All Rants

How does one deal with an abuser who's also s so-called father, doesn't earn enough, only wants control, cheats on my mom, abuses us, doesn't want divorce but goes and does God knows what with other women below my mother's status, because he feels comfortable with the lowly maids not a not an independent working woman who sponsors him, and he abuses her if his mistress doesn't reply. I really pray the Lord takes him because we're so done with his abuse, he thinks he's the best father best husband he thinks he's doing everything he can for us, but genuinely just best for everyone if he goes as far as divinely possible, because he doesn't want us either so why force us

my parents always snoop around my room, inspect my personal items, and then trash and comment on how “dirty” the place is, they dont even try to understand my situation and how much im dealing with—like the struggle with school, the urge to pursue my hobbies, and wanting to send time with the only person i trust—AKA my brother. They cant take a hint that “oh! maybe my child needs mental help!” BUT NOOOOO they think im perfectly okay when i admittedly act distant and what some may say “depressed”, they dont respect me as a person, they barely do. they say “oh! you’re grown up now!” and want me to learn everything at such a young age, and then they say “oh! you’re too young so i can go inside your room and rummage!” like stick to one side, i beg of you. im literally dealing with the pain of having to move mid school year away from my friends and actual people i trust BUT NOOO they’re concerned with the small chunks of hair on the floor because its hard to see, and its too much.

Girls are just my weakness it's like I Love so hard and I'm locked in but I got trust issues and overhinking constantly thinking my girlfriend is cheating cause I keep blocking and unadding these guys on her phone and she adds them back, she recently added these 2 accounts on snapchat and it's random names with low snapscore I think it's so when I go through her phone I don't know who is actually behind that account

I'm always doing the same thing everyday gaming, hanging with "friends" or just sleeping life is so boring and I'm constantly having these thoughts and I hate how I got bad adhd to where my mind can never focus on one thing, I'm constantly thinking of 1000 things at once, I hope this goes out to the right people I really need somebody to talk to my snapchat is djhamill

I don't know what it is, it's just life just keeps getting boring and boring each day, each minute, each second, I mean yeah I smile here and there, but is it real, I'm starting to feel like I have no emotions anymore, I hate to say it like that cause it seems like when I vent or talk to somebody nowadays, it sounds corny just cause of this generation, I hate the way I look, I hate the way my body looks, I don't like the fact im such an overthinker, over do er, how i have bad trust issues, or just how my mind is in general, I hate having adhd, and my brain constantly running around and I can't focus on one thing, and the court system just takes that as not paying attention, I'm always zoning out, and getting asked "am I ok" but I never vent to anybody nor do I like it when I do, cause that just shows them, how weak I get when that topic is brought up

I'm sending this into the nothingness where nobody I know can receive it. I wish I wasn't the way I am. I already hate myself as much as anyone possibly can at this point. I try to keep to myself and accept I'll die alone. I also know I tend to bring people around me down. So why? "This smell reminds me of your cologne that I like" It's been like 3 years ago since I've used the cologne... When I was fooled into thinking she loved me when she said it out loud. Right before she shattered me. What purpose drives this? Control? Manipulation? Kick me down further? We've both done so many things to hurt each other, and I don't understand bringing up things that meant something to me, when she was only leading me on when it happened. I hate that I can't get away and find another job. If I stand my ground and try to move on, she convinces management I'm an issue. I lose hours and get lectured. I'm broken and she takes advantage of it. I can't do this anymore. I can't do this anymore...

Life is going good this is the most normal it’s ever been for me yet I still feel this sadness from time to time

honestly I needa stop flirting with my friends as a joke/our humor cus then we actually get a crush on each other and start dating but then ruin the friendship😔😔😔

I hate having a vagina, I don't know how to properly masturbate with this stupid thing. Penis is just kinda better, frotting, stroking, cum, whatever.

Im getting so sick of my parents, my depression, my "friends" giving me shit, the world burning before me. I have nothing to look forward to, nor will I ever.

last year, i started liking this guy in my grade, but we didnt acc talk. i was lwk a dork, so i basically js stared at him. soon i noticed he lwk was staring at me back, and i was so convinced he liked me. his friend even asked me if i like him. so i was rly happy, but a few weeks later i found out that he liked someone else, and i was crushed. literally like a week later, i basically watched him find out that she liked someone else, and 2 days after that, he said he was over her. after that, he started staring at me even more. i rly wanted to make a move, or at least try to talk to him but im rly shy. summer came, and i was scared he was gonna forget about me, but right when the school year started, he started staring at me all over again. and its lwk weird that hes not acc talking to me cus hes not shy at all. last week his friend flat out told me he liked me, but then he denied it. i feel like its kinda obvious but im lwk in denial. do u think he likes me? what should i do?

in a relationship, romantic, familial, or social, if the balance between who apologizes and says sorry more becomes unequal, isn't it quite obvious where the fault/perpetrator lies. crazy enough the ability to even express a sorry regardless of the relationship dynamics should be something that is healthily and genuinely expressed, especially when wrongdoing was committed. that's on thing. another thing, is it okay to abuse the dynamic of your relationship in order to always validate the self's actions, behaviors, attitude as moral and ethic, and discredit others as completely invalid, why, because of said relationship dynamic. I'd hope not. Lastly, I often coin it as the princess stunted mentality, where some beings have been spoon-fed all aspects of their life to be acceptable, because they established such a hierarchy, and so these beings often have gargantuan meltdowns once their self-worth or self-philosophy is even in the slightest bit challenged, God forbid criticized... tired..

i wanna: - kms - not kms - cut ms - not cut ms - tell someone - not tell someone - cry to someone - not cry to someone - have ppl know - not have ppl know why the am i like this?? -f.g

hey so i posted smt abt 2 hrs ago i think saying like comment nice things and stuff and these are the 4 notes i received: Real! Like- why are you hating on me? It’s not you are struggling too 💔💔 39 minutes ago dude, we have free will. like i do wtv i want </3 about 1 hour ago hi you're very cool about 1 hour ago I hope my comments are positive about 1 hour ago i want u guys to know that comments like these help a lot, number 1 made me realise that these are common things, number 2 helped me know that some ppl will never care, number 3 made me feel tuff lol and number 4, made me have hope and faith in the world there is. so, before u comment on smt, think about, cus 4 notes, 4 different emotions -f.g

I've noticed that people only care about themselves more and more. The world has less and less selfless people and love is now becoming conditional.

I'm so fucking tired of life like I just had another bad depressive episode that caused me to cry so hard, tried to kms, and harm myself. My friends and my gf comforted me but it didn't help it just made me feel like shit and pathetic

i feel like i have been the worst girlfriend, daughter, student, friend, etc. i can’t talk to anybody because they wouldn’t get it and i don’t want to burden anybody but i feel like if i keep holding it in i will just explode.

Today marks the day that I was sexually assaulted 15 years ago. Unfortunately it's an event I can never forget & it really fucking sucks. The flashbacks are never ending & having no one to actually talk to is so isolating. I want everything to stop hurting.

i just started college and i have a handle on nothing. classes are already so difficult and it’s the first week. don’t know how to study or take notes or stay organized. don’t know how to get involved. don’t know how to balance everything. lost all my friends from high school over bullshit. lost my 2 best friends over one of their boyfriends. i think im losing my boyfriend too. we keep arguing and he isn’t good at communicating but he’s the only person i have. i’m so alone. i’m so behind in life. i have no license. barely any money. barely have a handle on college. i’m struggling so much and i even think my therapist ghosted me after i ghosted her when things were going well. my life has felt like constant hell. people have always said how college is better. i can’t live life if it’s going to be this constant 360 of struggling, get better for a month, then going through the worst. i feel like i can’t do this anymore and i don’t have a handle on anything. i want to die.

I’m exhausted. Can’t wait for Diwali 🪔