Rant #2379

i used to think something was wrong with me because ive never had a crush before or felt romantic love before or bc ive never enjoyed doing things with friends or felt joy from platonic relationships. i mean i figured out what being aro meant so i know one word but what about the rest??? i didnt feel the need to stay in contact with childhood friends even after attending school with the same two groups of people for the first 17 years of my life. it was like they were nothing to me and i dont know why. they outgrew me and it hurt, and still not for long. why dont i care? even online friends, i uninstalled discord because it was boring. online friends of 7+ years, games, voice calls, everything. i uninstall the app and im lighter for it. why does taking people out of my life make me happy?