All Rants

i spend the whole day in my bad doing nothing i just wasted all my day on my phone while my sister is always out actually living her life, and i feel like a failure

I hate myself right now. And I don’t know how to feel about this. I’m anxious and I wanna either self harm or make myself vomit. I just disgust myself

My mother is downstairs screaming at my sister saying about how her life is so terrible and she can’t deal with me or her anymore. She’s screaming that either she leaves or my sister does and giving a final ultimatum. This has been going on for a while. I don’t want either to leave yet. My mother has issues but she’s still my mother. And my sister while annoying at times, I don’t want her to struggle either. Not really. I just feel very lost. I’m sure the neighbours can probably hear. It’s awkward and I just want the argument to be over.

today is my last day here ive finally given up theres no fucking point im going to do it tonight after wishing i could im finally going to whats the point in being here? no-ones going to miss me

Why do some friends thinks it’s normal to point out like I’m fat. Bro I’m still fucking losing weight yk? it’s so annoying to be just ruining my good mood.

I can’t seem to get out of this void of sadness and loneliness. The moment something goes slightly wrong, I fall apart. It’s been happening so often that i hate it. And I hate myself. I can never get something right. I can’t be strong. I hate being weak i hate it. I hate feeling lonely and needing closeness. Why can’t there be just someone who understands me and gets me right?

ok so um my uncle keeps making fun of my acne like i already told you to stop?? my mom and other relatives arent doing anything as well about it and they KNOW its something i dont like and am insecure about um sorry btw but thats it.

I have so much in my mind that I cant even explain have friends to vent but didn't want to tell them

There has been so much change within this year. but I feel like I'm just kinda heading down hill in some ways. I had to break off my 8 year relationship and leave my 9 year old daughter behind. With many emotional episodes in between the lines and still a lot of mental recovery for all of us I guess. At this point I'm even scared to be fully honest on a venting website. It still feeling like he is watching me and will use anything to keep as proof that I am a terrible mother. But this is what I mean these thought of being scared and not being able to share what I want to isn't good. I always feel like something worse is about to happen so I'm on fight or flight mode all the time. It's hard to move on when you spent so many years with someone and you have no choice to leave because there was problems that we were causing and creating. There was physical abuse and financial abuse, addiction and so much more but having to come to terms with and tryingto except what was my reality.

There is this mentality in society (It seems to have become more prevalent today than it used to be) that sex is only sex when you "go all the way". It isn't brand new. I wish I could say it was, but Clinton said 30 years ago "I did not have sex with that woman" because she only sucked him off and he only got off from it once. They did call it oral sex. It involved one person putting another person's genitals in her mouth. I'm sure it felt good. For one person, it tasted good (must have, what else would have motivated her to do it?) I know I'm getting boned up thinking about it. No, it was sex, whether he redefined that word or not. It wasn't sexual intercourse, but it was definitely sex.

I have been reading about people being offended by this site because they allow "fascists" to post on here. This is free speech platform. Regardless of your ability and propensity to call anything you don't agree with "fascist". And that is what a lot of people say. "America is now a fascist dictatorship". Don't be a jackass. Your homework today is to look up the definitions of 2 words. "fascist" and "dictatorship". See if you can learn something, because obviously you don't have any clue what you are talking about.

People are complaining about gasoline reaching $4 a gallon. Hey, I don't like it either, only a little bit more than when it reached $5 under the Biden administration. And where was the left then? "Oh he's just cleaning up the mess #45 left." Well, #47 is still cleaning up the mess #46 threw at us. And avoiding a whole lot of other messes there would have been if we had gotten Harris for a #47. Not to mention all the crap we have dealt with for the past 45 years nobody has ever done anything about. Iran had to be this close to being able to nuke the whole world, or at least all the infidels, in order for ANYBODY to do anything about it. I say it's about time. Take those jerks back down to where they belong. Oh, and also, there are a few posts on here about "People being allowed to post fascist rants" boo hoo. I don't like it either, but it's called "freedom of speech". If you don't like what you read, read something else! Jeez Louise, is it that hard?

Fighting the urge to tell my friend, we dated for 1 summer in high school, that im an option to date instead. We're talking about Romantic relationships

Literally just found that my boyfriend has a snap saved from Snapchat with his girl that's a friend about how he thinks she's so sexy and how he wants to f*** her and how he loves her body naked or not and how he can't do sex with her because he's friends with her boyfriend and he can't do that to him but then continues to say that we can do 69 and stuff like that but they can't have sex and that he f****** loves her and that's he wants to have sex with her so badly and this is the same friend he apparently was going to be in a relationship with her and her boyfriend she is now still with and engaged to and they just did a kid she wants him to be the Godfather of their kid and she was all trying to be friends with me and want to hang out with me and stuff I literally asked before if there has been anything between the two of them before and he said no to me he wasn't attracted to her whatsoever nothing ever happened between the two of them he's saying that the boyfriend knows apparentl

I wonder what it feels like to be in love. I'm sure it feels amazing but ill never feel it,im young but im 100% sure no one will be in love with me. I'm annoying and lonely and my face is too big. My daddy issues make everything worse and not to mention im too mature for my age so I dont know if ill ever be able to love someone my age let alone have them love me. I yearn to be held and content,to melt under someone's touch, to have all my worries and stress be soothed away just from one hug. My cousin talks about love as if its nothing due to him being with so many people but I can't help but wonder what it feels like and I can do nothing but dream of it. Hopefully one day ill be loved the way I dream of.

Do I have a problem with that? Haha very funny. Idk, would I have a BIGGER problem with you fucking her? Of you replacing me. Replicating our relationship and special moments with her. Obsessive over a fucking girl you so much hated? Yeah I have a fucking problem with that. Shut your fucking mouth. Shut your fucking mouth.

I will refuse to be friends with someone that doesn't follow their moral compass. She smiles yet I see she regret her choices. She is a hypocrite. All her sorry are for nothing. She keeps messaging him anyway. She's disgusting. Someone who doesn't know how to communicate well. Same with grandma. Shit her and her low education. Didn't even bother finishing college. Relies heavily on someone else's money. She's a slut also with her many children. Doesn't even know how to plan family. What a fucking clown.

Fuck mom. And her cheating. She messed up my life. She feels guilty but doesn't do anything about it. She's a slut.

i feel stressed. theres an ominous feeling looming over me everyday. i can feel my mental helth deteriorating again. i dont want to go there again. but im so tried. i'm failing all my classes. i feel so dumb. i'm so sick of pretending everythings fine with me. i feel like i haven't learned anything since last year. matter of fact, i feel like im worse off than before. i can't imagine a future for myself and i don't know what to do. there's got to be something i can do instead of wallowing in self pity like this. maybe i just need to gts.

i'm now just realizing, as i slowly get older, how difficult it is to form genuine friendships with people i actually vibe with and share the same opinions about the things i value outside of school. on top of that, i've moved countries, miles and miles away from my best friends from day one, who seem like they're drifting little by little away from me. but i try not to think about that part too much. the last time i've felt this alone was when i was in 6th grade, completely engulfed with the kind of sadness a 6th grader probably shouldn't be experiencing. looking back at it now, i was a sad kid. i kind of want to cry right now as i'm typing this, but i know it will make me spiral, so maybe not tonight. but i really, really, really want genuine friends. i really wish i wasn't so lonely and alone in this new country. i really wish i wasn't away from my people.