All Rants

It's mother's day and yet you make it about you. Why can't you choose to be patient with me and your special needs child. It's so exhausting having to manage our child and still walk on eggshells because you don't agree on how I'm managing our child.

i feel unloveable. I want love so bad but no one was ever wanted it as bad as i did

there is this one girl who keeps copying me for literally no reason i was no joke just minding my business and me and my best friend are just joking around and recently ive been quite invested in formula 1 (then after me the other girl is also invested in f1 - copying me- and making it her entire personality) but my best friend is not into f1 so she makes this joke, "im cheering for lance stroll" which is a satire joke between fans and im like no stop and then bsf says to the other girl the joke and she says, "okay" and thinks its fine but its a joke. and then my friend said she didnt get the satire part and then she explains the joke and then all of a sudden she switches up and says, "OMG WHY WOULD YOU CHEER FOR HIM OMGGGG" and goes off on her like girl you were just there a second ago.

a boy made fun of me for my religion. why am I the subject of hatred in my school now? all the girls stare at me like I hurt them somehow, the boys call me a freak, I am loosing my friends. pretending I'm fine isn't enough anymore I am done being the positive one I want someone to reassure me for once to actually care about my mental health

the song "a pearl" by mitski relates to me on a personal level. i dated a girl before and I would always text first, give the compliments, write paragraphs for her i wanted her to give me any compliments back and when she had one of her depressive episodes I felt more pressured to be a comforter to her over and over it drained me i am ruined because of her but I still hope she is okay and I still check in on her

people can be so ass. today, i decided to speak up and back. because i cant stand being scolded so much for things i didnt do.

im so tired of always having to witness your random outburst and tantrums. its been so long and you always complain but you never look at the bigger picture. its so so tiring always bottling up emotions and staying quiet just so things wouldnt be worse. youre so self centered. I hope one day you eat up those hurtful words you spoke just to put yourself in a better image. I hope one day you realize your wrongdoings. I hope one day, you dont regret those things, because the day you do, it will hurt you a lot.

I don’t wanna lose him. I love him. I want him. And I couldn’t imagine my life without him after everything. I just hoped and I’ve always prayed for us to be okay again.

If my BF still wants me but removed our relationship status from his account and then sent me messages not to come over to their house and says sorry a lot for everything—for not being perfect, not matching my effort, etc. what do I do? I’m completely lost

im really tired of never being anyones first choice. its always been like this for me, but im really now just realizing i dont have anyone that would choose me first in a life or death situation. ive been trying to put myself out there more, but i just end up looking really fucking stupid. i just want to experience love how everyone else in my fucking life does, but apparently something is wrong with me. ive dated 1 person, and it just mentally screwed me over. everyone i talk to now either looks at me like im insane, or never even responds. im so so tired

Today I just moved in my house and when I was making my room own room my mom came and took my books and put it on the bookshelf but I just got mad because those were my personal books and when I was walking back into my room and she asked my a question so I said yes and I guess she didn't hear me and opened my door forcefully and yelled at me telling me not to slam the door when she was talking to me and when she left I just broke down crying for some reason and I just kept saying why did she yell at me because I didn't even slam the door I answered her question and close the door and so she came in 2 times asking if things were mind and on the 2nd time she seen that I was crying and just left me alone, I don't know what I did like I was just being myself like what did I do to get yelled at and I just sat there and thought and how I felt when she first yelled at me and I felt scared I don't know what I did what did I do to get yelled at I did nothing wrong I can't exist in my own room

My brother raped me again... I don't know what to do hes stronger I cant get him off me. I want to die

i want to kill myself so bad, and it genuinely looks like the better side of life. if i die, then all of my suffering will be over. if i don't, then at least i'll be able to go to a psych ward or something similar of the sorts to get the help i need. i can't live like this anymore. constantly feeling depressed and drained, i mean. my best friend that i genuinely considered my home doesn't even seem to like me anymore while all of my other friends don't actually *know* me, know me.and my parents, well, they just don't get it. at least not my dad. my mom seems to actually be following with what my therapist said with how to accomodate me and the fact that i'm neurodivergent; my dad hasn't changed a bit. the only thing that's keeping me going is the fact that i'm getting good at debate, that i can speak and be passionate. it's nice to be able to be passionate about something when i feel so terrible all the time.

I'm depressed, I've always been my first motivater and never gave up because of this show called Ninjago which I really love but was billed from my uncle who's a few years older about how it's a baby show so I hid my watching from them, starting January first I was on a road with god to try and become better since last year I was a Lukewarm and I sinned terribly on January first and just became depressed from there, my family thinks I'm just lazy since I dont wanna do anything but I can't do anything, I feel like life has no purpose anymore and should just live through it, they think this because I laugh, happy, and everything and thinks everything is okay, but 2 years ago I was suicidal when I was 8 so I had to hid it to stop all the treatments, I'm emotional numb now confused, I realized I was in spiritual warfare and did a 3 a.m. prayer and I actually feel happier, I have a confidence boost so no idea what to do now, should I continue or just end it here?

My moms and her boyfriend has been together since 2022 and he has his own 3 kids who lived with us only in the summer, I was young and I didn't think I needed the space and I thought living with them was fine, but I hated them because they never showered and was weird so I bullied them, stopped last summer when I just ignored them, but Now their living with us again this summer and I don't want them to, I'm older and very matured and I want them to sleep in the living room this time, they slept in my room for the past 2 years since his oldest autistic son doesn't want them there and I let them, now I want my old space and when he FaceTime them I was gonna talk to my mom about them sleeping in the living room, I don't want them in my room since it's my space, I already know their gonna force them in my room so should I go live with my dad that I barely have a relationship with or not?

I’ve been feeling really selfish and off put lately. I’m not entirely sure why. But every little thing feels huge, and things people do seem worse than they are. I know people don’t really mean to ignore me, it’s just bad timing. But it happens a lot, and it hurts my feelings. I know they don’t mean it, but I get so defensive and sad about it. I’ve even been stepping outside of my comfort zone trying to be more likable. I don’t wanna be forgotten, and I try really hard to do things that other people like, so people hopefully hang out with me more. But it seems like the universe just laughs in my face. Once I get good at something everyone else likes, something goes wrong. Whether I’m too behind to keep up, the creators are weird, or it’s suddenly slop. And then I’m left behind again. :c

my boyfriend is the type of person to constantly be on his phone, i'm not a jealous person but I have seen almost everything in his phone. he's not cheating or anything, he's just always on his phone. however, before this weird period, he did like to spend a lot of time with me, like watching movies and all of that. however, recently he's been acting really distant. almost never talking to me and constantly going out with our friends and acting weird when I want to come along too. like he doesn't want me to come. I feel so lonely lately. I don't know what to do and i'm pretty sure our 3 year long relationship is about to come to an end. i cut off all of my family and friends and I have no one and no where left to go. i've been feeling so hopeless and down and whenever I tell him how i'm feeling he doesn't understand despite being in the same boat in past relationships. I don't know what to do and It's making me crazy and extremely depressed. sorry for this poorly worded vent.

I fucking hate everything, nothing seems fun to me anymore. I’m so lonely it disgusts me, I have one friend that I consider close and trustworthy. And guess what, she has another friend who she likes more. Literally what’s the point of living. Nothing is fun, all we do is work eat sleep repeat.

Am I the only one that’s so fucking insecure I can’t even watch movies or shows with beautiful female main characters. Pls I’m going insane, it makes me so envious and angry seeing how pretty one can be. I’m so disgusting and ugly omg I’m gonna die

I can't feel anymore and I can't tell anyone bc they'd just get mad for not telling them sooner but I dont know what to do and all I can think about is fucking drugs. I don't do them but they're all that's on my mind, an escape, to feel something, ANYTHING. I can't tell people what I like or my opinions without the risk of them using it against me, for example: "Why the fuck do you listen to screaming? That's not music!" or "But trump is good! He's trying to fix America!" no, just no, he's a fucking rapist, homophobe, racist and think of any other bad qualities and it's him. Anyways, please try to stay alive, it'll be worth it, even if it doesn't seem like it now, I love you.