I don’t wanna be in this world. Not in a suicidal way, but in a way where if this world wasn’t.. this world, I’d wanna actually be here. In my head, an apocalyptic world where there’s only children-animal hybrids that only survived because their immune system was stronger or something would be perfect. Not one where there was fighting and kids doing not kid stuff, but one where everyone made an agreement to have communities and try not to harm anyone. Of course, there would be kids who WILL cause trouble, but the majority doesn’t. That is the perfect world. (Also this isn’t in a furry/therian way, just in a sweet tooth show like world but only children (I REALLY HOPE THIS DOESNT SOUND WEIRD-)

what if i just end it all? would it really be that bad? I keep praying. im doing everything i can. has God given up on me? everyone else has. Im barely even functioning. my depressions sky high. Fuck man. i feel so empty. i feel so alone. so dead inside. i just want it to stop. why wont it stop. why do i relive what he did every fucking day. ive lost all hope. im tired. i just want to die. every. moment. of. everyday. i feel his hands like their still there. i miss my friends. i miss my family. but most of all i miss the girl i used to be. i actually watched him in the mirror above the hotel bed rip the spark out of my eyes. my mom made my kid brother (13 btw) search for my razors while i was bakeracted.

The concept of religion absolutely pisses me off, i hate videos using religion for likes and subscribers, (im an atheist by the way.)| The videos that are like "oowww Like and subscwibe if you love allah" or whatever fucked up bullshit, "god loves you" "you are a son/daughter of god" Look on my face right now and try and see if I GIVE A FUCK!!! and plus, most of the images are ai slop being used to decieve kids so they can just press a thumbs up button, (really fucking lazy, I know.) like im sorry, "jesus" Did NOT, NOT!!! bless a random motherfuckers food, Just a quick note I AM NOT hating on religion, im just saying it can be annoying at times, anyways, continuing, i hate how much my school forces christianity Right in my face, i dont WANT to pray to a god i dont believe in, and i dont have to believe in it, OK?!?! Anyways.... That was a long ride!! Thanks for reading, wish me luck i guess, buh bye