All Rants

i js wanna say, if ur gonna comment on someones post, make it something positive. make it something that makes their day. make it something that makes people cry because they finally feel noticed. make it something that gives people a reason to wake up tomorrow. a reason to keep going. because im done with the people who are js like 'ur being dramatic' and 'ur not tuff' and 'ur js trynna get attention'. if ydk how ts feels, good for you. but dont make others feel like they are being a burden. dont make them feel like its their problem. like they should keep everything inside. like they shouldnt be here anymore. this may be their only outlet. the only thing that keeps them alive. the only way they have to tell someone something. the only way to feel heard. -f.g

im sick and tired of people, people venting without permission. people making my vents turn into theirs. Im always the comforter not the one being comforted. I have anger issues, mood swings, jealousy issues and im obsessed with my boyfriend i cant let him gi i get jealous over the smallest things and i feel like a shitty boyfriend to him. im 14 having urges to fucking cut myself and drink until im numb, i cant fucking sleep anymore and my body hurts. im sat in bed crying over how to end my shit i have no-one to talk to and i dont know how to fucking start with opening up to you.

to whoever wrote ts: 'stfu bro, like this aint tuff ✌️' on my other post that started with 'pov having a good life but' im not trynna be tuff. if even a single person sees ts and stops feeling so alone, its worth it. -f.g

to whoever commented this on one of my posts, 'LOL, UR SO DRAMATIC, LIKE TOUGHEN UP NGA 😭✌️' it was the one that started with pov: crying to alone at night fyi, honestly, idk whether to be glad that you have no idea how ts feels or absolutely fucking pissed at you. because you never know what is going through someones head. you never fucking know what they go home to. you never know how much effort it takes them js to get out of bed then go to school or work act happy and then make it home alive and fall asleep alive and then do it all again. you never know how much effort it took someone js to put down the knife or the pills or the rope. you never fucking know. but im happy for you that you dont fucking know how ts feels. you cant js 'toughen up'. its not how it works. its like saying js fly. u cant. but im not going to judge you. because idk what youre going through. idk what u have to do everyday. so im not gonnna judge you. im not gonna get mad cus what if this is js your outlet

I really liked him. I thought this might become something. I don't know what happened. And I'm fucking sad about it.

pov: having a good life but still being s u i c i d a l pov: not having any reason to be depressed pov: feeling guilty for no reason pov: telling yourself that other people are worse and that you are just being dramatic pov: feeling like an absolute f a t - a s s even when the numbers are clearly healthy and normal pov: staying because others are worse pov: staying only for someone who only considers you as a standard friend even when they are your closest friend pov: being fully prepared to k y s but you are just waiting for the 'right moment'

feeling every post on this website is a level of empathy not everyone will understand. doing it because you know how much it hurts to think that no one cares and how much it stings when you check your posts to find that no one felt it... -f.g

pov: crying alone in your room at night because your biggest fear and your biggest wish at the same time is crying into someone's arms... pov: having that someone be someone who told you someone else is their best friend even though they are your closest friend pov: having that someone be someone who told everyone else something before you pov: knowing that someone doesn't care about you as much as you do pov: being willing to do anything for someone knowing they don't care pov: staying alive for someone because you don't know your importance to them but you don't want to hurt them by going..

i'm so lost i have a partner and i love her more than anything she's autistic and a questioning system with a bad living space every single disagreement i have had with her, no matter how small, will be as big as it can be because we're both sensitive i feel resentment to everything but her, including myself she's the only reason why i want to live but i don't know what to do if this keeps happening over and over and over again i never used to be this sensitive, what happened? i try my hardest over and over again to make sure she doesn't get upset in any way shape or form and she tries the same with me too but it gets tiring for the both of us quickly we lash out on each other a lot out of being overwhelmed and stressed i just want our arguments to end already i don't know what to do and i'm lost god help me because if this doesn't end then i might go back to my horrible past and ways of thinking i hope others find solace even if it may seem too late you always matter to someone.

why? why am i like this? why do i cut myself? why do i hate myself so much? why doesnt anybody care? why am i so insecure? why do i weigh myself everyday? why do i want to die? why? i want.. i want to be loved i want someone to care i want to notice i want to be okay i want to be better i want to heal i want... i want... more.

sorry if this is super unorganized i have adhd but my dad cheated and was never really in my life and i always bashed him because thats why my mom showed me but as i grew up i learned my mom is just as bad and ive been suffering since i was like 5 ive done things that children shouldve do as a coping mechanism but its so bad and i have such bad anxiety because of my mom and its eating at me everyday. i dont want to die but i want this endless suffering to end. i want to wake up one day and all my trauma is gone and she starts acting like a loving mom i can trust. im only 14 and i have wanted to kms more times than i can count and i dont have anyone to turn to also i feel like a burden when i vent to my friends so i get high to distract myself but im so anxious because of my mom that the weed just makes my anxiety worse. my mom is making my life a living hell.

My sister is literally so entitled and narcissistic and the thing is that is just her personality because we we were raised together and I’m nothing like that.

I'm tired of eating. tired of seeing the scale go up and down. tired of counting calories all day or how much food I fucking ate.

if i k m s no one would care. ik cus i tried to tell my 'friends' now acquaintances, and they js said we dont care ur not special were all like this so what if i js did t s. y do i do t s. genuinely. i h a t e my life i h a t e m y s e l f i j s w a n t i t t o s t o p. i w a n t t o e n d i t a l l

i wouldnt really gaf if my mom died. she deserves to go to hell

so I made a rant earlier about a bunch of freaky old dudes following and dming me after I showed my face as a minor and said my age BTW IT WAS LIKE IN A COMMENT I WANNA FIND IT AND DELETE IT NOW CUS EW?? anyway I went through the following of one of them bc I know what you are…um yeah he was following another girl who openly said she was 13 and way way way more in his following and followers list good golly molly, to top it off he has older daddy in his bio. yeah um guys idk what to say like this is honestly crazy??? so open about it too

I'm ashamed of the fact that I've let so much of my life go bad, I have an incredibly cluttered and messy apartment, to where I found mice tonight, I've let myself get to over 300lbs, and I'm in such a tight financial situation, I feel I might never recover. I feel so many things in my personal life just stacking and I have no way of alleviating any of it. I can't turn to anyone bc I'm afraid of being judged and shunned.

lowkey I hate school, not because of the fact we have to do work and stuff but it’s the way it works. like I’m telling u last year my routine was wake up 4:00, get ready for school and leave at 6:30 which thankfully was one of the later times compared to the year before that, get to school 7:20 and leave at 3:00 and then I’d have homework which usually would take me 2 hours to do, and it’s like yeah I get we need to do work and stuff but that’s like my whole life?? I wanna do other things in my free time other than homework and studying. there’s like no 3rd spaces for teens too it’s insane. sometimes my teachers would even assign us homework over BREAKS and the WEEKENDS??? The whole point of those is to take a break and not do anything??? Idk it just makes me like upset.

you just dont fucking care about me at all.

trying to have a conversation with you and you just fucking fall asleep fuck you. you dont want to talk at all