All Rants

I'm constantly applying to job listings outside of my busy school life in college and have not seen that many results. Some places have requested interviews and some have not given a single response. When I do receive an email about a potential opportunity, my eyes open with hope only to find out it's a rejection letter. I know that I can do better but i'm also tired of hearing the generic responses that peers have told me as if I haven't tried hard enough. Overall, i've started to lose hope in it , feeling like i'm not good enough while also gaining fear for future hiring experiences in the long-term.

I hate everything. im left out my friends aren't talking to me anymore and my parents keep forcing islam on me i just want to commit atp but i can't because im too scared to go trough with it. my girl best friend ist talking to me anymore not even in school, the friend group im in has a new group where everyone is and they go out but i just don't get invited no one tells me shit amd when i ask they say "mb we forgot to tell you" i just feel useless and like nobody cares about me i have helped countless people to get out of their problems just for them to fucking leave me and stop talking to me. also i met a girl a month ago and im in love with her and she knows it I've stopped trying tho so now were just friends, in the last week i had a feeling that she doesn't like me anymore either i always ask her if we wanna do sum and yes she does say yes but it isn't us talking anymore its just her responding idk what to do atp and i just need someone to make me feel like im not worthless.

is it bad that im scared my bsf might be replacing me

I honestly do NOT know if im just overreacting or not but I hate it when people ask me to speak even though they've told me to shut up, told me my voice was annoying, or just straight-up mocked me. Like its been a repetitive thing and ive been trying to act casual about it but the more it happens the worse effect is has on me. I can barely even answer questions anymore at school and such because of it. I honestly feel pathetic and sensitive over it but its happened too many times and its soo tiring aubghhhhh

I hate her. I have never hated anyone. It's consuming me. I understand why people do bad things

Hi I’m 19f and I just started college in the fall, I graduated high school class at 2025 and the last part of my senior year I had a horrendous relationship break up, I don’t wanna talk much about it, but it was my first ever relationship as I am quite a late bloomer and it was really hard for me. I tried to lean on my friends, but I guess because we were at the end of high school. It was mostly during the summer. Everyone was kind of checked out and ready to start this new chapter of their lives. This breakup sent me into a deep depression because I was cheated on and replaced and like I said it’s the first time I’ve ever been in a relationship before so it sent me into a depression. My parents got tired of it and were harsh with their words every day about it, they were tired of me being sad abouy it and just wanted me to go back to normal. My best friend after 4 months told me she didn’t want to talk about it anymore, and I started getting harsh comments from a lot of people about

I feel like I’m not grateful enough for everything that I have, loving parents, money, friends but some days I feel tired, and now I think I’m a fat lazy cow.but I don’t wanna feel that I wanna be toned,smart,good relationship with people and family, but when I try I just stop I feel like a slob and I make routines and schedules but they don’t help and I feel like I’ll die alone as a fat chud.

i get a pang in my chest when i think about her. i havent seen her in a month ever since my carcrash ive lost my job and been on my mothers couch struggling through college. i havent seen my friends in weeks, i dont have access to nicotine, my anxiety is at an all-time high, i havent felt this way in years. i need out. i need to see her so fucking bad.

I'm tired. but I finally understand

Everyday feels like a battle but it’s always just me VS myself. I know I shouldnt care about what others think, I know life has no meaning and it's unimportant. So why do I keep caring so much? Why do I keep being so sensitive? It's so stupid, feelings are so stupid. I hate myself, I hate myself so much. In fact I wish I never existed. The only thing that actually keeps me alive is making my family worried. I love my family sm and i know they love me unconditionally. But everything other than my family just sucks so bad. I have no motivation for school work, even though I'm getting well enough grades I never feel like I'm actually good enough. I'm so tired of being alive, worrying and criticizing myself all the time, I'm so tired of caring about "having a good reputation". I hate how it feels like I'll never love myself and I'll always be depressed and sensitive. It makes me wish and hope ppl would forget me after I die.

I have disappointed everyone around me. I had my finals and didn’t do so good in mathematics and when my mom and dad got to know, they panicked. Initially, I had assumed that my math had gone good and was happy about it till the results were published. I cried a lot that day. I had to apply for a retake so that I could increase my percentage but I feel like a failure. Things had been hard the past few months. In the month of February , the guy I liked confessed that he liked me too and held my hand. I was the happiest that day but it was probably the last time I genuinely smiled. He then ghosted me for weeks and made out with someone which he didn’t bother telling me. I then got to know about my marks which put me down even more. I currently feel like shit and I want to end myself because, I just keep constantly disappointing people. I hope someday it gets better.

In giving the wrong address to drop and recycle mobiles, batteries and bottles and cans, I guess those behind the recycling programs including Mobile Musters don't want the public to recycle?

im so tired of my family telling hurtful words

I've been getting almost no sleep here lately and it's affecting my physical health. I have so many vivid nightmares that I wake up 1-3 times a night. And when I say vivid they are VERY vivid, to the point where sometimes I wake up from a bad one and I feel insane because why would my brain think of that? Some are random nightmares some are repeats. Then sometimes I have a dream of this one place only I can get to (in the middle of nightmares or when I wake up and go back to sleep) and when dream of it I usually sleep great. I just want the nightmares to stop. I want therapy but who goes to therapy and says "oh yeah I'm dreaming about stuff that sometimes even traumatizes me." I feel so crazy and I'm so tired figuratively and literally of having nightmares every night.

Fuck everyone. Selfish. Narcissistic. Pieces of shit. All anyone cares about is looking good or cool on social media. Shallow basic bitches all of you.

At 4:45 this morning some idiots robbing the house that was being built and has since been abandoned started banging around with hammers on the metal roofing to take it. ITS SUNDAY AT 4:45 am. Now I give ZERO fucks that they’re stealing. The people who were trying to build are liars and assholes. But now it’s MY problem because I want to sleep and they’ve left a cookie on the table and walked away. These owners are Argentinian and by the way ARGIES SUCK. They’re cheap. They think they’re cool. Their accent is annoying. Their pizza is the worst. They want to be italian so bad but will never be that cool. Argies from buenos aires even worse and they all think the world could use yet another air bnb. Hence the reason I’m laying here awake, in the dark on a Sunday while these assholes are sleeping in their comfy beds in buenos Aires. And because this is costa rica and the guys robbing their house could be dangerous so I can’t say anything. Our police don’t do anything.

some people are just really mean, like it's their personality

im so tired of my human body i hate it i want to go back to tripwire but then i remember raphael and quinn i want to cry

So I'm really in a confused state not sure how much of this can be understood but here goes.. I'm happily married and my husband is my love and life personified for me. But as of late a colleague who is 9 years older than me confessed Good feelings for me. We had a good rapport and just had started talking to each other. After this confession I started seeing him differently.. though he's definitely not my type but there's some allure to him.. obviously he was lightly flirting with me.. but I felt heard and seen when with him... I also wanted his company, wanted to talk to him.. but I always maintained there was nothing romantic but there was something. I'm not able to make sense of what it is. And this consumes so much of my energy. Now he has stepped back a little though we remain cordial and he says he's still Friendly but I feel he's become more distant and I'm not liking it. He says it's because he doesn't want any problems in my marital life. What's wrong with me? What is this

I honestly hate the human race. Humans are so selfish and not caring. It’s honestly so sad to look at.