. And I think I was sexually assaulted when I was younger by my step brother. The thing is, I don't think they remember. And I love them. Not like that. But as my actual brothers. And I forgive them if they ever remembered because I think they were sexually assaulted too. I have no one to tell this to. And I will never tell anyone about this. No one