All Rants

I hate school so much. I hate life in general. Like why do numbers on a paper have to determine our worth in society. Why are letters on a screen a dictator of what our quality of person is. And don't even get me started on the zoochosis. We are living like genuine animals, everyday is the same, always wishing for Friday, always saying, "-- days till the weekend, I can make it". Im mentally done, I can't do this anymore, I feel no urge to try or to socialize at school, cus what's genuinely the point. There is no reason for us as humans to enslave ourselves in the same system that clearly doesn't affect us positively. And no, I'm not saying I hate learning, I actually love learning new things, but it gets to a point where when I'm doing the same thing everyday for a year, I start to mentally detoriate.

Ok this is so weird...I've liked this guy for about two years but haven't made a move on him or even attempted to. Recently he js announced that he got a girlfriend, I feel super happy for them because this is genuinely the happiest I've seen him in ages, but whenever i see them holding hands in the hallway at school, or laughing and hugging each other, I feel a weird sense in my heart and my eyes start to sting. I wanna get over him but I physically can't.

Honestly I feel like every time I try to just talk to anyone about my suicide and self harm thoughts I feel like I keep getting pushed away and it fucking hurts, I just want to feel happy but then as soon as bitch baby T's in my art class they just keep joking about my self harm habits and the scars everywhere on my body when I already hate myself because of them, then they just make it worse by joking about the person who raped me when I was younger and I have to see them every other day on school days and when I hear their voice or someone says their names I just either freeze or just start thinking about the date I have planned to commit suicide, I just want to kill myself and nobody around me helps at all they just make it worse

I have really bad trust issues and have been in many abusive relationships and I finally got to a healthy relationship but I keep feeling like I'm doing things wrong or that they don't like me anymore and they're only dating me out of pity because I told them about me being raped by someone I loved and that I self harm almost everyday and I just want to kill myself but then I think 'what if they actually love me, how would they react and feel' and it always pulls me back from the knife or rope but constantly I've been just feeling the urge just to make a really deep cut or break into my school's roof access and just jump, even if it only injures me or sends me to a psych ward I would be okay with it, I just want to die right now because I feel like I'm losing them and all my friends, maybe that's just me isolating but I feel like anytime I try to just hang out it always either feels like their busy or they bring another person and leave me alone stuck with my thoughts to kill myself

I hate myself so much. I lost the only person I could talk to freely, and it’s my fault. I want to kill myself so bad, but I know I couldn’t leave my mom to find me hanging from the ceiling. Im going to cut tonight again, it’s the only thing I can do to make me feel even a little better. I tell someone abt my sh or any of my mental problems and they think I’m faking or just dont care. I want to feel close to someone so bad but I can’t. And I need that person back but I don’t know how to. I wake up everyday wishing I didn’t. Im In a household with completely different beliefs than me, and I feel left out with everyone Im with. I just want someone to put a bullet in my head already.

Am I really the victim, am I really in the right, am I really alone or did I do this to myself. This friend I had asked me to hang out a few times I turned her down, at the time I was simply not in the mood, but god I should've agreed I was in no place to turn her down. See, I'm used to be being alone at this \point I have this most self seeking attention grabbing personality, which I have gained from being turned down several times not always said verbally, but I always know. If I weren't observant, if I didn't analyze every thing thing maybe I would be different. One time in 9th grade I lost all my friends because a girl didn't like me ands, now I can;'t sit with these people that I don't even consider my friends just people I can like anough so I don't have to sit alone, I mean this same person (not the girl that didn't like me but her best friend) asked me to sit with her when she was alone, and at that point I did not li

My boyfriend needs space to get some stuff done, my texts were distracting him. I'm just having a really rough couple of days and texting him usually makes it better. I'm trying to respect that he needs space but it makes me anxious that I did something to upset him and make him not like me anymore. I'm just feeling really stupid and dealing with a lot grief about different things. And, yeah. Maybe I just need some sleep, idk-

i cant fucking stand my teachers right now, sorry for my language but im genuinely so fucking stressed at 9 at night ranting about how i have a 38 percent in my science class all because i missed one day because i was genuinely sick. i keep up with that class all the time and somehow my shit never gets graded and i dont get the points, i always ask him about my grades and all he gives me is extra credit work, I DONT NEED EXTRA CREDIT i need actual work! all of the things im missing are important and somehow you loose track of it! i genuinely just want to drop out at this point i cant fucking stand this right now.

theres this one person who is so annoying and steals all of the inside jokes that i have with my friends and she is also super rude but i cant ditch her because she is in our small friend group.

There’s this guy i know and i kinda like him.. he’s so nice to me and we’re both super comfortable with eachother. I wanna send him a video saying “the sunset is pretty but you’re prettier” as a discreet confession but like 4-6 months ago i learnt he had a crush and i don’t wanna ruin our relationship

I hate how I keep messing EVERYTHING up. I keep hurting people and they probably find me annoying..I hurt the same people over and over..I don’t mean to..I never mean to..it just happens and happens and happens and I just want to hurt myself as well.

Fuck, I don't know, I've lost count! It's stirred up all my anger and annoyance at people and at the world. First, my boyfriend and I haven't been okay for months; we're ignoring each other, no sex, no clear communication, I'm so bloody fed up with his shit. Secondly, my mum's so sarcastic I blocked her for my own peace of mind. Thirdly, the timeline for the house I'm having built is being delayed because of the bloody government and all their requirements, as if the money we're borrowing is theirs and they can just run off with it, not to mention the fucking taxes, and then I'm just looking forward to our getaway with my mates to Boracay to get some rest and reset, and guess what, last-minute cancellation, hahahaha, flight and accommodation were already booked. For fuck's sake! I can't breathe, it feels like everything's weighing down on my chest all at once. I'm trying my best to be understanding, but for fuck's sake, I feel like I'm about to explode. Fucking hell!!!

Bitch can’t control her mood when at work. We’re not her therapists or her punching bags. I wouldn’t piss on her if she was on fire.

You have barely suffered. You haven't built anything by yourself in the last 19 years. I am trying desperately to force myself to respect you for leeching off men (eew) but its proving extremely difficult. Come back to me when you're on suicide attempt number 4 and still stubbornly clinging on. Until then pray you never encounter me in the wild

I'm horrible, a drug addict, I'm no battery than my parents. My girlfriend is gonna leave me because I can barely take care of myself let alone take care of her. I think I just wish I was in a coma, things would be easier that way, right?

Hi. My name is Emma (nickname:Emmi), and I go by she/her/they/them, I am having trouble in school right now. My friend approached me and said my ex bestfriend is trying to fight me. She has lied and I am so tired of ts. I just want to leave and just lie in bed. :(.

I feel like I can't have an original thought or anything that might be converse to my partner's opinion. And he come to me for my opinion on everything, but if I disagree or poke holes in his perfect plan then I am the bad guy. Like if you want to be right, don't ask for my opinion. Am I the asshole? Probably, but fuck. Let me at least be my own person too.

I feel worthless I feel like no one can love me the way I need.. I feel hopeless.. I feel sad.. and I feel like im drowning.. I feel overwhelmed... and I have no where to go because I cant trust anyone..

Long story short, my partner had a business that he started with a previous spouse when we got together. I was bartending which wasn't a long term career for me, so I stepped in to serve as a sort of office manager/project estimator/accountant/floating help. This ended up becoming my career, and while it didn't spark my heart, it made my partner happy. Fast forward through the years and the expectations grew as I was more comfortable in the field. Ultimately, the burn out was consuming us both and something had to give. The universe intervened and we ended up having to shut down operations due to damage to our work space. We rented and the land lord refused to make repairs. So we finally closed the doors. This was a few years ago. Now I have my own job that supports our family and he does some side work. Today he came to me with an idea to do some estimate writing to help people dealing with insurance companies after a big storm. Problem for me, he profits and I'm doing the work!

I don’t know how i feel about things going on with me.