Rant #2511

I am so tired of this, I feel like every path has been a dead end, things get good for it to go worse again. Sometimes I wonder if I was cursed before I was even born, Like I was put into this world with the sole purpose of being some horrible pawn of god, or whatever all knowing, all powerful deity wants me for. I was my dads only daughter and I don't wanna die, I wanna carry HIM on, not myself but I wanna keep going for him and my best friend, they didnt die for me to throw a fit and give up, but im not that strong.