All Rants

everything aboslutely sucks. everyday Im constantly going through the cycle of school, trying to live life as if it matters to me. days go day by day. Middle school is horrible. gum stucked up everywhere, trying to act like I am okay. I hate people, I hate trying to doing anything. But I'm constantly pushed around until I cry. I hate wasting my words on people. I hate trying to just get through their thick skulls I'm not a she/her anymore. IM A THEY/THEM FOR SAKE!. I hate trying to look normal. I hate trying to just feel seen and validated. I have others in my life that are struggling harshly. I feel like I'm overreacting. but I cant do this anymore. Im trying to be 'positive' but man, that doesn't HELP. I feel horrible. I feel sick to the core. I feel like I can't do anything without messing up or making a fool of myself. I'm holding back killing myself because of my other friends. but it's getting harder. and harder. but. I'll try. I guess.

I feel like giving up. So much is going wrong in my life, yet its all on the inside for me. Yet, even though I'm at my worst, I find ways to go lower. I invalidate my feelings to the point of feeling like I'm not living my own life. So many times I've snapped myself out of zoning out, or I've stopped for a moment and felt like my control suddenly was regained in the moment. I felt like I was watching a television show about my own life. I'm so scared for my best friend because she's in a terrible place and she's suicidal, so I constantly invalidate my own suicidal thoughts and my own feelings so that I can care for her. I'm Christian so I'm ruining my life when I think about killing myself, or watch porn, or swear, or do anything I'm currently doing right now. Temptation is eating at me, and its making me wither away. I've come to my senses enough to not fully want to give everything up, but trusting God always has a plan for me isn't enough most times. I want kids.. I can't die yet.

my bf keeps pissing me off, ik hes a guest at my house but h acts incapable of doing things like making tuna pasta or beans on toast and it just angers me. he literally woke me up ao i could make him tuna fucling pasta i love him but like your not incapable of finding things to eat, or like he said he wanted to go out and smoke then i said ok we can go out now and he saod no i’m too tired can you turn off the light am ik im overreacting but im just annoyed at everything he don’t respect my boundaries either so m i’m just fed up

I dont think my boyfriend likes me anymore. I wanted him to come to prom with me and offered to pay for everything, but he declined and gave the excuse that he didn't want me to pay for anything. I pressed but he didn't express much interest in going. I can't tell if it's because he genuinely feels bad or doesn't want to come, but i feel unhappy cause he finds the money to spend on literally anything else. Im not saying I want him to redirect all the money from his hobbies and stuff to come with me to prom (which he's already been to), but it would have been nice to see him try or smth idk. Cause I told him super long ago about prom, so he could get his stuff together and whatnot, but he kept going back and forth until the very last minute to buy tickets, to ruin my hope and say no. I felt offended by that and it made me really upset. I'm trying to continue as normal but its hard and I dont wanna say anything cause ik he's gonna make it a money thing, and its not.

I like a friend of mine who won’t like me back ever. Trust me they won’t ever no matter what

JUST FOUND OUT MY SISTER IS AN ABLEIST idk what to do...( for those who don't know an ableist is a person who makes fun of people with disabilities or something like that)

my ex is in a coma now and its my fault. i still love him and i want him to wake up so badly

My dad is a police oficer and i know why people are scared of them but they take it out on me because im his daughter. they dont understand what its like in my household my father has ptsd and a short temper my room isnt clean he screams at me i didnt hear him the first time he screams at me. my grades cant be lower then an A-. after he yells at me he just acts like nothing happend and like hes the best father in the world. I dont want to got to a cousler or theripist beacuse i dont want cps called so like him i just bottle everthing up. sometimes i snap yesterday i broke the drywall in my garage and a month before that i broke a glass perfume bottle when i threw it across the room.

One of my friends said somthing to my ex about how me and him broke up becauses his mom made us and then he got suciadal and put himself in a coma he still hasnt woken up its been 4 days i still like him and i cant move on.

i wanna die i cant keep doing things anymore

I just found out that a family member has a fatal cancer (stage 3 or 4) and it’s the same kind of cancer my grandma had. my grandma lived with us while doing at home hospice and all i can think about is how i slowly watched her lose her personality and give up. i’m so tired of medical issues and just life in general. i ended up relapsing after being told about my family member but i need to get these feelings out of my head. i just want one week without something life changing happening. here’s to being scared of the future 💚

i'm so mad and hurt right now. i just spent weeks working on a huge assignment for a class, over 20 sources, around 30 pages once finished and been burning myself out trying to finish it for the deadline. like literally turning my brain into mush writing for 11 hours a day this past week. i finally finish it and actually make a title thats fitting and kinda funny and i love, and i want to show it to my parents. love my mom so much, she was amazing and proofread everything and helped me with it. i read my title to my dad waiting for a "good job" sorta thing but fucking no. i get "wow sounds like a load of shit". i've never been more disappointed and hurt with one sentence before. you have no fucking clue the amount of effort and love i put into this paper and you disregard it over what? a long-ish title? fuck you, i'm never sharing things i care about again with you, i've given you enough chances

So, I'm a young lesbian in a extremely religious and traditional house.. Today I accidentally told my 4 year old brother that I'm gay, it just escaped, and then my anxiety got me.. Like, my parents know I'm gay but they don't support me.. And if they found out? I was scared.. My brother told them and my father began shouting at me, acting like I was a mistake and now I'm manipulating my brother to be a failure like me..

I'm constantly applying to job listings outside of my busy school life in college and have not seen that many results. Some places have requested interviews and some have not given a single response. When I do receive an email about a potential opportunity, my eyes open with hope only to find out it's a rejection letter. I know that I can do better but i'm also tired of hearing the generic responses that peers have told me as if I haven't tried hard enough. Overall, i've started to lose hope in it , feeling like i'm not good enough while also gaining fear for future hiring experiences in the long-term.

I hate everything. im left out my friends aren't talking to me anymore and my parents keep forcing islam on me i just want to commit atp but i can't because im too scared to go trough with it. my girl best friend ist talking to me anymore not even in school, the friend group im in has a new group where everyone is and they go out but i just don't get invited no one tells me shit amd when i ask they say "mb we forgot to tell you" i just feel useless and like nobody cares about me i have helped countless people to get out of their problems just for them to fucking leave me and stop talking to me. also i met a girl a month ago and im in love with her and she knows it I've stopped trying tho so now were just friends, in the last week i had a feeling that she doesn't like me anymore either i always ask her if we wanna do sum and yes she does say yes but it isn't us talking anymore its just her responding idk what to do atp and i just need someone to make me feel like im not worthless.

is it bad that im scared my bsf might be replacing me

I honestly do NOT know if im just overreacting or not but I hate it when people ask me to speak even though they've told me to shut up, told me my voice was annoying, or just straight-up mocked me. Like its been a repetitive thing and ive been trying to act casual about it but the more it happens the worse effect is has on me. I can barely even answer questions anymore at school and such because of it. I honestly feel pathetic and sensitive over it but its happened too many times and its soo tiring aubghhhhh

I hate her. I have never hated anyone. It's consuming me. I understand why people do bad things

Hi I’m 19f and I just started college in the fall, I graduated high school class at 2025 and the last part of my senior year I had a horrendous relationship break up, I don’t wanna talk much about it, but it was my first ever relationship as I am quite a late bloomer and it was really hard for me. I tried to lean on my friends, but I guess because we were at the end of high school. It was mostly during the summer. Everyone was kind of checked out and ready to start this new chapter of their lives. This breakup sent me into a deep depression because I was cheated on and replaced and like I said it’s the first time I’ve ever been in a relationship before so it sent me into a depression. My parents got tired of it and were harsh with their words every day about it, they were tired of me being sad abouy it and just wanted me to go back to normal. My best friend after 4 months told me she didn’t want to talk about it anymore, and I started getting harsh comments from a lot of people about

I feel like I’m not grateful enough for everything that I have, loving parents, money, friends but some days I feel tired, and now I think I’m a fat lazy cow.but I don’t wanna feel that I wanna be toned,smart,good relationship with people and family, but when I try I just stop I feel like a slob and I make routines and schedules but they don’t help and I feel like I’ll die alone as a fat chud.