Rant #2389

I hate being so emotionally sensitive and grasping onto anything I possibly can in a person, even when I know I cant have them. I want him so badly but im leaving him in this next chapter of my life. Why do I have to leave him? Why cant I have him? I know why, but it still hurts so much. I hate that I want him so much. I hate that I cry when I think about the fact I have to leave him soon. I hate all of it. I love him so much even though I know I shouldnt. The yearning I have is absolutely insane. Fuck.