All Rants

I don’t miss you. I miss who I was before everything hurt.

I just started high school and I was really looking forward to making new friends. But turns out there’s like no one new, I know every single person in all my classes. I love my old friends I just don’t think they love me. I just follow them around like such a loser cause I have no one else to hang out with. I never get invited to there hangouts, and I just feel so lonely. Everytime I try to branch out and make friends with people they will give me like dirty looks and they seem like they don’t wanna talk to me. I keep praying that things will get better but they arent. School is already hard for me and when nobody likes me it makes everything worse. I don’t really know why, but it feels like my whole grade just got together and decided that they didn’t like me. I have never done anything mean but everyone hates me and I just don’t understand why. And when I try to be nice people call me a wanna be and that I wanna be popular but I don’t I just want friends.

it is so interesting how my roommates’ paranoia stems from how often THEY eavesdrop on me. what i mean is they always think im listening in on them through the vents. im not. yet ive gotten in trouble countless times because they heard a conversation not meant for them. i was told i was being “out of character” for what i said behind closed doors. are you familiar with the concept of secrets? jesus christ. mind you, theyre twice my age too. like what a joke

Ive been texting my friend but I feel so alone and bored and empty bc she's not texting back, and when she does, and I text her, she just says nothing, and I feel rlly sad abt it, so I just end up crying and I think she hates me and doesn't like me:(

i'm trying to find a dress to wear to this wedding and nothing fits and i feel fat and ugly and nothing looks pretty online and i don't know what to do i'm trying to stay neutral about it but i don't know who i can vent to or if i even should because it might make people feel bad about themselves or get mad at me i feel fat

I literally hate myself. I have this friend and we barely met last month since we go to high school together now and I feel like a jerk every time we hang out, since I barely talk but it's awkward since she barely talks too. Last week me and all my friends had the same class and she was looking at me weirdly when I was talking so casually with the other girls but I mean come on I have known them longer than her. They invited me to eat lunch with them and idk it just feels more natural with them. Someone anyone! Give me advice on how I can be a better friend.

I want to break up im so sorry. I cant be your boyfriend anymore because it doesnt feel right, but I cant tell you that because I dont want you to hurt yourself.

I bought my bf a computer as a gift since he’s started university. If I’m being honest it would mostly serve as decoration since I’d likely end up doing all his schoolwork for him since he can barely read or write. Tonight he accidentally dropped it and it broke. I know it was a mistake but it’s so frustrating. Out of anger I told him to just sign onto my computer because since I do everything anyways at least now we can skip the back and forth of “no it’s fine, I can do it” and me having to go over work that looks like a 3rd grader wrote it and basically rewrite everything. I’m in nursing school and have multiple assignments to do, pass or drop tests to study for and clinicals to worry about. I hate how stupid he is but he’s also so kind, funny and caring. I’m so tired but I feel stuck. Not within our relationship but I wish he’d just get smarter overnight so I don’t have to look over his work like a child.

Simply put STOP THE FUCKING THUMPING ITS DRIVING ME FUCKING NUTS

Idgaf what sony does. I simply don't support them anymore in the first place. But don't tell people to stfu. everybody has their own opinion. IDGAF what anybody thinks.Don't like what Sony is doing there are other ways to game. I'm very aware of the argument. I don't get why people make drama out of something that's actually not that important. You know there are people that are homeless and hungry out there. Gaming is a luxury, not a necessity. People don't appreciate the blessings they have these days.

i’ve been struggling with mental health for years and sometimes i feel like i don’t have anyone, but i do. i guess i just wanted to say that I’m struggling. im about to start college again and last time i struggled and i feel that coming on again. i dont want to worry my mom bc im already far away. i have friends but i dont want to bother anyone.

help i js wanna die so baddddd

The next button is still broken.

Is it ok to dream about being a mother and a wife, dreaming a live away from my toxic home? Or am I wasting time

The urge is killing me 😂 I cant fucking handle it anymore 😂😂😂 Fuck my life 😂

There is only one person in this world who I feel can truly understand what is going on in my mind right now, but I physically can not bring myself to reach out to her. She was my friend of 7 years, and despite betraying my trust and using me for my selflessness one too many times, I still feel like it was my fault. I have other people to talk to but it doesn’t feel the same. They are friends with each other. I’m just the older coworker who happens to listen to the same music. I still talk to someone from high school occasionally, but he has his own life. I can’t open up to him like I did with her because he genuinely would not understand any of it. He doesn’t know what I have done, or what I have gone through in the last 7 years. She did.

I want to self harm so bad, and I want it to scar but at the same time im terried to go deeper then just cat scratches. Im wondering if I cut everyday, will it scar even if its deep? Google won't answer me and im so scared to ask others for help so idk what to do. I want to try relapsing everyday but its summer, I dont want peope to notice but at the same time I do? Im so confused. Im not even sure if I want the scars anymore im now just wondering if its just me having a very bad urge to cut. I dont even have any reason to self harm right now, the urge is just so hard for me to deal with right now.

Just a closer still stuck in school while everyone is above with sick older parents that don't deserve a deadbeat child and a falling passion in everything, nothing gives me joy anymore, and if it does its rather unhealthy or limited, a failing relationship with spirituality too

is it weird that my dad works 10h/week and gets summers off while my mom works 40-60 hours and just sits around all day watching the news? he's always buying get rich courses and weird health crap but only eats frozen meals and probably only goes for a walk once a month, otherwise he literally just sleeps, is on the computer, or running errands. oh and he leases a new car every 3-4 years and had the audacity to ask my mom to move into a nicer house across the city lmao. no way this is real

I hate teaching in this school. The students talk too much and I don't feel respected as their teacher. I regretted choosing this school.