Honestly I feel like every time I try to just talk to anyone about my suicide and self harm thoughts I feel like I keep getting pushed away and it fucking hurts, I just want to feel happy but then as soon as bitch baby T's in my art class they just keep joking about my self harm habits and the scars everywhere on my body when I already hate myself because of them, then they just make it worse by joking about the person who raped me when I was younger and I have to see them every other day on school days and when I hear their voice or someone says their names I just either freeze or just start thinking about the date I have planned to commit suicide, I just want to kill myself and nobody around me helps at all they just make it worse
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