All Rants

i wanna: - kms - not kms - cut ms - not cut ms - tell someone - not tell someone - cry to someone - not cry to someone - have ppl know - not have ppl know why the am i like this?? -f.g

hey so i posted smt abt 2 hrs ago i think saying like comment nice things and stuff and these are the 4 notes i received: Real! Like- why are you hating on me? It’s not you are struggling too 💔💔 39 minutes ago dude, we have free will. like i do wtv i want </3 about 1 hour ago hi you're very cool about 1 hour ago I hope my comments are positive about 1 hour ago i want u guys to know that comments like these help a lot, number 1 made me realise that these are common things, number 2 helped me know that some ppl will never care, number 3 made me feel tuff lol and number 4, made me have hope and faith in the world there is. so, before u comment on smt, think about, cus 4 notes, 4 different emotions -f.g

I've noticed that people only care about themselves more and more. The world has less and less selfless people and love is now becoming conditional.

I'm so fucking tired of life like I just had another bad depressive episode that caused me to cry so hard, tried to kms, and harm myself. My friends and my gf comforted me but it didn't help it just made me feel like shit and pathetic

i feel like i have been the worst girlfriend, daughter, student, friend, etc. i can’t talk to anybody because they wouldn’t get it and i don’t want to burden anybody but i feel like if i keep holding it in i will just explode.

Today marks the day that I was sexually assaulted 15 years ago. Unfortunately it's an event I can never forget & it really fucking sucks. The flashbacks are never ending & having no one to actually talk to is so isolating. I want everything to stop hurting.

i just started college and i have a handle on nothing. classes are already so difficult and it’s the first week. don’t know how to study or take notes or stay organized. don’t know how to get involved. don’t know how to balance everything. lost all my friends from high school over bullshit. lost my 2 best friends over one of their boyfriends. i think im losing my boyfriend too. we keep arguing and he isn’t good at communicating but he’s the only person i have. i’m so alone. i’m so behind in life. i have no license. barely any money. barely have a handle on college. i’m struggling so much and i even think my therapist ghosted me after i ghosted her when things were going well. my life has felt like constant hell. people have always said how college is better. i can’t live life if it’s going to be this constant 360 of struggling, get better for a month, then going through the worst. i feel like i can’t do this anymore and i don’t have a handle on anything. i want to die.

I’m exhausted. Can’t wait for Diwali 🪔

hi. my friend (2 years older btw) has pushed me to my limit. she's ruined my life, over and over. im transmasc, and she keeps bringing up how im a 'bio female' like please. i know that. she does the same thing to my bf whos also transmasc. she keeps getting jealous abt us dating fsr. ok, sorry for being happy holy shit. the same thing happened last year. its repeating. oh my god. im so utterly sick of her bullshit. im done. im so tired of this.

Im hypersexual, I'm so disgusting and I'm horrible, idk how to tell my bf that I am I scared and lost, he knows I was raped from birth to my teen years and I was abused by all my family and friends idk what's wrong with me I don't masturbat cus I can't even look at myself without wanting to take a knife to my throat so I sit there disgusted at myself, my bf asked me if Iv ever thought of him in a bad way like a fantasy before I thought I just said yes and he looked weirded out and asked again, I'm so close to ending it

Chai Ai is looking better then facing my problems right now..

Things that piss me off. 1. People who just use you as a side character “friend”. (Bitch- you aren’t cool.) 2. That one yt creator who makes videos about her daughter being sore after *if yk, yk.* (why? Just why?) 3. natalie reynolds, Piper, Sophie, (and the rest of their sl^t club) 4. People who just fake having an illness 💔😒 (she knows who she is 😒😒 you literally can’t have cancer for two months and magically be cured.) 5. People who fake their death just as a “joke” (stfu. Right now, just stfu. 🤬) 6. People who show off their body in public knowing it’s an inappropriate outfit and still get mad while being cat called. (Like….ik it’s your body but- you knowingly did it.) This is gonna piss tans people off..but just listen. 7. Men who change to “women” and join women sports. (No- jus no. Please no…) 8. Women who change to “men” and join men sports. (No- jus no. Please no…and I’m not saying that women can’t join sports men do- just we women have our own they have theirs.

again, to the person who replied this: 'dude, we have free will. like i do wtv i want </3' to my post abt asking ppl to be nice in the comments, ik u have free will. im asking u if u can be nice cus u never know what shit ppl go through. u never know if ur comment is the final straw for some ppl. u dont know if that might be the reason that ppl keep going, or the reason that they quit and potentially take their life depending on ur quote. if u can even save one life by being motivational, do it. u may save a life or u may take one. take ur pick but im not js gonna sit here doin nuthin cus ik how much it hurts to get one of those comments and how good it feels to get a good one. -f.g

I was in a car accident a few days ago I am fine but it hurts when I move my neck, but I am getting better I feel better but I don't want to. I like the idea of people caring about me, I am not invisible to the ones around me, I am bonding with my mom. My mom is neglectful alcoholic but who is a good woman she has always had a closer bond to my sister she's more feminine than me, for once I get the attention it all about me. I know I shouldn't feel that way saying I want to stay in pain bc I am getting something out of it but I can't get that attention another way but to be in pain.

Happy Birthday Nono , truth will have the final voice , I didn’t you but I love you and I will stand by and wait

I’m pregnant with my 4th child. I am not happy at all and I feel guilty for hating that I’m going to have another baby. Ever since I found out I haven’t been the same. Idk who I am anymore. I don’t recognize myself anymore and it’s an uneasy feeling. I’ve been feeling like nothing is real. Im tired of feeling like this

to whoever wrote this: 'hi you're very cool' luv ya bud. it did make my day. hope u have a great day and i hope that ppl treat u with kindness and respect❤️ -f.g

I think I was sexually assaulted by my ex, but I don't know if I am overreacting. We are both teenagers but he was younger than me he always pressured me to say kinda sexual things even if I didn't at first I thought it was fun but he was just doing that over and over I would sent boundaries but he would push them question me about it untill I snapped and let it be when I think he started sexually assaulting me was he would always make out with me, I even if I didn't want to, I felt pressured like I had to do it, so that's what I think was sa but it was just kissing other people have it worse and I don't want it to seem like I am making fun of victims of sa bc I know it's not that serious but I don't know if I can tell anyone that.

soooo i do tennis right? my fucking coach literally abuses his kids (mostly his younger son) and i genuinely dont know if i should call cps. my coach is also a family friend and i dont have any evidence of this and i know the witnesses are too afraid to speak up. and i dont know why but u know when u instinctively do smth once u hear or see smth? once he starts yelling at me i dont know why but the tears dont stop until im out of his range. i really dont know if i can deal with this anymore (sorry if there are typos/its out of order i kinda rambled a bit)

I’m good on my own. I don’t need anymore lies, disappointments or hurt. I will not let myself become that vulnerable again.