Rant #2460

i dont want to get better. i probably have bpd, depression and social anxiety and ive been struggling with the symptoms since i was 6. i dont care though, ive been miserable my whole life and im comfortable with it. i want to hurt forever, i want the scars to last. if i recover then i lose my entire sense of being. my sickness is the only thing that makes me special. im not happy with it but ive found a community with people who are anti recovery too even if they dont know me. i get it and i want to keep hurting with them too. lets have matching scars together