All Rants

Life gets so much better once you stop caring and I don’t just mean stopping caring about what other people think. I mean accepting that some things have already happened, some things are out of your control, and there’s no point beating yourself over them I grew up extremely unattractive, like deadass ugly, deformities and everything I also struggled a lot mentally but I started doing so much better when I stopped dwelling on things I couldn’t change What happened already happened. What I cant change, I cant change. So why keep letting it ruin my life pls pls pls seriously keep this in mind it changed my life

I went through something bad a year ago, and here lately I've just been feeling lost. I feel all messed up and here lately I've been finding myself debating options I wouldn't have before. Sometimes I feel like running away from this home. My parents aren't bad, I just think I can't spend another moment In this house. I do online school, I don't talk to any one, my siblings hate me, my parents don't look at me the same way as they did before the incident. It's not that they don't like me it's just that they expect SO much from me and I can't give them that. I used to be a perfectionist, good grades, great at sports, (still had no friends lol). Now though my grades are struggling to stay at C's, I can't play sports, and I'm feeling so alone. I can't focus and my head always hurts. My parents keep fussing at me telling me I have a attitude. They're not wrong, I just don't know how to fix it. I don't care about anything anymore. I'm finding myself looking for paths to run away.

I had just blocked my friend for the second time. I tried blocking her once because me and her hardly talk now. And something happened between me and her and I act like what you would say a robot with her unless there’s another person on call then I try to be myself but she’s replaced me with another girl that will give her the attention and what not that she wants, but I’m pretty sure that girls also ruining the way she acts with people like she seems skittish and scared. Now I feel bad because I still love her as a friend but ever since I told her my bra size she’s magically wanted that bra size and now that she’s finally got it she brags it off. And already I’m a little sensitive when it comes to talking about a body or even compliments and I’ve tried so hard to just be her friend and listen and that and it’s just not working and it drains me and she’s trying to copy my own personality and the things that I do and my body, and I didn’t know what to do, but i’m over it a little bit.

being soooo cute and smart can be soooo hard man wow

I am so confused by my friend. When he first became friends we went to a party together at his boyfriend’s house! It was nice. Me, him and his boyfriend on the couch talking but then randomly after his boyfriend starts to get distracted by other stuff going on, he threw me over on my stomach and started to touch my bum. His boyfriend saw, look concerned but said nothing. Then I got up and laughed it off kind of like “ohhh…uh haha.” After that, he broke up with his boyfriend bc he said his boyfriend was rude. He then begged me to date him despite knowing I like women. After a few months of only saying “date me” to me, I accepted. But then he expected me to always hang out with him or he would hit my arm (not bruising but kinda hard tbh). Then we broke up bc he said I was ignoring him, but then he still talked to me after and said I’m like a sister to him. THEN PROCEEDED TO UNDRESS 💔 We still talk and he hasn’t done anything like that after a month, but he only talks abt me to me??

my mothers behaviour and attitude is slowly eating away at me and my dad (cant say about my sister). she doesnt help out or do anything to help out around the house or with the dog. she only cares about her politics and what her favourite party is doing. she doesnt care about anything else. its swayed her to be highly racist (she never used to be) and highly transphobic/anti LGBTQIA+, which sucks since im part of the LGBT+ community. she saw my asexuality as a problem to fix and screamed at me about it. shes incredibly lazy and doesnt do anything. she expects everyone to do everything for her. shes months behind on car service, and about a year behind on passports. i feel like my dad may be on the verge of a divorce but im not sure. im feeling like im drowning in stress and worry, but idk.

whenever my sister calls me names, nothing happens. whenever I call her names back, I get yelled at. it’s not fair. she gets freedom of everything yet I get none. and I know I can’t call her names because if I do im gonna get yelled at and something is gonna get thrown at me by her. it’s not fair at all.

Idk how to write this, my younger brother ended his life this year a few days after I stopped myself from doing it. We had a sh*t ton of plans together, dreams, and promises. I've known for years that it'd be me or him cause we were the black sheep of the fam. I keep thinking if I'd just gone and done it first would he have felt this love and stayed around? It's a stupid way of thinking. I know that, but it doesn't change that this is how I feel. Honestly every time I try to think of the future mine ended 4 yrs ago but cause of him I kept forcing myself to have dreams and goals I didn't even want. So tell me why he's gone now? I'm still in denial it's been months but every now and then I'll have something I want to talk about but no one to do it with because he was that person. I luckily got to thank him for being my brother, for loving me, and for being my friend before he passed. I can't forget that night. Worst part is I can't tell people, I don't want him remembered that way.

dude I want to die so badly. my life sucks so fucking much. i have the blade, i have the poison, i have the drugs, the alcohol, and the urge. but i need to make it to the 26th of November. i need to see my bsf/love interest celebrate and have fun without knowing that i could have been there. but im so scared that one day I’ll snap and kms before then. please help.

My girlfriend who I don’t love is so so sweet. When we got together I already warned her I just can’t properly feel emotions and I don’t love her, probably never will. She said she didn’t care though, she loved me and if I ever realized I had feelings for someone at all I could leave her for them, since she understood how impossible that would be and how happy I would feel to be able to love. I fell inlove now, just not for her. I left her, she let me. But the stupid thing is - I miss her so much. I didn’t miss her like this before, in fact I wanted her to leave me! It’s so frustrating to have someone who compliments everything you do when you can’t think anything of them. But now she really has left me and I want to cling to her so badly, I know it’s messed up. She’s pretty, smart, funny, kind. She did everything for a guy like me who never loved her, even hated her. And now she has the time to get over me and love a decent guy, but now I want her to be near me again.

I broke up with my girlfriend. We have been together for a year and a few months, but I had never loved her. I was groomed when I was 7 and ever since then I can’t really express or realize my emotions, I just feel like a blank thing - no emotions at all. Recently though, my friend of 3 years went to jail and I had to report her. She was planning to murder a group of people, she had a gun and prints of their homes so she could break in and easily kill them. I couldn’t let that happen obviously, that’s so wrong. I felt devastated though, and I could realize that. I told the cops and gave all the evidence etc. But now that she’s gone I realize I think I had feelings for her. I had never wanted to sleep next to someone before or thought of someone when I heard a song saying romantic lyrics, but now that she’s gone I see her face in everything. Her nice laugh, her soft eyes. I never felt like that for anyone. Ik my girl deserves better, someone who will treasure her like the gem she is.

I think im a little too deep in the trenches. Uhhhh guys is it a little too romantic for someone to write their love interest letters that they’ll never see and make them 3 playlists and draw them and write a stupid short story about living together and when they went out to get beverages for you and themselves you lowk sl1t your wrists in your bathtub and as you took your final breath, you heard the lock shift and the door open? Just wondering… for like no reason at all… 👀 (I want them to hold my hand as we walk through a mall/strip mall and as we enter stores she picks out things I’d like and I would do the same) PS is it also lowk a little romantic if they’re my bsf….

is it cheating if my bf raped me, then broke up with me bc he thought i was going to break up with him so he did it before i could (i wasn't going to) but we didn't get back together offically and i slept with someone else? i didn't even like the other guy. the only reason i did it was because. well because he a s k e d. and i felt like my bf took that away from me. so when this other guy asked and was so nice and caring during sex (even the before) i said yes and gave it to him but me and my ex kept seeing each other regularly and would still tell each other we loved each other and he asked if there was anyone else and i said no but he found out i slept with someone else and he's saying that i cheated on him? when HE broke up with ME. i know it was wrong to lie about sleeping with the other guy but i wanna know if it was cheating

I’m scared, I have a bad habit of scratching at my skin, ik it doesnt really count as sh but I have scars and stuff. I’m in a relationship and he wants me to get better, I want to get better to, I mean I’ve been a lot better since being with him but I still have my ups and downs. I scratched today and I know I should tell him I just don’t want to burden him with it or make him feel bad or upset, but jt if I keep it to myself he’d end up feeling the same way if he found out, I really don’t know what to do and I wish I could just stop.

I was homophobic and now im not but im 6 days clean and nobody knows other than strangers because I dont tell any of my friends when I relapse anymore but im glad that im clean

Wouldn't imagine that the only time I would talk to my mother after months was to ask her about an issue with the insurance. Like wow I hate the fact that I had to use her insurance and then it doesn't work so I call her. Now out of guilt I told her I will talk to her soon but only if nobody's is there. But there always someone there. I just want her to apologize not just act like everything is fine. It's so hard to try to talk about a topic that hurt but was like everyday for her.

Im only 13 I know this sint the end of the world but it just makes me so sad and scared. Im going to 8th grade this year. I thought I would continue on in the same school with the same friends, the same hallways, the same notebooks, the same teachers, the same everything. But my parents had applied me to a school much closer. (old school was 30mins away. New one is 2mins walking away) I had tried to get into it last year but there was no place for me and I thought it would be the same this time too but turns out I got in. Im really anxious about that i dont what to start over. I like my friendgroup I dont want a new one. My teachers are so awesome I mean it when I say I dont dislike any of them. They're all so amazing. But now ill be going to a new school and worst of all alot of the kids from my elementary school are in that school. I hated who I used to be I was such a weird and mean kid. So I was glad I could start again somewhere far away where no one knew me. Iwantosaymorebutican

Keep sitting on your ass at work Miranda M., while the rest of us get up and room patients. You ugly fat ass is just going to get more fat. No amount of cycling afterwork is going to trim that fat down. You lost weight so you could get your hip surgery done but looks like you learned nothing. You're a fking disgrace to S*U.

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My gf is in so much emotional pain im scared she might khs. I am also on that edge i cant bring myself to say anymore but im falling apart. I got into a double-honors class and now i can only think to myself of how stupid i’ve become. Even if everyone says im a genuis i feel so stupid… I can’t keep up with this class I can’t keep fighting I can’t keep being reminded of my lack of freedom and freewill because im a minor. I have a very criticizing and emotionally neglecting family and im so tired… I can’t everything is too much I keep thinking about kms. But I don’t wanna die… I just wanted to be happy but instead i live in a household where i don’t have the right of freedom and i live like a dog school, home, school home or if not, chores, chores, sleep, chores chores, sleep. I am giving up. And i cant afford to bring anyone down because i’ve been a nuisance for too long a huge pain.