All Rants

I found out I was going to graduate earlier than I was supposed to and when I told my mom she wasn't happy for me but it was a big deal because my entire life growing up I thought I was never going to graduate because I have learning disabilities and social anxiety so I couldn't be in big classrooms

I feel so frocking guilty for something I did in like January. My friend was being downright mean to me for ages, she told me I didn't have a personality, ignored me, and hinted to me that others hated me. I tried to vent to my other friends, but they either agreed with her or didn't care. I ANONYMOUSLY posted on a reddit forum, about the situation, different times as it progressed, asking different questions and trying to feel heard by someone. These posts DIDNT HAVE NAMES, AGES OR SCHOOLS, at all. No one irl knew my account. Anyway, about a month after, I told my BFF about these posts, she thought they were funny (considering they got like 4 comments max) and we laughed it off. She told them, she told a friend, who created a secret gc behind my back with screenshots and added someone who wasn't involved who I had had a shaky past with. One friend was fuming. They kept playing nice. And when I finally found out. I apologised. None OF THEM APOLOGISED for the gc or OG comments,

I hate and like this friend at the same time sometimes. But mostly hate her. She’s my good friend and I only have 2 good friends from college. I am not jealous of her no way cause I look way better than her but even then she’s the one who seems to get more attention from everyone even the people who don’t know us and are meeting for the first time. They’d greet her but choose not to greet me. Wow. I hate her. And she’s so full of herself. She always talks about her own life and things revolving around her. Eventually I stopped sharing my life events with her cause she’d always find a way to mock or humiliate me. And the funny part is I don’t do the same cause I am a supportive person but then she finds a way to mock me again for not mocking her the way she does to me. I feel like I should cut her off but then she briefly acts like she’s the bestest friend I’ve ever had. I hate that she looks so average and still gets more attention than me.

My psychiatrist canceled my zoom appointment without telling me so I sat for 15 minutes in a virtual waiting room until I called his office and found out. I have to stop taking a medication immediately due to awful side effects and now I have no replacement or guidance until he can see me in 2 weeks. I am also pregnant and very emotional due to that as well. I am absolutely livid and frustrated and upset.

I wanna jerk off since I can't fall asleep

I honestly don’t even know how to process this. I’m just frustrated. I was there in real life, present, giving attention, care, and affection. We spent time together, built something that actually felt real, and shared moments that meant something to me. And somehow, that still wasn’t enough. What really gets me is that I lost to something that only exists online. Someone she met on Twitter, someone she has never even seen in real life. I get that feelings aren’t always logical, but it’s hard not to feel like this is unfair. Right now I’m not even sad, I’m just angry. Angry because I showed up, I was real, and in the end that didn’t matter the way I thought it would How the hell do you trade someone real someone who’s there for you, who gives you care, affection, and love for someone you met on Twitter and have never even seen in real life?????

Im tired of someone who doesn't believe in god literally like they are so brainwashed by the internet that talked about 'if you are gay, you are going to hell', 'if you killed yourself, you are going to hell'.. like they dont even try to do deep search and just stick with it. I have a friend who's born christian and later leave christianity because of social media; (I do not defending those predators) she saw the news about cases.. lots of cases happening.. I've been taught about christianity deeper than anyone and I understand more k? i've posted about the 'misunderstanding' of christianity.. and as a person who thought they could help these people thought "she probably read my explaination" oh does she? I saw her talking about Hating Sheldon mom for being hypocrite and sinner.. (in those paragraph, I've talked about not all christians are perfect). Social Media ruined faith, note this.

Here is the long awaited part 2 of this. Throughout my life I have tried learning many things, but I cannot really say I am good at one exact thing, ever since AI became mainstream I have "larped" everything in life. This includes computer science knowledge, and even school subjects. I wish that I could learn something myself but in the end it has not worked out. My future plans were to go to ROTC in college and go into the US Air Force, however at this point in life I do not know what I can achieve. I wish I could just be homeschooled and be a shut in for the rest of my life, but I know I need to do something productive. I am so close to going home from school today and venting everything to my parents even though my dad only partially listens. I got evaluated to go to a mental hospital once and I had to lie saying I just wanted to kill myself to "skip school" to the doctor doing the evaluation. I am a failure hiding behind false success.

This is my first time on a site like this, and I just wanted to feel heard and gain feedback. Everyday I go to school (try to) and then go home. School is dreadful, my parents just say that it is normal however I always feel judged and stared at. I feel like I am chopped and that I have niche interests that nobody cares about. Anytime I talk to someone I feel dismissed unless it is something that they want to talk about, I play games online with school friends but to what reason? In society for me, people need to meet a certain threshold in appearances in order to make it. I have tried to end it in the past, I have diagnosed severe depression and anxiety. I quit seeing a therapist around a year and a half ago because I was getting better until recently... Recently I have been skipping school by faking sick and throwing up due to it, my stomach hurts all the time and I skip my meds thinking I do not need them. I will post a follow up after this message.

hi butterflys today i just wana say i really wana kill myself tbh when my mom was still here she was the best but when i turned gr 2 it was all the worst bc when i was in gr 5 people talk bad abt me and made me insecure and since now i miss my mom now ik what ur thinking why dont you just idk chat her bcuz she is bussy working to keep food for us to eat and a roof on our head also she is working somewhere else way so she is not here and also i just cant take it anymore my bff back stab me my classmate made fun of me i just want my mom back home.....i cant take it anymore my life is shi and i cant tell anyone bc i feel something in me like no give them a chance its always like that i just........i really really wana die. bye butterflys-

hi guys i chose a name for yall i chose butterfly bc there pretty and im sure you guys are to bye butterflys

I think im in love with my best friend and I don’t know what to do about it. It’s cliche and dumb but it’s eating me from the inside. She don’t like me like that. I don’t think she’ll ever like me like that. We are just friends. Plus we are both girls, which is not great for me. My family is hella right winged and religious and I’m supposed to be right winged and religious. But noooo of course not. I’m obsessed with her. I could go on and on about how much I adore her. If there wasn’t a charcuterie limit I probably would. It’s so bad. I just need to get over here one way or another please. This is torture. I feel like a yearner final boss.

hi yall so i wana talk abt my life i have a best freind lets just call her violet not her real name btw anyways so weve been freinds for so many years like 11 years so today we played badminton with some other freinds also me and her life right next to each other so me and some freinds played badminton it was fun until our shuttle got stuck on a roof so yeah we were just walking and talking then other freinds talk about boys like who they like or use to like and like yeah i wasnt intrested im not into girls okay i just dont care so i sed nice and they sed i bet ur lesbian cuz ur not really intrested of boys but i sed no i just dont care they made fun of me and this one girl lets call her nika she ask violet my bff why do u hang out with her she is weird...and violet side with the freinds that made fun of me and it really hurt me cuz for 11 years ur saiying u will side with them anyways thats all guys Love Yall-

Bring bACK the prompts! ACK Why change somethin' when nothin' was WRONG with IT!??!

I don't want to assume the worst of my father but I've always disliked him. He has treated my mother horribly for the past 5 or so years atleast to the point I've noticed. But beside that point he's been much more touchy with me and calling me odd petnames, it came out of the blue but it feels like he's looking at me differently, I feel uncomfortable and I don't want to assume it but I'm really hoping atp it's just paranoia and that Its not true but I think that he is looking at me in a way a father shouldn't look at a son. and by recently I mean like less than 2 days ago, he randomly comes in my room to hug and kiss me or he hugs me from behind while I do something, I don't know it's just making me really scared and uncomfortable. I have been Sexually assaulted in the past and don't want to assume that's something he would do but I'm very horribly afraid and have been trying to avoid him because of his touchiness

my past employers from a PR firm in Singapore and Malaysia are brainwashing people to harass and stalk me, send me subliminals, uploaded a peer to peer sharing app to my previous laptop, used people i just met to manipulate me and convince me i am not good. when i haven't even looked for them. These people are called Danielle Chow, Mervyn Lee, Krisha Maree Ramos, and Rengeeta. Boycott their agency. They are known to protect misogynists and the women there performatively celebrate "humbling" employees that they think are lesser. The name of the agency is Mad Hat Asia. They have been harassing me since 2025 since finding out where i work, regularly convincing my current employers there's something wrong with me when there isn't anything at all. They are smearing me and causing me stalking and harassment cause their own lives suck. These people look worse for wear from where i left them and they are jealous and miserable. BOYCOTT MAD HAT ASIA.

So I'm an aspiring modder for videogames. Recently I finally started my modding journey by creating a custom character for a mod called Rethawed, basically a mod that mashes up every single Tony Hawk game (characters, maps, etc.) within Tony Hawk's American Wasteland and gives you the chance to mod your favorite charcters into the game without having to replace other ones. Some time ago, some Discord related drama happened, TLDR one dev was basically a bigot and of course mod's reputation is ruined. As for what this has to do with me, honestly nothing..I just wanted to create a mod for a game I like playing and unlike others I've managed to seprate the art form the artist and hope that the mod doesn't fully die just because some edgelord happens to be part of the team, but the frustration from both the drama and the fact that I've been working on a character mod for literaly a month, has a done a number on my mind especially with other stuff going on my life being a disabled person

For context I'm really introverted, I literally won't talk to anyone unless they start the conversation first. I've recently moved states and no know one and haven't made any friends, I've baisically given up by now. I don't know what to do and it's made me feel lonely. I want to talk to my friends online about it but I just can't get myself to because I've never really done that before. I just use my status as a small space for venting I guess. I've had one person ask me if I'm ok and I talked to them for a bit but I really didn't say everything I wanted to because I felt scared to for some reason. I guess I just didn't know what they would think about it. I just hope someone else sees and asks as well so I can talk more.

I am possibly getting my first house tomorrow and I am so scared that something will go wrong

Have u ever hated someone’s guts and they hate urs but when u were balling ur eyes out they were the only one sitting right next to u and ur closest friends didn’t even care