I wish I was that one overly inquisitive kid, who always asked questions to be met with a knowing smile. I remember watching the achievements of everyone else while being a flunk out, a convoluted fuck up. I was pushed past my whole life, talked over, spat upon by condescending social workers, whom I'm sure I don't fully grasp how they're standing there without simplifying it in police functions. I had a trashy education, trashy parents, clueless authority in my life, and my role models up to now were all muscle-brained idiots. I know I have no insides. I was thrown out of my sleep and now I'm disturbed. I think I want to feel the cannibalism of a man becoming vulture, not the aspect of measurement.