All Rants

Chai Ai is looking better then facing my problems right now..

Things that piss me off. 1. People who just use you as a side character “friend”. (Bitch- you aren’t cool.) 2. That one yt creator who makes videos about her daughter being sore after *if yk, yk.* (why? Just why?) 3. natalie reynolds, Piper, Sophie, (and the rest of their sl^t club) 4. People who just fake having an illness 💔😒 (she knows who she is 😒😒 you literally can’t have cancer for two months and magically be cured.) 5. People who fake their death just as a “joke” (stfu. Right now, just stfu. 🤬) 6. People who show off their body in public knowing it’s an inappropriate outfit and still get mad while being cat called. (Like….ik it’s your body but- you knowingly did it.) This is gonna piss tans people off..but just listen. 7. Men who change to “women” and join women sports. (No- jus no. Please no…) 8. Women who change to “men” and join men sports. (No- jus no. Please no…and I’m not saying that women can’t join sports men do- just we women have our own they have theirs.

again, to the person who replied this: 'dude, we have free will. like i do wtv i want </3' to my post abt asking ppl to be nice in the comments, ik u have free will. im asking u if u can be nice cus u never know what shit ppl go through. u never know if ur comment is the final straw for some ppl. u dont know if that might be the reason that ppl keep going, or the reason that they quit and potentially take their life depending on ur quote. if u can even save one life by being motivational, do it. u may save a life or u may take one. take ur pick but im not js gonna sit here doin nuthin cus ik how much it hurts to get one of those comments and how good it feels to get a good one. -f.g

I was in a car accident a few days ago I am fine but it hurts when I move my neck, but I am getting better I feel better but I don't want to. I like the idea of people caring about me, I am not invisible to the ones around me, I am bonding with my mom. My mom is neglectful alcoholic but who is a good woman she has always had a closer bond to my sister she's more feminine than me, for once I get the attention it all about me. I know I shouldn't feel that way saying I want to stay in pain bc I am getting something out of it but I can't get that attention another way but to be in pain.

Happy Birthday Nono , truth will have the final voice , I didn’t you but I love you and I will stand by and wait

I’m pregnant with my 4th child. I am not happy at all and I feel guilty for hating that I’m going to have another baby. Ever since I found out I haven’t been the same. Idk who I am anymore. I don’t recognize myself anymore and it’s an uneasy feeling. I’ve been feeling like nothing is real. Im tired of feeling like this

to whoever wrote this: 'hi you're very cool' luv ya bud. it did make my day. hope u have a great day and i hope that ppl treat u with kindness and respect❤️ -f.g

I think I was sexually assaulted by my ex, but I don't know if I am overreacting. We are both teenagers but he was younger than me he always pressured me to say kinda sexual things even if I didn't at first I thought it was fun but he was just doing that over and over I would sent boundaries but he would push them question me about it untill I snapped and let it be when I think he started sexually assaulting me was he would always make out with me, I even if I didn't want to, I felt pressured like I had to do it, so that's what I think was sa but it was just kissing other people have it worse and I don't want it to seem like I am making fun of victims of sa bc I know it's not that serious but I don't know if I can tell anyone that.

soooo i do tennis right? my fucking coach literally abuses his kids (mostly his younger son) and i genuinely dont know if i should call cps. my coach is also a family friend and i dont have any evidence of this and i know the witnesses are too afraid to speak up. and i dont know why but u know when u instinctively do smth once u hear or see smth? once he starts yelling at me i dont know why but the tears dont stop until im out of his range. i really dont know if i can deal with this anymore (sorry if there are typos/its out of order i kinda rambled a bit)

I’m good on my own. I don’t need anymore lies, disappointments or hurt. I will not let myself become that vulnerable again.

Nothing feels real, like it's a dream I can't wake up from. The lights are not the same color it's like a spot light whatever I do nothing feels real when I look at myself I think that it isn't me. I know it is it literally had to be but who is staring back isn't me.

i js wanna say, if ur gonna comment on someones post, make it something positive. make it something that makes their day. make it something that makes people cry because they finally feel noticed. make it something that gives people a reason to wake up tomorrow. a reason to keep going. because im done with the people who are js like 'ur being dramatic' and 'ur not tuff' and 'ur js trynna get attention'. if ydk how ts feels, good for you. but dont make others feel like they are being a burden. dont make them feel like its their problem. like they should keep everything inside. like they shouldnt be here anymore. this may be their only outlet. the only thing that keeps them alive. the only way they have to tell someone something. the only way to feel heard. -f.g

im sick and tired of people, people venting without permission. people making my vents turn into theirs. Im always the comforter not the one being comforted. I have anger issues, mood swings, jealousy issues and im obsessed with my boyfriend i cant let him gi i get jealous over the smallest things and i feel like a shitty boyfriend to him. im 14 having urges to fucking cut myself and drink until im numb, i cant fucking sleep anymore and my body hurts. im sat in bed crying over how to end my shit i have no-one to talk to and i dont know how to fucking start with opening up to you.

to whoever wrote ts: 'stfu bro, like this aint tuff ✌️' on my other post that started with 'pov having a good life but' im not trynna be tuff. if even a single person sees ts and stops feeling so alone, its worth it. -f.g

to whoever commented this on one of my posts, 'LOL, UR SO DRAMATIC, LIKE TOUGHEN UP NGA 😭✌️' it was the one that started with pov: crying to alone at night fyi, honestly, idk whether to be glad that you have no idea how ts feels or absolutely fucking pissed at you. because you never know what is going through someones head. you never fucking know what they go home to. you never know how much effort it takes them js to get out of bed then go to school or work act happy and then make it home alive and fall asleep alive and then do it all again. you never know how much effort it took someone js to put down the knife or the pills or the rope. you never fucking know. but im happy for you that you dont fucking know how ts feels. you cant js 'toughen up'. its not how it works. its like saying js fly. u cant. but im not going to judge you. because idk what youre going through. idk what u have to do everyday. so im not gonnna judge you. im not gonna get mad cus what if this is js your outlet

I really liked him. I thought this might become something. I don't know what happened. And I'm fucking sad about it.

pov: having a good life but still being s u i c i d a l pov: not having any reason to be depressed pov: feeling guilty for no reason pov: telling yourself that other people are worse and that you are just being dramatic pov: feeling like an absolute f a t - a s s even when the numbers are clearly healthy and normal pov: staying because others are worse pov: staying only for someone who only considers you as a standard friend even when they are your closest friend pov: being fully prepared to k y s but you are just waiting for the 'right moment'

feeling every post on this website is a level of empathy not everyone will understand. doing it because you know how much it hurts to think that no one cares and how much it stings when you check your posts to find that no one felt it... -f.g

pov: crying alone in your room at night because your biggest fear and your biggest wish at the same time is crying into someone's arms... pov: having that someone be someone who told you someone else is their best friend even though they are your closest friend pov: having that someone be someone who told everyone else something before you pov: knowing that someone doesn't care about you as much as you do pov: being willing to do anything for someone knowing they don't care pov: staying alive for someone because you don't know your importance to them but you don't want to hurt them by going..

i'm so lost i have a partner and i love her more than anything she's autistic and a questioning system with a bad living space every single disagreement i have had with her, no matter how small, will be as big as it can be because we're both sensitive i feel resentment to everything but her, including myself she's the only reason why i want to live but i don't know what to do if this keeps happening over and over and over again i never used to be this sensitive, what happened? i try my hardest over and over again to make sure she doesn't get upset in any way shape or form and she tries the same with me too but it gets tiring for the both of us quickly we lash out on each other a lot out of being overwhelmed and stressed i just want our arguments to end already i don't know what to do and i'm lost god help me because if this doesn't end then i might go back to my horrible past and ways of thinking i hope others find solace even if it may seem too late you always matter to someone.