When I was younger my dad was idk what words to use and I don’t even know if it was all true but I did know some stuff he did argue with my mother many times and it got physical a few times but that is not why I am ranting I always thought I had a good relationship with my mother but now that I am grown up a little I am realising that I don’t know if this is true but she was using me as a last hope all my siblings had Stopped believing her and I was its hard to say because I am still not sure if she was manipulating me or if it was reall but I agreed with what she said and I got really close with her until I was around 9 she went out idk drinking or doing drugs I really don’t know but she was away for 2 days I stayed up for 36h waiting for her too come home and I fell asleep and when I woke up she was still not home by the end of that day she came home but I was so young I didn’t know what or where she was and now it’s different I don’t live with her skiped Xmas Iamruningoitofspacebye