All Rants

big tech knows how my brain works. anytime I complain about parking lots in america being too big, it somehow monitors my thoughts and automatically triggers the ticking noise from my water meter. I loathe, dread, hate, despise, am frustrated, am super irritated about the ticking noise from the water meter!

Going on a momo date with my bf. I hope he feeds me well and eat me later

the way men have treated me in my life makes me want to kill myself. I don't want to be on a planet full of such a truly evil group of people. So many guys have told me to kill myself and they're gonna get their fucking wish because i can't stand living around them. :(

Im pathetic. Im actually so fucking pathetic. I like this guy. Im not going far as to say love, but I am attracted to him as we just met. and I acted like such a fucking IDIOT. I was nervous and I knew he could see it. and he sends mixed signals. He said "I don't really do romance". Which, yeah sure, fine. Whatever. Says I'm smart and that he likes that, grins like an idiot when he walked off for a second, talked about me to his friends (I know cause one pointed at me from far away and it didn't seem like anything bad), Hugs me goodbye, does a handshake with me, and gets my insta. I don't think he likes me like that yet, but all my friends say he does. I need cold honest truth from strangers here, does he? should I be more forward?

I'm such a fucking loser I want to kms

now that i’ve been out of school and actually finished traveling and alone with my thoughts everything is too loud. i keep thinking of things that happened to me / around me when i was younger and i haven’t told anyone and it’s been years. but i can’t help but cry everytime and i wish to get therapy but my parents voice just always comes in my head saying “who needs therapy, you don’t need to cry unless you broke a bone” i keep getting thoughts about back then i know what happened wasn’t a normal thing a kid should’ve went through but i don’t how to get help and i just wish i could talk to someone without crying before i can speak

I love my girlfriend but she’s bad shit insane with this reality warping stuff

All i wanted to do was make a craft mom :( Im not gonna c^t myself…i just wanted a craft project to do. You don’t trust me..huh? I really wish you gave me to God so bad… a vacation isn’t enough to escape. I wanna sleep but I wake up at 5am…every day. Gosh I wish i could just sleep for a little while longer to escape my problems. I’m not gonna get a job. No one wants a disabled worker. I’m not gonna get married…but how I yearn for it… Mom..I wish you gave me up. I wish you gave me back to God. I wish you never had me.

i hope this comes to the right person. if you saw the rant about kfc. Alert. My brother gave me one and it’s lowkey amazing now, new location. He gave me the box and the rest of his drink (he is very serious about his drinks, oh and knows I have depression) life feels good tonight. then it’ll feel like jankslop tmr. yay!

My friends fuck with me because of my voice and because I act sorta feminine. When I'm joking around or around ppl I feel comfortable with my voice gets higher and I act more "girly" and my friends are all like "omggg u sound zesty as fuck now gay ass" and like it just ruins the whole mood. If that happens ill start speaking in a deeper voice bc I usually don't even pay attention to it unless they pointed it out and then theyl be all like "well don't try and talk deep now I see u" Also on this note I feel like my friends could be right. I'm starting to go through puberty (just started 7th a couple weeks ago) and I'm pretty sure that I'm bisexual or gay or pan or something. I don't feel attracted to other genders as much as girls (im a guy) but I feel like I still like boys and shi. My family would be mostly accepting I think, but the idea of ppl actually knowing/thinking I was gay just fucks w me cause I don't wanna get bullied for dumb shit yk?

Is there a way to reset my brain so I forget what I learned? Because I’m genuinely traumatized and I love how you think it’s funny! Not my fault his photos connected to my iPad and I saw things! HAHAHA IM NOT TRAUMATIZED-…not at all. I’m not traumatized by seeing your s*x supplies!- not all! HAHAHHA IM NOT TRAUMATIZED. No wonder why i don’t trust you.

i’m so so so gay but i’m scared to tell anyone. i don’t know why like a lot of my friends are very accepting and my parents are too, i think it’s just the idea of admitting ti myself that i won’t have the perfect life i imagined with a husband and kids. and my friends have been making jokes about how i’m going to be a lesbian when i go to uni and i’ve been denying it. If i tell them how i feel they are just going to be like i told u so. also what if it’s a phase and i’m attention seeking. like men don’t do anything for me but like i could see myself dating one but women are on a whole other level

This is really fucking embarrassing even if its anonymous. I feel like such a freak typing this. I'm 12 and I think I'm hypersexual. I jerk off multiple times a day if I have access to porn. I can't just take myself away from my devices and do something else either, because my stupid fucking head starts thinking of the things I saw and I can't make it stop until I'm in my bed jerking off again. I'm doing nothing to try and make it better because I know I can't. I've tried in the past to stop but I just cant. I'm so sorry to anyone who read this. I shouldn't even post this.

genuinely omg idk if it’s my problem. but i was cutting apples (craving them. I usually hate apples. Besides the point.) it’s like, 9:30 by now. My dads outside the house doing business, and then my moms like “what food do you want” and my twin brother, always gaming wants kfc wings, and im like “no I don’t want those bcuz they’re overcooked but also undercooked” and I also have a sensory thing with chicken that’s slimy and you see the redness, EW. But anyway, I didn’t want that. My mom lowkey didn’t care and got what my brother wanted. I went upstairs all pissed, she called me to her room and was like “what do you want from there?” And I said “kfc isn’t good right now, I don’t want anything”, and my mom says “oh your dad will get something else”, and I always feel like a burden, so I said “oh but I don’t want him going two places”. I kinda expected maybe a drink.. or they can see that I feel upset they listened to only him. Anyway, long story short. Got the food. Nothing for me. Yay..

What does someone even do when they miss all 3 marks. Smart, pretty, and athletic

Theres this kid at my school who might be sexually or just normally harassing/assaulting me. He sort of like grabs my thigh and squeezes it and also tries to lean on my shoulder. We're both boys and I feel disgusting because I kind of like it. I know its wrong and I want him to stop so ill say stop, but I sorta n laugh whenever I say it so it doesn't sound very serious and I hate that I keep doing it. I'm in 7th grade if that matters at all.

I don’t miss you. I miss who I was before everything hurt.

I just started high school and I was really looking forward to making new friends. But turns out there’s like no one new, I know every single person in all my classes. I love my old friends I just don’t think they love me. I just follow them around like such a loser cause I have no one else to hang out with. I never get invited to there hangouts, and I just feel so lonely. Everytime I try to branch out and make friends with people they will give me like dirty looks and they seem like they don’t wanna talk to me. I keep praying that things will get better but they arent. School is already hard for me and when nobody likes me it makes everything worse. I don’t really know why, but it feels like my whole grade just got together and decided that they didn’t like me. I have never done anything mean but everyone hates me and I just don’t understand why. And when I try to be nice people call me a wanna be and that I wanna be popular but I don’t I just want friends.

it is so interesting how my roommates’ paranoia stems from how often THEY eavesdrop on me. what i mean is they always think im listening in on them through the vents. im not. yet ive gotten in trouble countless times because they heard a conversation not meant for them. i was told i was being “out of character” for what i said behind closed doors. are you familiar with the concept of secrets? jesus christ. mind you, theyre twice my age too. like what a joke

Ive been texting my friend but I feel so alone and bored and empty bc she's not texting back, and when she does, and I text her, she just says nothing, and I feel rlly sad abt it, so I just end up crying and I think she hates me and doesn't like me:(