All Rants

What's a daily frustration that seems small but keeps building up? I have to go out of my way to avoid certain people. Fam are like land mines or geysers never know when they will blow. Fam are too hard headed. I get called crazy despite the family being dysfunctional itself. Neighbors won't attempt to make things right they'd rather report report report because they had an issue with fams smoking despite us seeing them puffing on a vape now they try to hide it. And tbh I think their kid was smoking in their place while the parent was at work blaming us and or vaping. Because we saw 2 lighters thrown outside my fams window. Yet we got blamed for smoking and they puff puff puff vape and got my fam chewed out near evicted us. There are 2 more units in this place people smoke, smoke weed (I smell odor yet I'm not a snitch like little miss put on a good image face for the community on social media yet they're hellish obnoxious neighbors aka a hypocrite). I don't deserve this shit.

I recently had to let go of something that I realized wasn't helping me and wasn't good for me. When I finally released it, I felt relief, but there are moments when the hurt comes back..... I don't want to think about it and there are many times where I don't....in those moments there's a special kind of joy that overcomes me.... but sometimes there are things that I see that reminds me of it😔 so then I get reminded of everything I had to go through.... and how there wasn't any real closure.... I just want to get over it!!! I don't want to care!!! I think about the lessons I've learned from such a horrible experience to try to soothe myself, but then an anger appears because I feel like I want Justice I want them to acknowledge the hurt that they cause instead of just not caring.... what they represent is not who they are and it's hard to just walk away and not have the world see what I saw and what I experienced😭😭😭 I just want this hurt to go away, I hate that I care!!😭😭

Is it so wrong to want to live in peace with people? Everybody around me almost are salty snobby and hateful as can be. Family cant have peace they gotta throw a hella drunk. Neighbors turn the opposite way seeing me earlier. I can't help fam are fighting because they're on the verge of overdosing and won't back off n take no for an answer. Then there's karen above us who hates us by starting shit without trying to resolve it. And their kid acts just like them babyish immature as can be. And I'm in the middle of it all AND I BOTHER NOBODY!!!!!!!!! I get hated without cause. Why is my life like this? I miss actually having people who cared about me. Sure fam minorly does and doggo does of course and I know God does. But I get put in the worst situations I'm not even responsible for and fam wont attempt to clean their own issues up instead I suffer for them. Ain't it great 😃👍. Nah🥴😔🥺😑😐😶😟😥

I feel like I'm just being dramatic, I don't have much words to describe what I feel because everything is scattered at this point. I hate being in my family, not that I'm not greatful, they provide a roof over my head, and food on the table thats enough to fill my stomach. But theres one thing lacking and I can never build the courage to complain about it because, how dare I? I guess, and it's about mental health. One time I went into an argument with my parents and slipped the thought of me wanting to off myself, I never got an "Are you okay?", it didn't feel like they were concerned about what I was going through, and they also just said it's because I didn't get what I wanted, that thing I wanted was to transfer schools because I was uncomfortable in my current one to the point I've began to slowly lose motivation, and is damaging my mh. They don't care, they never will do they? they will continue to ignore it will they. do I have to die first for them to understand?

Today's my birthday. I wonder if you're thinking of me. Wonder if you're thinking about messaging me, if you're wondering if I'd say thank you. Maybe we could catch up on what's been happening in our lives. We don't talk anymore but I think it's better. I'm not sure I could handle it if we did. I ache. Almost constantly now. It's only been a few months. The ache isn't as painful as it is empty. I long for your warmth again. I am always so cold. I want to fall asleep in your arms again, to smell your perfume. My thoughts recently : Life is a series of opening and closing doors. I prefer to keep my door open for people, should they wish to return. I know some people don't deserve it, but seeing the good in people has always been a flaw of mine. I hope someday I'll see you standing in that doorframe. I hope you've left something in my life to come back for.

14 days clean :). I'm so excited for school, its in two days

I'm so scared. I'm being threatened by a terrible person (they might have changed but their actions towards me arent forgiven yet). They hurt me significantly and admitted to it but they think they deserve what they have which is the power of admin and they want to kick me. I defended myself but they didn't read it and people started writing new messages. I don't want to continue this drama and I want to keep the mood up since the group was meant for good vibes but my residence in the community is being threatened. What do I do? :(

My boyfriend and I have been dating for a while. I love him so much, more than anyone else in the world. And the idea of him with someone else really makes me so angry and sad. He means so much to me. We're gay, two guys who love each other, but I'm a trans man and he's cis. He's the bottom and im the top so it's really difficult for me to please him in the way he really wishes. I'm trying to find a prosthetic that works for me, but I don't know if it's ever going to be enough for him. He wants to give blowiobs and handjobs and I just can't give him that in the way he wishes. And i want nothing more than that, I would do anything to have a penis but it's not attainable for me right now, it's such an intense surgery and it's a very big decision impacting my overall hormonal health too. We love each other so much for who we are but the sex is putting a big strain on our relationship. I just hope I can find an attachment that's close enough, and enough for him, and enough for me

Im so glad I didn't kill myself when I almost did. Things do get better

I think I kept a memory suppressed. And I think I was sexually assaulted when I was younger by my step brother. The thing is, I don't think they remember. And I love them. Not like that. But as my actual brothers. And I forgive them if they ever remembered because I think they were sexually assaulted too. I have no one to tell this to. And I will never tell anyone about this. No one

my mom keeps saying she has ocd cos she likes to put clothes on her washing line in a specific way and it's pissing me off so much. i'm the one with ocd symptoms i can't fucking talk to you about cos you literally never help me actually piss off

*Trauma candy - part 3* Hi I’m Maggie, when I was young I got diagnosed with an uncureable disease and the doctors told my mom every day I was gonna die. (I’m 16 now) and I brought the sour worms.

*TRAUMA CANDY -PART 2* hi, I’m Maggie and one time my dad’s phone connected to my iPad and I saw pictures i shouldn't have and i brought the cookies. It’s me again, when I was playing with my friends online I looked up and saw a demonic spirit in my doorway. And i brought the chocolate strawberries. It’s me again, when i was playing in a sand box a couple years ago i didn’t know there was used dr*g needles hidden beneath the sand and never got hurt but the cops had to close the park down. And i brought the M&Ms. It’s me again, one time i was outside playing in a swimsuit in this bouncy water slide thing and an old man used a drone with a camera to look at me. And i brought the Twix’s. It’s me again, one time a dog chased me and my mom called the cops but they didn’t do anything and the dog is pit bull who bites hard. And I brought the sour grapes

I feel like im screaming but no one can hear me

*TRAUMA CANDY~* Hi I’m Maggie, And when I was younger I was outside destroying old school books (useless ones that my mom gave me permission to destroy) while I was alone out there a car drove slowly past then came back around to do a loop around my house so I grabbed an ax and they immediately drove off 😊😊 oh and i brought the KitKats. Hi It’s me again, When I was a baby a woman who my mom never seen hurt me then disappeared a few minutes later and was never seen again..and I brought nerds. Hi It’s me again, When I was playing Roblox years ago this now ex friend of mine told me I was the reason this girl committed “X-X” when in reality it was a lie for years ☺️ I brought the sour patch kids. Hi It’s me again, When I was getting an MRI done the person who does the anesthesia asked me if i wanted to be awake after my doctors had put a note in my file that i needed to be asleep and that anesthesia doctor didn’t wanna listen and still isn’t fired to this day 🥰

I feel like my ssri isn't working anymore. I really struggle to feel happy, and I just feel numb in general. I've been on it for a few months, but I'm not sure if it actually works anymore.

In my country, LGBT+ people are considered to be destroying the country, even though they are not considered destructive factors. There are many factors, for example, corruption, very detrimental double standards, and people's mindsets that are not worthy of being called brains. And the abundance of people who are drunk on religion only complicates the situation of a country that is already rotten. I can only pray for my queer friends in my country that you have a place to live, you do not deserve to be criticized, bullied, killed, you have the right to live as a human being. Hopefully, when I have enough courage, mentality, and enough money, I want to leave this bastard country that is said to be my birthplace.

me and my little sister were trying out clothes in a store. i still had clothes to try on, she didn’t and she wanted to go to another store. mind you, she doesn’t even have a phone. i told her no ten times but then she got super insistent so i told her ok but that she could not understand any circumstance exit the store she went into. ten minutes later i was done buying the clothes in the shop i was in so i head towards the store she wanted to go to. i get there and the store is huge and has four freaking floors. i checked every floor three times and could not find her. i panicked and tried to call my parents, turns out i have no data so i needed to be connected to the wifi. the store i was in had no wifi (of course) so i went back to the store i was in earlier and phoned my dad. he told me to check again and stay at the exit. i did that but after half an hour i called him again. (we’re on vacation) he’s just arrived to look for her. i’m worried sick but i’m also pissed at her

My fam is getting worse when it comes to their drunks and harassing all of us today. Seriously. GO TO EFFIN REHAB. I hate the awful person they become. You can't talk to them and they won't back off asking you for stuff. They were face down multiple times passed out this morning on a table before sitting back. The audacity of them hating another drunk yet acting exactly like them smh. GO GET HELP WE DON'T WANT THIS CRAP

i hate that among my three person group, once one friend drops out the other doesn't want to hang out even in other capacity any more. My birthday is coming up and I feel left out because the one that doesn't want to hang out can't even be bothered to come up with an activity that we can do together. I feel lonely and I feel like I can't enjoy my birthday any more. It's like they don't even care about me. I feel like they can't even put in the effort and I can't even voice my frustration.