All Rants

I like the people that dont make me feel so odd or strange. I like when I can actually have a person talk to me and not make it feel like I am a reject or that something is wrong w/ me. Ya I get it I may come off as annoying or for some reason or another ppl dont like me. I figured this out a long time ago, but it makes me happy when, even if ppl sense something off w/ me, that they still talk to me. I get I am not everyones cup of tea or that I am controversial one way or another, it still gives me a sense of relief that even then ppl can still have a conversation w/ me. The ppl that I talk to know what I am talking about just saying it makes me happy w/ the ppl that accept me for my annoyances or off-putting ways..

Title: Why most people are stupid (and that's okay!) with some fake reassurance that I'm equally as stupid and we should come together in spite of our narcissism for the good of our panopticon

I dont want to slut shame ppl but jeez my frens in my old schl have NO self respect. They cant have fun w/o drinking or alcohol and theyre 17 and my best fren was proud of the fact that she was the last person in our social circle (other than me and another girl) to give head to somoene. THATS NOT SMT TO BE PROUD OF?!!! LIKE???

life just got worse. I sh'd. or tried to. I used this blade I found on the ground of school. and I scratched it against my hand. I tried to feel something. anything other than this aching fucking pain. I almost used scissors to cut myself in Spanish class today, but I caught myself. I don't want attention. I HATE attention. i feel pathetic. as if nothing has changed. the medication feels like its getting worse. these suicidal thoughts are going and I feel as if one day I'll be gone. if one day I'll be away from this earth. I had two mental breakdowns this week, and it was horrible. when I told my mom, she focused on the fact that I cried over my friend not being here for a week, saying "if you worried so much, then why didn't you just text her?" BEAUSE I WASCYRING HLELO??? I don't get it. she glazed over the fact that I had a mental breakdown TWICE. she also doesn't think being nonbinary exists. great. just fucking great.

it feels like none of my friends actually like me bc like none of them seem concerned or phased by me admiring I attempted less than a week ago and someone in my friend group told me to kms. and like, dude I just tried to. idk I feel like I'm just overreacting even tho I know I'm not. only two ppl really cared when I told them I attempted and that was my bsf and my situationship. I have a literal depression diagnosis and my mom accused me of just being lazy and after I attempted and got out of the hospital she found some of my school work unfinished and accused me of trying to kms to get out of school. The one time I attempt it just feels like no one cares. all my friends will ask for my input on things and then not listen to me and I've been repeatedly cut off for months by basically everyone. its just so tiring when the people who claim to love you don't even listen to you and ignore you half the time.

I feel so stupid for it, I dont even know how to properly connect with people anymore. All of my friends feel distant and I am like, SCARED of them. Last time I had a partner I became terrified of the intimacy we had which wasnt even that close. We only kissed, and that was enough to send me into a spiral where I avoided school, started feeling sick with anxiety about seeing him and such. I went from loving him and not wanting to be apart from him to becoming sick with fear every time I thought about him. I don't do my work even though I know I should and could, and I dont focus in class. I feel distant from everyone. Like I genuinely wouldnt care if they left. And I often wish I never met some of my closest friends. Not because of anything they did, purely because I just dont want friends. I feel so stupid for all of it. Im failing my classes, im going to get fired from my job, and i feel like a piece of shit knowing I could fix it if I tried but I just dont im like trapped inside me.

I was married at 18 to a 29 year old man. It turned abusive and violent. I had to flee and while I'm home now and safe, it doesn't feel like that always still. I feel the dread still of an outburst or the constant eggshells. I'm processing the things done to me and the worries everyone else had while I was trapped in a fucking basement in the middle of nowhere Canada, married to this predator. My parents and I have always had a complicated relationship, but I know they love me and they saved my ass on my escape back to Ohio. Some things echo in my head and I don't know how to deal with them such as one of my parents asking what is the longest I'll go without answering messages just in case. I want to get back into therapy. I want to talk, but I know the things I hold are disturbing. My parents apparently wondered, almost daily near the end, about how long they would have to go without a response to know they should start searching for my body cause they thought my ex would murder me.

I wrote my suicide note last night. I don’t even know where to go from here, Im scared to die but Im also scared to live. My life has become an endless loop of fear and sadness. How much more am I supposed to take? Is it selfish to feel this way? Idk.

I’ve been clean from SH for month and my life had finally felt good again I’ve been feeling happier and better but I just had a break down and I SH and it was bad.

I have this friend where I’d be the happiest to around with. But the second i tell her something i reallly REALLY love like ocs and my favourite media, she'd respond so underwhelmingly, like woah, thats so cool, and etc. I dont wanna mind it that much cause she's my friend yk, and she told me already that she's not good with responding, but at the same time thats how she respond when she is not interested so i overthink a lot. We are two peas in a pod but we also haven't known each other for that long, so I understand why im having a difficult time processing emotions. But I do wanna fix my problem without seeming too sensitive and insecure, i wanna reflect and do better and not just overthink the entire time, yk.

I fucking hate myself, I hate being a trans man, I'm tired of people wanting me dead, I'm so fucking tired, I'm seriously going to commit, I'm only here because I have an amazing mom, but I'm seriously tired. I fucking hate everyone in this god damn world, whoever is reading this I hope you know your FUCKED! This world has fucked you over, and you in general are a fucked up person, NO ONE DESERVES HEAVEN. EVERYONE NEEDS TO GO TO HELL! I'm fucking sick of it all, everyone should burn, and you just disagree because you have not seen all the terror that comes with the existence of humanity.

i’m fifteen pounds lighter than my friends but i look twenty freaking pounds heavier and i’m simply sick of it.

everyday is kind of the same day for me. honestly, i wished that there was a small spark in my life. i wished to find that person who'd give me a small spark. not a whole fire which either is too much or it burns but not lit out like its not even thinking to light up. when will i stop feeling this way?

It's truly laughable how clumsy I am, how I always knock everything over or make basic mistakes in establishing comfort with others. I can't tell when or how I'm being annoying, I just know that I'm not wanted anywhere. It's only a matter of time before I go tumbling over the bookshelf, bumping into walls, making a fool of myself, damaging equipment because of how simple I am. I see ridiculous, conceited, self-loathing posts like this across the internet and it angers me how common I am. I'm so frustrated living day to day, it feels that I can't do anything right and I'm forced into loneliness or trying to half-think myself into mimicking the people that have been spoken for. I know I don't have any practical intelligence nor booksmarts, all I have is this stupid laughable envy conceited as ambition when it's a tragic, social mockery. I don't truly want anything or to go anywhere, I just want to stop the feeling that everyone is laughing at my slightest mistakes.

How is it that people support a pedophile like Trump? It’s insane!

So a bit ago my and my close friend used to act like we where daiting, like she'd kiss me on my cheek and we would snuggle at sleep overs. Then on December 22 2025 I had my first kiss with her, it was like a dream and it was heaven. But then the kisses stopped. The pet names the everything stopped. And now im wondering what I did wrong. Was it something I said? Something I did? I've had a crush on her for around i think almost a year now. And I miss that. But she did say she would kiss me again but that was like in January. And now im crying like a fool wondering what i did wrong.

the Windows 25H2 26200 is a THING momma said I can hate THINGS (not people) so on this THING "I HATE IT!!!!!"!!!!! HP Omnistudio is new and this is the only thing I've done that didn't involve fixing only to be told "Microsoft/Windows" replaced what you have been trying to do ( for 3 days) and din't say anything.

i genuinley hate my hamster sometimes i have to take him out my room and i feel so horrible because i can hear him trying to chew through the plastic at the bottom of his cage and it is the most grating noise i have ever heard it actually drives me insane that sometimes i think maybe it wouldnt be so bad if he did chew through his cage and just run out the house and i feel so mean and i hope he doesnt cuz my dog will actually eat him but he escaped his ball today when i cleaned out his cage and bit the shit out of me when i tried to pick him up and hes not even in my room hes downstairs and i can still hear him trying to chew through that stupid fucking plastic and it drives me insane and im too scared to bring up rehoming to my dad because i begged him for months to let me have my hamster and i do love him i just feel so bad

i started applying to jobs earlier this year. last week, i got an email inviting me to do a phone screening, but when i emailed back i didn't get any response. yesterday, i got another invite, so i texted the recruiter and said i was available whenever, following my parents' advice, despite them knowing i have the worst sleep schedule where i struggle to get up before 5-6 pm for years now. i managed to wake up at 2 pm and saw i missed the recruiter's text, which was sent at 8 am, asking if i could do 10 am to 12 pm. i immediately texted back, apologizing and asking them to give me potential time slots but no reply. my dad says i should just trying calling them today anyway, but i feel like i've messed up. i feel stupid for going along with his advice, even if it meant well, because now it's caused me to potentially miss an opportunity. idk if i should call them because i feel like i'm going to get ghosted.

i hate people on reddit they are so disgusting because they call people idiots when they are the idiots. i can't stand people. they make me fill up with rage and human beings are repulsive. People need to shut up and kill themselves already. People make me sick and I just want to kill them. People deserve to be murdered. People need to be chopped up for opening their mouth.It would make me feel better. I already feel better saying it. I want to scare and upset people so bad because I'm a stranger and they say they don't like me but they don't know me. I know people will say gee i wonder why but I don't care. I want people to suffer instead because I thrive on that. i mean it. Some fuck face came along once and started attacking me for no reason, he starts judging me and then bullies me. I wanted to poke his eyes out, It makes me want to torture people. It would make me feel powerful. But I'm so angry because I'm minding my own business and living my life and people talk to me.