Recent Rants
I wish I was that one overly inquisitive kid, who always asked questions to be met with a knowing smile. I remember watching the achievements of everyone else while being a flunk out, a convoluted fuck up. I was pushed past my whole life, talked over, spat upon by condescending social workers, whom I'm sure I don't fully grasp how they're standing there without simplifying it in police functions. I had a trashy education, trashy parents, clueless authority in my life, and my role models up to now were all muscle-brained idiots. I know I have no insides. I was thrown out of my sleep and now I'm disturbed. I think I want to feel the cannibalism of a man becoming vulture, not the aspect of measurement.
Why is everyone so fake nowadays? Its impossible to find a friend who is actually genuine and not such a jerk. One of my oldest friends started ignoring and ditching me and my sister for her "popular friends" , shes a liar too, when her mom noticed her bad behavior she said that it was her popular friends fault! But some of her popular friends are actually nice and way better than her. Its not fair she hasnt gotten the consequences of her actions and how people think shes a good person...
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TW for mention of molestation, though i don't know if it even qualifies. i've been cut off from the world for a long time and i have gone unconscious for a year and i know i should talk to people probably but it's not good to dump it on anyone and i'm sure whatever illnesses i have signals that i am infectious. there's this thing i saw about someone waiting for the moment they become a good person because they think they don't deserve to talk to other people but it ends with them being stuck in waiting. i want to talk to people but it would be a big burden for them and i've seen the secret gcs where people make fun of my venting and call me crazy before, that's just how luck works. i'm not a good fit for anyone and it makes sense i only attract people who are also dying. there's this one person who keeps talking to me who creeps me out because he keeps touching me but he's the only person to talk to me so i guess i should be happy about that. i just want friends i can trust.
my friend might have killed herself 6 days ago. She said she was going to do it and she hasn’t been online anywhere since
ICE is controlled by The Republican party especially Trump for The Republican party and Trump and now going after a Democratic party Virginia Member, The FBI is controlled by The Republican party and Trump for them
A situation with an ex and friends (vrchat) a while back that im still fucking pissed about and want to rant about
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I just ran into my ex on valorant.. it's been a month, I really did love him and everything. But what I saw broke my soul, his username was Eclipses good boy.. the person he was playing with I knew immediately. He said she was like a 'sister' to him but I guess I was lied too Im still not over him, but seeing this made something in me die.. He moved on so quickly while I'm stuck in love with him, I ended the two year relationship because it was on and off and not good for me, this was the cherry on top of it all
Okay dont know how this work so im just gonna vent ig. So me and this guy have talked and kind of had a thing but then we stopped talking for a year and then I reached out to him. He says we are on good terms and he has someone now and I miss him as a friend but I don’t want to come off as wanting him. We were cool when we connected but then he wouldn’t answer me and then would give a thumbs up or heart to my message so what should I do then? Leave him or try to connect???
i just found out he had a gf the whole time and i feel so stupid. i thought someone actually liked me for once. guess not. but idk. he was overly flirty with me it was weird. he’s weird. and i got my hopes up…i finally thought someone LIKED ME. WANTED ME. i’m accepting the fact that no one will want to settle with me. i’m just fun to talk to. not enough to let someone stay,
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My ridiculousness feels like a flaw. I'm so ridiculous compared to everyone else, they have hierarchies that keep people like me out. I'm nothing special for being blocked out, otherwise I'd take their friendly smiling encouragement that I'm just a coward. I'm so sorry if my trite sounds like it's AI, I know I'm a funny little fellow. I like being laughed at, it shows me that I'm not in control.
I'm so tired of being described as someone whose too negative and complains too much but nobody actually ever listens to the things I'm upset about in the first place. There's no validation or sympathy. I complain because I'm deeply unhappy and I've been so honest about that yet everyone insists it's because I'm just negative for no reason. I refuse to pretend to be positive when I'm not feeling well. I need actual advice on how I can improve my mental health, not criticism on how to be more positive.
Being called an idiot my whole life and thought of as such, I'm used to expecting the worst. I'm arrogant enough to want more for myself, chronically frustrated that nothing is supposed to be straightforward. Disgusted at others for living straightforwardly, yet too pretentious to work for those thoughts. It's not even artistic for me. I'm tired and slow. I don't want the things that people crowd around for, though I never considered myself as different; I'm only skin apart from them, and that's part of the issue. I'm only skin apart, yet feel so distant and strange. I'd rather imagine my body inhibited by insects because the gutting without an opening is too bizarre to possess the words for, but I know I'm such a hack in repeating that. I don't want to be just happy and content. I'm not looking for anything in particular, now I hate blind people or the rich or poor.
Maybe I'm too "woke" or something but I can't bring myself to be mad at a woman. At all. Throughout all my current years and childhood moving up into adulthood, I feel like i can't exactly be mad at a woman no matter what it is she does. Women gave gone through decades of suffering and being silenced, and they still are in a world where we're supposed to be helping them — aiding them. I don't feel comfortable hating or kinkshaming a woman, but it's strange because I feel more than comfortable to kinkshame a man. Does this make sense to any of you? I'd defend women with my life as a man, but I wouldn't really care about men unless they're close to me. In the same vein I feel horrible when I see a sad woman, but not so much for a man despite being a male myself. To me, their decades of suffering makes me feel like women do not deserve to suffer any longer just for being a woman — and that is true to me — men have been at the "top" for a while, so I suppose I switched things up.
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I'm so lonely. My mindset is horrible and it drips out of my body and everyone can tell how ugly I am inside. I'm not trusting, and I always feel like everyone hates me, but I'm too self-aware to seek reassurance, so it just simmers inside me until I get overwhelmed and ghost people. It's all cyclical and it's all my fault. I hate how people never ask after me or take an interest in me, but I know I'm not very interesting. I feel like I'm speaking a different language than everyone else, and people only understand half of what I say. I always say too little or too much. I'm frantic because I feel like I'm wasting my 20s. I feel behind compared to everyone else. I feel smarter than everyone else, but at the same time, I feel so jealous. I know I'm not smarter. I want to coexist with everyone, but I don't know how to be likeable even though I try so hard. I wish people understood my intentions. I wish I could change, but I feel burdened by circumstance. I'm putting off writing a final.
Soon to be thirty, which is far from old of course, but I have no sense of direction in life and that bothers me. Mainly because it has left me feeling distant from living, from connecting with others. At the moment I’m working on trying to create the life I want for myself. In school, soon to be (hopefully) moving away to another city to be around others and connect. Giving it two years. Not for everything to fully connect but to have some sense of a foundation. Something to keep me grounded to the world. If not I genuinely don’t know how much more will in me I have beyond this.
I feel trapped by my family they’re everywhere and I cannot run from them. I am expect to always be around my cousins and unfortunately they’re the only friend I have. I’ve worked at my family business for years and I am struggling to find a job outside of it. The few times I go out with someone new, I have to stress over my family and if I miss a call they beguin screaming through my phone. It’s so isolating, I’m 20, I desperately what to leave but I feel as though I don’t even know how to communicate anymore, it’s been so long since I had a friend that didn’t share my last name.