I'm so mad right now I feel like I can't think straight and it hurts so much. I was recently diagnosed with ADHD and OCD along with my preexisting anxiety, and it's like I can't form a single coherent thought. All of these ideas and things I need to do are bouncing around in my head and I just want to scream. I need to do so many things but I can't engage and feel like I physically cannot do anything about it. I miss when life was simple and it didn't pain me to think for too long. I wish i had a normal brain and could focus and just listen for one goddamn second because my brain is so screwed. I wish that life didn't suck and for one second I could be happy and get out of my head for longer than 5 minutes. I wish my parent's cared enough to do something about it and that I wouldn't have to live sitting in pain and silence that I cover up with jokes and pretend that everything is fine and I'm not dying to escape to some far off place where I could just be happy. i wish for so, so much.