Rant #2439

I hate myself so much. I lost the only person I could talk to freely, and it’s my fault. I want to kill myself so bad, but I know I couldn’t leave my mom to find me hanging from the ceiling. Im going to cut tonight again, it’s the only thing I can do to make me feel even a little better. I tell someone abt my sh or any of my mental problems and they think I’m faking or just dont care. I want to feel close to someone so bad but I can’t. And I need that person back but I don’t know how to. I wake up everyday wishing I didn’t. Im In a household with completely different beliefs than me, and I feel left out with everyone Im with. I just want someone to put a bullet in my head already.