So I'm an aspiring modder for videogames. Recently I finally started my modding journey by creating a custom character for a mod called Rethawed, basically a mod that mashes up every single Tony Hawk game (characters, maps, etc.) within Tony Hawk's American Wasteland and gives you the chance to mod your favorite charcters into the game without having to replace other ones. Some time ago, some Discord related drama happened, TLDR one dev was basically a bigot and of course mod's reputation is ruined. As for what this has to do with me, honestly nothing..I just wanted to create a mod for a game I like playing and unlike others I've managed to seprate the art form the artist and hope that the mod doesn't fully die just because some edgelord happens to be part of the team, but the frustration from both the drama and the fact that I've been working on a character mod for literaly a month, has a done a number on my mind especially with other stuff going on my life being a disabled person
Recent Rants
For context I'm really introverted, I literally won't talk to anyone unless they start the conversation first. I've recently moved states and no know one and haven't made any friends, I've baisically given up by now. I don't know what to do and it's made me feel lonely. I want to talk to my friends online about it but I just can't get myself to because I've never really done that before. I just use my status as a small space for venting I guess. I've had one person ask me if I'm ok and I talked to them for a bit but I really didn't say everything I wanted to because I felt scared to for some reason. I guess I just didn't know what they would think about it. I just hope someone else sees and asks as well so I can talk more.
I am possibly getting my first house tomorrow and I am so scared that something will go wrong
Have u ever hated someone’s guts and they hate urs but when u were balling ur eyes out they were the only one sitting right next to u and ur closest friends didn’t even care
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I hate how i had to learn my mother killed someone, I didn’t truly know her, I’ve never met her beefore, I just remember when i was 12, It was 5 in the morning, and my father sent me something the night before, an article. She had killed my half-sibling years ago.
I FUCKING HATE MYSELF SO MUCH I WISH I WAS DEAD I HATE THIS I HATE EVERYONE BUT I LOVE MY FRIENDS SO MUCH UHSGSHGDHSHSHDHDGGGHHH WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME WHY CAN'T I FUCKING DIE ALREADY IF I WASNT SUCH A PUSSY I WOULDVE BEEN DEAD ALREADY I HATE MYSELF SO MUCH I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF WHY DO I KEEP BOTTLING SHIT UP IM SO FUCKING STUPID JESUS FUCKING CHRIST UGHHHH DEAR GOD I JUST WISH I WASNT SO FUCKING ANNOYING IM SUCH A BITCH IM SUCH A COWARD I SHOULD KILL MYSELF I HATE THIS I CAN'T DO THIS ANYMORE I CAN'T TAKE THIS I WANNA DIE PLEASE DEAR GOD JUST FUCKING KILL ME PLEASDEEEEEEE I BEG YOU PLE
why can't I be better. why can't i stop this habit. why must i do this to myself. why can't i just stop?? why can't i just be better. it shouldnt be hard. i shouldnt have even gotten this far in the first place. ive tried to stop so many times. i am so worthless. no one knows. should i tell them? they would judge me. they might think of me worse. no one can know. i just want to be back to how i was before. i wish this never happened. i wish i was better. why cant i be better. i am just so tired of this but i just cant stop but i should stop. i am so tired. ive been tired for so long. i just want to be fixed. i wish it never happened. my mind is so loud. my thoughts are so dark. this is never what i wanted. i just wanted to be happy and i was just curious. now i'm stuck here- trying to climb out but always slipping back into the darkness. i just want to be better, but i feel like i'm stuck in the dark.
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I am 21 years old. I am studying Law, in my third of fourth year. I am getting a financial assistance which covers for only 4 to 5 years. I have always wanted to study health science courses but due to rejection I opted to a Law degree which I am not really fond of. I didn’t want to sit around and do not do anything. I am considering of changing to another degree but I might have financial difficulties next year. Should I finish the Law degree or should I change to the course I want to do?
Im so tired and I dont know what to do i dont see a future for myself I have already been to the mental hospital 6 times several suicide attempts some landing me in the hospital and one in a short coma and i have been struggling with SH I barely have friends I lost the love of my life I feel like a alien in my house and well everywhere im starting to believe my life isn't real or anything is to the point I cant feel parts of my body sometimes I always on auto pilot and I dont know how to talk to people I used to be able but that was before I was SAed by my two family member at 3 and my depression and personality disorder started getting worse all my life I have been abused and I just turned 15 my dad sexually mentally and physically abused me when I was born to around 5 and my step dad abused me to 5 to a couple months ago and my mom is getting divorced again I feel like a failure all o I everyday is sulk and miss people I dont have anymore and im tired of it I just want a release
I hate ai so much. I hate it so so much. Art is about humanity, the fact that generative ai takes artworks, filled with human emotion and destroys it is absolutely disgusting. And for what. I hate it I hate it I hate it. Have all my efforts been for naut? Are the literal blood, sweat and tears I put into it not good enough for you, I bleed for my work I pour my soul into every single thing I make, to have it be distorted like that, I hate it so much I want to die.
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This guy said women belong jnthe kitchen,catcalled me,short skirt,teacher i cant focus bc names shoulders are showing
This guy whipped me (gr 5 you probs think what im doing here)with a jump rope,i have a bruise ,ppl fat shame me and shi,ppl dont wanna be my friend bc of my past...
If I were to say I was going to vent about gender equality what gender would you think about first? I bet that the majority would say women. Now if I were to say I would talk about gender equality with women being the higher up ones I bet the majority would also think Im a bad person or something along those lines. But that is the problem. That's why so many young men dont seek help because they are taught that women's feelings are the priority. And call be dramatic but its not. Society has made it a norm that men provide and women consume. That's not true. Women shouldn't be given that title. Men shouldn't be given that responsibility. It isn't fair. In grade school it was always the girls go in the front of the line. Its because they are trying to fix the men more important thing by making women seem more important. But that's not how you fix something. We need to stop doing it. How we fix that is eliminating gender roles. Both are equal neither get priority. Neither are better.
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I'm here because I genuinely have no one to talk to about this. 6 years ago, my parent separated and my dad married his 4th wife 2 years later. It was hard for me, but tons of divorces happen to people of different backgrounds, so I got over it. Fastforward to now, 2026, I found out 2 weeks ago that my dad has been paying people to stalk my mum. I never understood why she always fought for custody despite not having much, but now I understand. Since she left, he has paid people to make her life miserable. She started up a bakery, and in 2 weeks lost all her customers to a bigger bakery that started up way after her. I cant help because I dont have any money and my dad's threatening me with pulling me out of school if I try anything. I dont know if he knows that I know what he has been doing, but I need to help my mum somehow. I also can't fail school, but all this is just too much mental pressure.
Feeling very depressed. The other day my mother woke up in the middle of the night because she had. A nightmare, I heard her rush to my sister's room and cry to her how she was so worried about her commiting suicide when I'm the one who's been at risk and passively suicidal for the last 6 years almost. I felt so empty that night, I tried ignoring it but it just hurt a whole lot, my parents keep saying I'm the favorite but it's clear they care more about my sister's well being than about mine. Thought back to it because I'm having a big sad. Thought sharing it would help a little.
It's painful knowing someone one minute in their room drawing, and taking pics together and laughing to make memories. To someone who is now that drawing, picture on the wall as a distant memory. I forgive you too. I hope you can forgive me.
I fucking hate being disabled and how it bleeds into every part of my life. I feel like I'm losing so many friendships because I can't do everything the way I want to anymore, and then I get to watch people leave me behind. What's worse is when people start doing activities that I've been suggesting for months the moment I can't participate in them. They claim to be my friends but wouldn't they make more of an effort if they were? Wouldn't they take at least one opportunity to hang out with me? I would jump at an opportunity to hang out with them, but I barely get the chance. And even if I push myself to the point of pain just to be included, it doesn't matter. I just have to hurt and be alone.